[Solitude]

Hi everyone,

Am feeling to far gone to cope today, I wish this damned depression would lift. I just can't stand it but I'm so stuck, cannot do anything to make it easier to bear. I hate it so much. It just feels so futile, I've had it 14 yrs now and I can't see it ever going away. I've the whole night ahead of me and yet another day after that. It jus goes on and on...

Sorry, just needed to vent...

[(JD)]

Welcome to psych central solitude. I'm sorry you are suffering so from depression... I do too. It helped me when my T helped me to realize that hating the depression, feeling stuck, all those things you are feeling... only caused me to suffer more.... it took many years for me to learn...though sometimes I still succumb to the darkness.

It's important to have someone to talk with, do you have a T? Medications can help too, have you tried any recently?

Keep on... it won't always be this bad. (((hugs)))

[pegasus]

Solitude,
Sorry your not feeling very good.

Welcome to Psych Central!
You have come to the right place. It's great here, lots of support.

Hugs.

[Solitude]

Hi Sky,

Am in the middle of a few changes right now which are what is really getting me down. I have just come off 40mg citalopram - have been on it for 4-5 yrs and stopped working. Now 2 weeks into robexetine and quietapine, side effects rotten. Am also transferring to a new counsellor at the suggestion of my psychiatrist, the counselling I was getting just wasn't helping, apparently this new person is more specialised in the areas I need. But have finnished with the old and in limbo waiting for the new, and no-one to talk to between whiles - just feel very very alone and down. Have started cutting myself again which is even more upsetting. I know thing should start to settle down but feels like an eternity.

Sorry for the whine... just very very black tonight

[Solitude]

Hi Pegasus,

Thanks for the welcome...

[bipolar_bear]

Solitude welcome to psych central. I am sorry you are feeling so bad. It seems you have a lot on your plate between your med changes and the change in therapists. If it will help post here. This is a very supportive community and hopefully it will help you get through this interim between therapists. Take care of yourself. I am sorry that you feel you must cut right now. Hopefully that need will abate as you get settled in with your new t. Take care.

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((Solitude)))))))))))

I'm sorry you're feeling so badly...add change on that and it's so hard. I don't deal with change well at all.

I hope things settle in for you soon and the depression feels more managable.

Welcome.

KD

[magickal1]

(((((Solitude)))))
Not much to add...the others have said it all. Hang in there. There's a lot of nice ppl here to listen.

[Lexicon78]

Welcome to Psych Central, Solitude. This is a pretty great place.

I've had severe depression for 15+ years and am also a cutter (15 years). Yes, at times the depression does seem to make everything worse, but all we can do is try to get ourselves through those dark patches. As long as we make sure we survive those, I think we'll be ok.

With the changing of meds and therapists, I can see how much rougher your depression can seem. Other than cutting, what kind of coping skills do you have? I was thinking that some distracting techniques may help you out. Basically, anything that gets your mind off your depression and anxiety would help...cleaning, reading, writing, etc. Exercising also works because it releases endorphins, the good-feeling chemicals in your brain.

Hang in there.

[Myzen]

Hi solitude,

I echo much of what has been said here. I am in a downturn myself at the moment and I am just setting my stall out to deal with it.

IMHO if we can get some strategies together to focus on it can help. I'm not saying that we can make ourselves feel better (I'm definitely not one of the 'pull your socks up' brigade) just that I have found I can still achieve something when I'm feeling bad. My daughter calls it coping 'packhorse style'.

My strategies are - no commitments, sleep, exercise, little or no alcohol, a practical project of some kind. It's a bit of a hairshirt approach, but if I'm feeling bad anyway I may as well do something practical, just going through the motions.

That's what I do anyway, but it's different for all of us, and the intensity is different.

Hope you'll stick around, PC is a good place to be when we are in a crisis; that's how I came here.

Good thoughts, M

hi, solitude. wonder why several of us are in a downswing mode right now? the full moon is gone.

i'm sorry that you're feeling stuck. Mystry had some good suggestions. i wish i could help you. xoxoxo pat

[Solitude]

Hi everybody,

Thanks for all your replies - you're all very kind. I'm still no better today , but am really grateful for all your support. I have become isolated from everybody and just knowing there are people out there who care is a big relief!

I should hear from my psych' tommorrow re the new counsellor - hopefully I won't have to wait too long before I start with him/her.

Hi Lexicon 78 - Sorry you've had such a bad time too. I used to like doing jigsaws, haven't done for years now. But today I've ordered a jigsaw roll and a couple of jigsaws, always make for a good distraction - hours can pass by doing them, so hope I can get back into them. I also make myself go for a brisk walk everyday, but not for the past several days - is raining oceans over here!

Hi Myzen - I too am off the alcohol, trying to keep off the caffeine, and sleeping most of the day. It seems I get up early afternoon and then collapse on the sofa. I would normally go for a 1hr walk if it weren't raining so heavy!

I also board dogs (one at a time) for a charity. At the moment though, one has just left us to go to his new owner, and I'll be getting the next trainee some time in April. I miss them when they're not around.

Hi Fayerody - I don't know what kind of weather everyone else is having but I for one cannot see the moon for all the rain! Maybe everybody is having a wash out!



Thanks again for all your replies
Solitude xxx