no good

oh I so feel for you

I had dhs in my life 10 years ago and no one had recovered since

the good thing about a dx for your son is that it should give you access to respit care
seriously check it out, he could go away for the weekend... have fun... like a sleep over or camp and you can get some rest

I was a single mom with an undiagnosed asperger child. after the dx I found a web site for the families and found out that all the parents were exhausted so at least you know why you are so exhausted now

so your son is bipolarl.. we all have something
and it really good that it has been identified so soon so the schools etc will be able to adapt. A friend of mine had a son who was dxed in grade 11 as dyslexic. He couldn't read. Should have been dxed a lot sooner. So good for you in getting the dx. Hope you can get support now.

strength and courage to you

roses

just freaked out at my son's school bookfair. it's held in their tiny little library, so there's books everywhere, and people everywhere, and i couldn't move because of that. standing in line i started having trouble breathing and started feeling really panicky. i usually don't get actual panic attacks, but i do panic when i can't move. i'm still fighting back tears, still trying to get my breathing back to normal. my hands are shaking like crazy.

another day feelng like crap. can't cope.

honestly, you did a fantastic job just getting there
having said that, it seems to me that you really need some down time to decompress. Yesterday, I did a lot and was really stressed because of what I did.
Today I relaxed and tomorrow I will do stuff. But I don't have kids and am not working at this time so I can look after myself.

I really hope you can find a way to relax and let the anxiety come down a little.

roses

i feel like right now that's all i do, nothing. i just don't have the energy to do anything. did a load of laundry tonight, it's still sitting in the dryer. need to empty the dishwasher. the whole house needs cleaned. i keep it picked up and clutter free, but ijust don't have th e energy to anything else.
i wish i could sleep for a while. just lseep, nothing else.

just sleep

realized i hadn't showered in a week. took a shower. took me 45 minutes. i just don't have the energy to move.

don't want to deal with anything anymore. don't want to deal with the kids, and the house, and the finances, and all those million appointments. just wnat to disapper.

I saw a doctor on tv talking about sleep deprivation. He was talking about how college students didn't sleep enough during the week but they slept all day Sunday. And doctors who worked fo 36 or 48 hours then slept for two days.

Then he said the parents when they were sleep deprived and couldn't catch up on sleep because they had to be up for the kids, just kept taking energy from the reserve until it was chronic fatigue.

sorry you are so burned out

roses

I know you were upset by the book fair, whenwillitend, but you made it through! You did it! You should pat yourself on the back for that. Better yet, give yourself a kiss. This is a trick I learned from a management tape I listened to when I was working, years ago. Take two fingers, press them to your lips, and put a kiss on them. Then wipe your fingers with that kiss gently on your cheek. Give yourself a kiss--take care of you, for YOU! That was the message. Just show yourself a little kindness when you are down and out. Doesn't take hardly any effort, but it will feel good.

Another thing you can try. Close your eyes. Take a deep breath in. Then breathe out. Take another deep breath in. Then breathe out again. It's relaxing and rejuvenating. Will help get you through the tough times. If you can do this several times a day, it WILL help.

Thinking of you--sending warm thoughts your way!