Empty, SAD and Scared

I am having a day where all I want to do is sleep.
I feel very depressed today and want it to all just go away, or I would like to just burry myself away until the day is gone.
It seems that everything I do is wrong and I feel so brain dead, I can't even thimk straight.
I have this horrible fear that something bad is going to happen and I don't know what.
The rest of me just feels so empty inside, so I came here to write this out. I hope some one can see this and give me some kind of feedback as I am feeling lost and want to cry but the tears won't come.
I feel like i am nothing in this world but a looser, and I just exist day to day
I try and keep my thoughts from racing around all mixed up by sleeping, butthen I just have bad dreams.
Somedays I think my meds do not work at all, and i am just taking placebo's.
I have no energy at all and there are so many things I should be doing today, but I just can't.
I can't figure this all out, yestyersay I felt fne and wasable to clean my whole house , do laundry, walk to the store etc. and today feels like someone else is in me and I can't do anything.
Well I will let you go, you have probably heard enough if youare reading this.

Hi Soscared: I'm sorry you're having such a down day; I sure do know how that is. The depression beast really can be a booger, can't it? The good news is that this cloud WILL LIFT, and you'll feel differently about how you're experiencing the world and yourself, but man, I wish it didn't suck so much in the meantime, eh? I hope you'll keep writing here, because it often does help as you said. You're actually very brave to trudge thru. this, so I hope you'll reconsider telling yourself you're a loser, because, I, for one, just don't believe that = we care about you here! Most fondly, Peanut

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You and I have alot in commen. trying to feel better is such a mission.
When will it get better. When will I pick up my head and Find me again,
without these meds I feel don't work, without the nightnmares to let me sleep. when?
I can't give you feed back because I feel the same way.
I just hope that you are having a better day. and hope tommorow be greater
your friend
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ABOUT THE NINTH HOUR JESUS CRIED OUT IN A LOAD VOICE, "ELOI,ELOI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?"~WHICH MEANS~"MY GOD, MYGOD,WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?"
~MATTHEW27:46.
MY GOD,MYGOD WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?WHY ARE YOU SO FAR FROM SAVING ME,SO FAR FROM THE WORDS OF MY GROANING?~ PSALM 22:1