The suicidal thoughts are at it again...

I was reading my Facebook newsfeed when suddenly I saw somebody wrote that they had 2 job offers. This instantly made me panic and i felt jealous too. Then I was thinking I might as well be better... And you know. I don't if I will be accepted to have a job in the apprenticeship I'm doing this January. I'm 18, have not much work experience and I don't have good social skills. Why the heck would anyone hire me? I'm just idiot. Sorry to moan but I thought I would vent and let this out. I can't do anything stupid because people will miss me. Oh well.... I wasn't meant to have a job. Everyone else can have one because they are normal, very loud, have about 2,000 friends and are better than me. I'm sorry I'm not good enough and I am such a failure.

nah it's not that..it's just that you are 18, young & just don't have the right skills yet. that's all...not everyone at 18 has great social skills, perfect looks, a multitude of jobs to choose from & tons of friends....& those that say they do..lie like the rug.

you are a good person...you are caring, honest, funny...& you are 18. hey you are wa7y ahead of where i was at 18..believe me!..can you trake some courses at a locval school to figure out what calls to you?

weren't you volunteering at a museum or something? honestly that is a great field to get into...many different types of jobs split off of that...

seriously...there is a ton of BS that goes into many facebook posts...hell i might just post that i am tall skinny & good looking myself...(have ya looked at my pix????)

be patient..it's hard..i know...at any age but especially when you are 18...your time will come...& you a failure? nah. how can anyone with the name "happycheeks" be a failure???? it just ain't right....depressed mopey frowning cheeks..yeah maybe..but happycheeks...nah...

Happycheeks, are you worried or nervous over the apprenticeship? Are you perhaps also excited about the apprenticeship? It's likely you'll learn a lot there, both about the work and yourself.

I so hope for you this coming year brings you experiences that give you confidence in yourself!

I'm worried and excited at the same time. If I don't get a work placement then I am stuffed :P

Thank you

Hey, HappyCheeks, Facebook is an interesting place. Narcissists and bullies love it, normal, nice people like you and I feel a bit overwhelmed by it. 2000 friends? How ridiculous and pretentious. It's better to have one or two friends - real ones I mean.

I can tell you are a lovely young person, polite and caring, and sensitive. You sound very normal to me. And believe me - I'm older, I have kids your age - good things happen to good people. Not usually what you expect though! Have faith in yourself, don't be intimidated by these spin-doctors - "Barry Boasters" as my husband likes to call them. Look in the mirror every day, look into your eyes and see the wonderful person that you are.

Whatever is meant to be, will be. I've missed out on jobs I desperately wanted at the time. Now with the benefit of hindsight, I can look back and say "Aaah, now I get it, that was a lucky escape, I'm so glad I didn't work there".
I'm sure the right thing will come up for you. Thinking of you

i'm sorry. I really do know some how you feel. I think both of us need to keep chin up and believe that we can gain the skills, and that we are not worthless due to this lack of skill *hugs*

Happycheeks, I know you're doing the best you can to get a job. If you don't get one it doesn't mean you're a failure. There's lots of circumstances beyond your control right now with the economy and job market the way it is. You're still very important and valuable no matter what your financial situation is. I really hope you get your apprenticeship, but I also hope you don't beat yourself up if you don't.

I feel your pain, I hope you feel better soon, the horrific thoughts have been troubling me since Xmas. I'm similar to you. I feel like a failure most of the time.

Hi Chandler, and HappyCheeks, just wanted to say, you really are NOT a failure, not at all. The fact you are here and helping others is testament to your superior qualities as a human being. And that goes for everyone here! It's the DEPRESSION that makes us think we're failures, it's not US. I know, easily said, but I've been there and back, and it's true.
Sending you all great big (((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))) because you truly are wonderful people. Don't believe what the depression makes you think - you're not a failure at all - quite the opposite, and stronger than most people on this earth, for going through what we go through.

Hey Happycheeks - good to see you on here, but sorry you are having such a tough time right now. I agree with what others have written - 2,000 friends even 200 friends says something to me other than that person being popular and the more socially skilled person in the world - can all those friends really know that person? I am content with a handful of true real friends who I can feel really close to.

Employment is difficult for many people right now - there are a few million unemployed in our country right now and more job cuts facing people in the future. I hope your apprenticeship happens, I think that sounds such a great thing to be doing.

In terms of the thoughts - I have been struggling with them alot the last couple of weeks - it is horrible isn't it? But they always do pass - we just need to be patient and have a look around to what may be causing them - are there things in our environment we have to change, are our thoughts messing with us and distorting things.

Hugs to you Happycheeks you do matter - let us know how you are doing - Soup

Hi Happycheeks,
I agree with everyone, Facebook can be a real downer at times...I feel a little jealous sometimes too....and why not have a vent, this is a good place to do it because we understand where you are coming from.....Your a valuable human, and who wants to be "so-called normal", you sound pretty exceptional to me.

When I finished my computer course I rang heaps of different business and asked for work experience....I eventually found a place and at the end of the week they gave me a job and a pay check...I was your age then....Maybe you could try that....

I truly hope thinks work out for you, all the best with your apprenticeship ...
Big Hug

These are such small things. Think, in time you could at the top of a chain and this will all seem ridiculous. Please, don't think like that.

Oh lucky you. I wish I was dead. I am thinking of suicidal thoughts and I am thinking of images of cutting myself.

Oh happycheeks--I have been thinking of you. Wish you could feel better. (((Hugs)))

happycheeks

Worried about you. I care, and I'm sure there's a lot of folks here who care too.

(((((happycheeks)))))

Yeah I am rude. I feel like such a mistake. I am crying my eyes out. I wish I would just die. Can't God just kill me? I don't like being on this earth with this crap. If someone killed me I would be so happy.

Or I could be dead in time or homeless.

((((((( Happycheeks! )))))))

Did something happen to trigger you?

I think....

How is your sister doing?

She is okay

Does she know what you are going through? Do your parents?

Yeah she does. I tell her what I think.