[sujunew]

I just don't know what to do. I know my mood is getting lower and lower, but I'm so afraid to reach out properly to my support ppl because my kids could get taken into care. My eldest daughter, who the state already has guardianship of but lives with me, was put into her respite care home today instead of friday so i could have a break. i was told to not feel like a failure, that it is just to help me, but I feel worse now than before. I know that severe lack of sleep is not helping- I have been avoiding going to bed til as late as possible because thats when i think about things even more, so I'm going to bed early tonight- I hope to be there within 45mins. But where do I go from here? I just feel so lost

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((( irishsj )))))))))))

Having to put your daughter into respite care shows how much you care for her. You were putting her first. I had to do the same thing with my child when he came home from foster care with alot of problems. Sometimes a parent needs a break. Some people have relatives that pitch other have no relatives in the area tha can do so and respite care does that. Hang in there and take time for yourself while she is gone. That way you can better handle her when she comes back.

[sujunew]

thanks guys. I had a great sleep last night, the 1st proper sleep in weeks, and today I feel like a new person. Of course, none of the real issues have gone away but I'm feeling so much stronger. Last nite just got too much, I guess with everything that happened for me during the day etc. It's not often I 'let' myself get so overwhelmed so thanks for the support. It is nice to get a break from no1 daughter as she has so many issues, and I still have no2 daughter with me- she is so easy and sleeps so well that I can cope really well with her. Again, thanks for the support, and hopefully things will keep improving from here

[Evangelista]

(((Irishsj)))

glad to hear u r feeling better..rest is very important..

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((irishsj)))))))))))))))))) I am glad you got a good nights sleep and are feeling better.

[sujunew]

Again, thanks for the posts and PMs. I nearly got knocked over again this afternoon- went to get money out for groceries and discovered I hadn't been paid . Fumed for a while, and started looking into the black pit again, but got it sorted to an almost satisfactory conclusion (I get paid tomorrow but will have to deal with any bank fees if my direct debits don't go thru)... But am OK anyway, had a sleep this afternoon too and just have to keep climbing upwards. (One day all these boulders will get smaller- they must!!!! )