Hate the fact that I was born

The title of this sort of explains the whole thing really. I don't see the point in me having been born just because nothing every seems to have gone right for me. There doesn't seem to be anything good that has happened.
I am fed up with what the world keeps dealing me and I don't want to play this game anymore.

i feel like that most days i think are we here to be put through all this. ive tried to carry on with my life but its to overwelming and i cant cope with it. take care

I read once that we learn most about ourselves in difficult times - sorry things are tough for you right now

giving you a big hug!!

you are here on this earth for a reasson, not to suffer but to have human experiences, i know it hurts, but you must try, have you sought out a therapist, or talked to your physician, there are people who see you as a worthy beautiful person, we cant see ourselves of course but others see you. hang in there make contact with a university hospital mental health center, i dont know where you live but the universities are very helpful, espicailly the hospitals connected with them. dont give up, never give up, you belong here, have a right to exist, but you must try becasue that is all we can really do, or go to the nearest hospital emergency room, they usually have social workers there who can help guide you to the help you need, this online haven is here and alot of people are in the same boat, try, please try.

i spent time talking with my T today about how i would rather be dead. i have dealt with depression a large part of my life. i am doing well now and have been for quite a while, but still, although not suicidal anymore, i would rather be dead. i keep this part of myself stuffed away. but while my life carries no meaning, i have reached the point where i can agree the things i do in my life are meaningful. the interactions i have with people are meaningful. people value me today. i do good things. it has taken some time to get here, but i have gotten here.

Bless your heart --- that's a horrible way to feel. I'm sorry you're hurting so much.

I've been depressed all my life - even as a child -- and I've been on antidepressants for many years. It has helped to the point where I don't WANT to die anymore. Perhaps if you talked with your medical doctor, he could help you. Please give him a call and tell him how you feel.

You WERE put here for a reason -- it's just up to us to figure out what that reason is. God doesn't make 'junk' --- you are important. Please take care of yourself -- and call your doctor. God bless. Hugs, Lee

posted by janeblu
"there are people who see you as a worthy beautiful person, we cant see ourselves of course but others see you."

This is true we cant see are selfs how others few us. today i had a conversation with a friend from college and she was telling how much good stuff someone else on the course was saying about me. i really thought people didnt think much of me because i didnt think much about myself. i was wrong and im going to try and view myself as someone important. hope you start to feel better soon lonely and scared

You are in my thoughts, danii24.

I feel same.. I already know I have lost the game, so why am I still alive?

I get annoyed at the fact that I wake up everyday. I hate it! I'm not suicidal, but I really don't see a point in my walking this earth. For what? To work a job everyday. The only thing that keeps me on the straight and narrow is my son. If not for him, I would completely just give up & do drugs everyday until it's all over.

Try to hang in there, we're all here for you!

Same as if it wasn't for my son i dnt tink id be here either

I feel the same way. If it weren't for my kids.... I'd be long gone I'm sure.
There is a quote by Elizabeth Wurtzel that I was just thinking about this morning when I was journaling. It says something like "I feel like a defective model. Like my parents should have returned me." ...I feel like that a lot of days. Okay most days. But as I'm sure Elizabeth still struggles with depression, look at all the stuff she's gone on to accomplish! Even if the days are few and far between, there are those days, those moments, perhaps minutes where I'm glad I'm alive. My kids will do or say something amazing that I'm glad I didn't miss. Someone will bless me in some way that will make me feel a moment of gladness. And if, for my kids, I have to survive between those moments, I will try to keep focused on that.
As long as you are still breathing, there is hope.

beautifuldisaster

"As long as you are still breathing, there is hope"

hope is very important and there is hope for every1 its just hard to see it sometimes but i think that all of us here have hope to overcome these feelings. i wish u luck lonely and scared

I feel the same way. I was an "accident" and my parents had to get married because of that accident. Eventually my sister came along and wouldn't you know it, while she's had her own struggles in life, iher life s alot better than mine.