[Tazmania Tiger]

Lately I've been really down. My parents keep yelling at me, I'm finding I don't really care if I ever reach my dreams, my grades are suffering terribly, and I'm losing my train of thought and finding it hard to finish conversations with my friends. I've even been letting this boy get "to close" if you know what I mean and I dont even care. I dont love him and I know he doesnt love me but I basically let him do whatever he wants. Before you think to far ahead though, I havent had sex with him. But I feel I'm getting pretty close to it. I feel I'm losing all meaning in my life and going numb to everything around me. Yes, I have had thoughts of suicide, and I dont care. It doesnt feel like anyone will miss me when I'm gone since love is so easy to fake these days. I've been thinking alot about the human life and what we've created and destroyed even what we believe and can't understand. I like to wonder where my soul would go or if it really exists and suicide seems like it would give me the answers I need but somethings stopping me. I dont know what it is. Maybe I'm to scared to take a life, even if it is my own. I just dont know.

Hello, Tazmania Tiger. Do you think it would be beneficial to print your post and show it to your parents? You need someone to talk, maybe professional help. Please try to get help.

[lynn P.]

((Tazmania Tiger)) - you ask some deep and intelligent questions but you don't have to end your life to find the answer. Your username conjures up a strong image in my mind. I'm a mother of a 9 and 13 yr olds and I believe young women need to empower themselves. Don't let that boy do what ever he pleases...you're too valuable to let that happen. Save yourself for someone who truly values you as person, not just a body.

Are you getting help for your depression? If not please do reach out to your parents or a counselor or a trusted adult. The best advice I can give you is, to get help and work on becoming a strong young woman. I made the mistake of not finishing university and I regret it now. You're right, love and sex doesn't get the respect it deserves in todays society...that's all the more reason to be selective. I hope you feel better and get the right help.

[Leed]

Sweetie, you're asking some very deep questions ~ some have answers and some do not. But suicide isn't the answer! That's a permanent solution to a TEMPORARY problem! Things aren't always going to be this way. You are deeply depressed right now -- that is going to change! Because you're a teen, hormones are flying all over the place! When I was your age, I too wanted to die -- the guy I loved didn't love me, and I just didn't want to live. My parents were alcoholics -- and they never showed us kids any love at all. No one loved me. I felt so all alone.

But those feelings CHANGE. You need to talk to a professional. Your first step should be to talk to a counselor at school. That's the first step. Then the counselor should talk to your parents and tell them that YOU NEED professional help!! If you told me, they would just pooh-pooh it. The school counselor needs to talk to them.

Please talk to your counselor -- this could be the lifeline that you need! Hold on until Monday when you can talk to him/her. Don't harm yourself -- we want you here!! Promise??? Please? I hope you'll post after you've talked to the counselor and let us know how it went. God bless you. I'll check here on Monday. Love, Lee

[Tazmania Tiger]

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

Hello, Tazmania Tiger. Do you think it would be beneficial to print your post and show it to your parents? You need someone to talk, maybe professional help. Please try to get help.

My parents aren't really all there for me. I have a large family and my parents seem to always be preoccupied with my brothers or there own daily troubles so I'm not really used to talking to them. I think a lot about how much my mom doesnt get about me. I'm stubborn so I know I'm not gonna be the first one to strike up a conversation and tell her how I feel. I'm not that good at talking to other people I know, that could judge my decisions, so I can't talk to my counseler. It doesnt seem like I have anyone to talk about whats going on so I looked up depression and found this site. I know I need help; I dont like feeling that I dont have a purpose.

[Tazmania Tiger]

Originally Posted by Leed

Sweetie, you're asking some very deep questions ~ some have answers and some do not. But suicide isn't the answer! That's a permanent solution to a TEMPORARY problem! Things aren't always going to be this way. You are deeply depressed right now -- that is going to change! Because you're a teen, hormones are flying all over the place! When I was your age, I too wanted to die -- the guy I loved didn't love me, and I just didn't want to live. My parents were alcoholics -- and they never showed us kids any love at all. No one loved me. I felt so all alone.

But those feelings CHANGE. You need to talk to a professional. Your first step should be to talk to a counselor at school. That's the first step. Then the counselor should talk to your parents and tell them that YOU NEED professional help!! If you told me, they would just pooh-pooh it. The school counselor needs to talk to them.

Please talk to your counselor -- this could be the lifeline that you need! Hold on until Monday when you can talk to him/her. Don't harm yourself -- we want you here!! Promise??? Please? I hope you'll post after you've talked to the counselor and let us know how it went. God bless you. I'll check here on Monday. Love, Lee

I haven't talked to my counselor. I'm sorry, I just find it hard to talk to people I know and expect them not to judge me, especially my parents. My mom is the most judgemental person I've ever met and I think thats the reason I cant talk to her and my dads a guy, obviously, so I really can't talk to her and expect her to understand. Thats why I came her, to talk to people who can't judge me because they dont know me.

[Elana05]

Originally Posted by Tazmania Tiger

...my mom is the most judgemental person I've ever met...

Tazmania Tiger,
This sounds really hard to deal with. I hope you will reach out and ask for help, maybe make an appointment to speak to someone, like a doctor... You deserve to feel better.
You can also call a hotline if you just need someone to talk with:
(U.S)800-273-8255