I give up!!!!!

So after a long conversation with my T about some family drama and resolving that what I did was in fact the right thing...we moved on. We moved on to her favorite question something about me getting out and well I hadnt left the house in a week. Which brought the question why. To which I stated I didnt want to. She talked for a few then asked why I didnt want to. i replied I dont know. She babbled some more(i was having a hard time keeping up). The babbling eventually led into a statement about how her(my T) and my Pdoc dont think I have reached my potential. That leading into comments about how if I am doing things for no reason and they are self defeating/self sabatoging how much do I really want to get better. I dont know that I believe this will ever get better or something along those lines. She said alot then said I need to figure out what it is sub conciously that is propelling this behavior. What do they mean I havent reached my potential? What potential is there in regards to the recovering from the depression(which is why she wants me out and about)? Im doing the best I can right now and if it is not good enough then f* them this isnt as easy beezy as they would like to make it sound. It is like she doesnt even realize with her stupid phd the absolutely crazy struggle that goes on to get myself to do anything. I cant believe I feel like I am being beaten when I am already down...way way way down....what good does this do me.

I don't even want to think about this. I only leave the house to see my T, and there are a lot of people on here who have said the same thing. I was surprised, but I don't know why. I think T's must be in denial about this happening. And I consider myself to be a lot less depressed than say last year. Maybe not, by this standard. Not functioning, anyway. I hear you.

Melissa, I can understand your anger. What your therapist has told you had quite obviously not been helpful.
Although I realise that they sometimes have to say things we don't like in order to shake us up and make changes, sometimes their statements and comments seem to be misplaced and inappropriate.

I recently had a few sessions with a counsellor, which were supposed to be a continuation of the counselling I had for a year with someone else who then went on maternity leave but they then only gave me six sessions without making that clear to me until just before the last session. Not very therapeutic to start with.
Then I had a very similar experience to yours with the new counsellor who I didn't get on with (the previous one I had established a really good relationship with). He told me in other words that I've possibly just not tried hard enough, that I haven't really lived etc (you can imagine how that makes you feel - like a failure) and then he came up with all these contradictory statements and actions such as telling me it's healthy to have time without therapy otherwise one could become dependent, but at the same time saying I could be another year in therapy...??!!!
The one good thing about all this is that I'm not working with him any longer even if that leaves me with hardly any support.

I would definitely tell your therapist how you feel about what she said and see whether you can work this through together. If this doesn't work, could you maybe change therapists?

I agree, Melissa, they sometimes don't get it right and what is said can be quite counter-productive.

I want to echo Hankster and say to you that we're here and we listen!

Take care, Melissa,

Shadow-world

MELISSSAD81, thank you. I hope a whole bunch of psychologists and psychiatrists read your post.

Thanks everyone and rohag so do I and I hope they answer so i can see how messed up they are. Because apparently THEY dont get how hard this ***** is even when you really want to get better. I wouldnt wish depression on my worst enemy. It stinks when you have a bad week and they beat you down. dont ask me on the good weeks when I do get out? I wonder why that is? Stupid me I am rambling...I wish I had never gotten involved in the mental health system what a bunch of balogna.

Remember this also tho Mel, to many they just see it as a job, and not actually helping or putting in 100% you can also try another T that's what I did.