I have problem coping. There is too much.

[kimmydawn]

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We're here. PM if you want or need.

KD

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

((( TIME0 ))) sorry its hard for you right now

[hillbunnyb]

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[Beautiful_Pain]

Sorry to hear you are suffering right now {{{{time}}}}. I hope you get things sorted so you can cope well enough. =/ Overwhelmed is never a good thing, the feeling sucks. =(

[Fuzzybear]

I am sorry things are so hard (((((((((((Time0)))))))))))

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Here if you want to vent!

Hugs
Nina

[katheryn]

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i'm hoping that things get easier for you......i'm here if you need me

[lenjan]

hope things get better for you soon, time0. PM me if you need or want to talk.

Candy

There is so many things. So much is happenning at the same time. My heart is broken in pieces. I'm trying very hard to cope with all this but I am overwhemed. I'm trying not to let my friend's suicide bring me too much down while dealing with all the other blows that are coming to me one after another. It is so hard. I am strong but I wish life could give me a small break here, let me catch my breath.

Thank you so so much! I'm sorry, it's hard for me to talk about what is going wrong for me. I'm so use to keep things inside. So use to hide everything. My mother did such a good work raising me! So hard for me to ask for help. I'm so sad. I cannot even support anyone here.

Thank you!

[kimmydawn]

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there are times when we give in relationships and times when we have to take because we're not doing well.

let us help hold you up right now.

KD

One of my friend died from a sudden heart attack. Another jumped in front of a train. She died a couple of days ago from her injuries.

I have 5 brothers. Only my baby brother never hurt me. We have one thing in comment me and him. We don't remember our childhood. I love him very dearly and I can feel very deeply that when we were children that I have defended him from something. I don't remember what though. Like me, he wears a mask. He moved last summer and so did I. I don't know what is his new adress and he doesn't know mine. I have an awful mother. He phoned her to asked her for my phone number so he could contact me. She didn't gave him my number to him. She doesn't want us to be in contact. She even told him I didn't wanted anything to do with him, that I was living a happy life and I didn't wanted anyone to bother me.To just leave me alone. She is so cruel at times. I don't know how to reach him.

There is a lot more going on, this is just a bit.

Thank you!

i'm so sorry........and you have been supportive lately. i wish i could come see you and we'd have tea and talk. love, pat

[kimmydawn]

I'm just so sorry. You've had so many losses recently...all over the board.

You will get back with your baby brother somehow. I feel this. Until then, maybe you want to write him regular letters as if he's receiving them? Then, when you find him, you can give them to him and he'll know. It will help the both of you through this maybe? I'm sorry that your mother did that.

I'm just so sorry for your losses...

Many thoughts and prayers...

kd

I'm sorry you are having a hard time now.

I'm also sorry you too have a mom that tries to keep her children apart from each other---

I think Kimmy had a good idea--- perhaps writing to your younger brother would help and then when you do connect again-- which I also think you will... then you can show him all the times you had thought about him and just what you had to say to him.

I'm sorry for your losses too, please know we are here for you.

mandy

I will take your guidance and I will try to write down to my brother. Even if it's just that I love him and I don't forget him.

My mother did something very wrong last spring and she has put me badly in a mess. I did got out of that mess but that's because I never quit trying. She told lies after lies to my baby brother about me and now she is scare of us getting in conact because he will know what she told him wasn't true and she also knows he loves me.

My doctor told me I must not go to work right now because my shoulder blade is too much damaged. I'm waiting for a call from a specialist. I might have to wait a long time. In the mean time no money is coming in. Rent is coming fast, there is no food in my fridge or my cupboards, utilities are not paid and I can't pay my medications. The constant physical pain is also hard to deal with but I'm managing to push it aside. I'm trying to come out with some kind of crafts I could do at home that wouldn't be hard on my shoulder and sell my work on a marquet. I'm good with my hands so that is helping me a lot. ( Trying to get positive here).

I think I have complain enough for the last 2 days. I'm sorry!

Thank you so much everyone! I love you all so much!

Pat, you are very welcome in my home for that cup of tea. Thank you!

[(JD)]

(((time0))) yes, it is too much ... so don't think about all of it at once... please. You are right that you are overwhelmed. I can understand your sadness about the losses in your life. Can you try and honor those thoughts by giving them specific amounts of time that you WILL think about them, and then not...for a while?

Escape is a coping mechanism. Shutting down is a coping mechanism. You are coping the best way you know how... take care of yourself... be gentle.. go slowly... don't pile on with things that happened before while you are struggling with things that are happening right now ok?

don't worry about all of us here... you'll give support when you are again able

[Mystry]

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Be safe...

The last 6 weeks took me right by surprise. I know I must not bring the pass with what I'm dealing with in present time because I will not make it. Everytime a thing from the pass comes forwards I try to block it. I know I must not go there.

It's hard to deal with because I have no close support. None at all but myself and my strength and my knowledge from my life experience.

I also know that if I give you, in here, a chance, you will support me the best you can. You are all kind people and I know that and I do not forget. I just need to ask. That is a hard part for me to do. And you can just give me support by what I say. None of you are living close to me, if I don't say it, you cannot know. I keep that in mind too.

I really really do appreciate your support. Each and everyone of you are so special. I mean this!

Thank you so much!
with all my love
time0

[Azalysa]

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When I worked with hospice, there was a term called "complicated grief" which meant a person experiencing more than one grief in a short period of time. So take grief over one issue and multiply it by however many other griefs are currently in a person's life - like losing two friends at the same time with all the other stuff going on in your life at the same time. So your grieving is "normal" (although I don't like that word). That doesn't make it go away (wish it did), but wanted to encourage you to be gentle with yourself.

My prayers and warm thoughts. Please feel free to PM me anytime!

I can only talk about this in here. These 2 friends of mine were " secret friends". I'm living a complicated life. There is things that I cannot say.

Thank you sweetie!