[soscared]

Hi it's me again
Just needing to come here and vent some bad feelings, need someone who will listen.
I have been very down the last few days, I feel like the meds I'm on are not working anymore, I have been on so many different kinds. Sometimes they seem to be working alright and then it feels like they stop working.Does anyone else have this problem????
I am finding it really hard right now because all my real friends all live in different proviences and I hate to keep talking to them about my problems, so that is why I am choosing to write here tonight.
This may sound all mixed up but I am feeling like I am haveing trouble concentrating.
I have gone from full time employment to next to none and from taking courses at the University to taking none all in the past six months.
Now I am at home pretty much everyday, except once a week I go to group therapy, a very drastic change. When my car was working I also did a lot of things for and with my kids(they are older) but we are very close.
I am feeling very useless and I am struggling financially, my husband suffered from a heart attack a year and a half ago, and he is working again but has a lot of pressure to pay bills etc. My doc. and T are telling me not to work as I am not doing very well.I am goingto try and work part time closer to home.
Sometimes for me I feel better when I write things out as I am now, I do better at expressing myself by writing, when I used to see my therapist once a week(HE LEFT) I would always have things wrote out and hand it to him to read and then I could talk easier after.
I hope I am not boaring you , but I like to come here and read what others write and try to give suggestions, plus get some stuff off my mind.
I just feel like I have no where else to turn and that maybe I am being a bother to people.
Well thanks for listening everyone.
I hope you are all having a nice evening, best wishes

[Rapunzel]

You're not a bother. Go ahead and write all you want. We are good listeners here.

It's okay to take some time off and concentrate on taking care of yourself if you need to, but maybe a part-time job close to home would help you too. I've got to have something to do - if I don't I just get worse, but too much isn't good either. You don't need extra stress. Maybe a little income will reduce your stress though. You know best what is right for you.

Best wishes for you also

<font color=green>"Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible" Carl Jung</font color=green>

[SeptemberMorn]

Hi, again. We all understand the release, even if it's small, after we write things out here where other people understand what we're feeling. I'm a writer, too. It's easier to write my feelings out than it is to say them. It's good, too, to go back and re-read things from the past because I gain so much insight or see how far I've come or regressed.

What I've done in the past is not talk about my problems so much to friends or family that don't really have a clue what it is to have anxiety and depression. They just don't seem to "get it." Places like this one, where other people understand, has been the safest and best for me. People that don't understand get so tired of hearing about our problems and we eventually push them away.

Yes, meds seem to stop working after a while. I've been on several in the past 20+ years. I had the best luck with Prozac until all of a sudden, it started making my palpitations 100 times worse... so... I had to try different meds until the Dr. found one that works for me. Even now, sometimes it feels like it's not working 100%. I stress out and start feeling mounting anxiety whenever I step out of my comfort zone... which gets boring after a while!

Your wording, "different proviences" leads to to believe you don't live in the States. Does your government have Workmen's Compensation or Disability programs? I filed for Disability and will finally get it in the next couple of weeks. It's impossible to hold down a job with anxiety and/or depression when it gets bad, although having a part time job close to home would at least make you get out of the house and give you a sense of accomplishment. Only you can be the judge of what's best for you, though.

Anyway... keep coming back and posting. We're here to listen and commiserate with you.