Sometime

Sometime there is too much things to handle. I have no one to turn to for help and support. I feel I am slipping. I'm trying not too but I am. I am going down and I can't stop it.

forgoten

{{{{{{{Forgoten}}}}}}}}}}}}} I don't know how much posting on here helps you. I will tell you that this place keeps me hanging on by a thread, but I am still hanging.

I have no one in my life, except my T and he isn't available 24/7 for me, that cares or is even willing to listen. It's a very lonely, isolating feeling - no one honestly cares.

The people on this board do care and try to be there for everyone. It's not the same as if it were in real life, but hopefully it may be enough for you to have a reason not to slide completely. I admit that there have been a few times where it wasn't enough, but the rest far outweigh the bad.

I take one day, one hour, at a time. I can not look further ahead or I will sink. Try to do the same. Just get thru an hour and congratulate yourself on doing it.

Try to focus on one issue at a time, when you need to deal with it - otherwise you may get overwhelmed. Every day is a struggle and I always hope I win. I hope you do as well.

You are more than welcome to PM me anytime. Take things slowly, please.

Mary Alice

You have here Forgotten. You have us. I know things can be too much. this place has always been here and it's full of caring and understanding people. Talk to us. Keep hanging on and we'll support you as best we can.
Big hugs sweetie,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{forgoten}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} You are welcome to pm me, please take care, Fuzzy xxx

Thank you so very much!

I have learned all my life to keep things to myself. "Be there but don't ask for anything. You are not important. Just help the others and don't get in the way".

So what I'm trying to say is that it's very hard for me to open up. The feeling I bother is very strong in me. The feeling I take too much space is also very strong in me.

The feeling I'm taking someone else place is the strongest in me. When my sister died in a car accident, I felt it should had been me instead of her. So I feel I'm taking a place in this world that doesn't belong to me. She would had been much better then I. And the rest of my familly loved her so much.

Right now I feel guilty for writing this, because you are trying to help me and I have a hard time accepting the hands that are reaching out to me. I see and feel your kindness. I hate myself for doing this to you. There is also things going on on the boards that is not helping me to open up. But this is all my problems. And I'm so sorry.

I'm trying so very hard to blocked everything but sometime the cry inside me is louder then my strengh.

Thank you!
forgoten

Keep interacting with us, (((((((Never Forgoten))))))) = I value your participation here so very much, and I find myself always looking for you when I come on = I would really miss you if you weren't here, and you have an inherent right to 'be' - I'm so sorry that things have happened that make you doubt that sometimes, but I, for one, really like it a lot, and am really appreciative, that you are in this place with us!!! Most fondly, Peanut

<font color=blue>HI FROM PEANUT</font color=blue>

I understand you feelings but want to say that you have just as much right to life and everything good as anyone else.
I know it's hard to open up and your not used to it but you can do that here. This place isn't perfect but there area lot of good people who will support and back you up.
Great big caring hugs Forgotten,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell