[dreamer62604]

It's one damn day, that's all i get. a day, a day to feel decent. who the hell came up with this? who thought, gee lets make life miserable, just for the fun of it? i really need to cut...i know this isn't si board so i won't go into it. anyway, i'm not great, i'm not decent, i'm not good. i'm fat, ugly, stupid, and a loser. i'm such a loser. i hate this. i want it to end. I want it all to stop, just leave me alone! why can't i be left alone, to rot in my own little hell? I mean, come on, people why is this happening. i really hate it. i do, i hate this. i am so sick of it. i want to give up, but that would be another stupid thing to do. well, maybe not stupid, it might be the smartest thing ever, because then i wouldn't have to deal with it anymore. well, that's my little rant. i'm done now. goodbye.

<font color=green>I smile because I have no idea what's going on.</font color=green>

[SeptemberMorn]

Dreamer, we're all on the same roller coaster. That's how it is. Are you on any kind of medication? If you're not, I"d seriously consider it if I was you. It doesn't always do the trick but it sure helps!






Wise men still seek Him.

[lost_as_always]

people never know there strengh tell it is truely tested. and for those few who might have come to test it some of them might have learned were there strengh ends, this doesnt mean there people are weak, this means that these people have lived more than many other people will every know. the task of picking the shattered remains of ones life love and happness is not a easy task. the void that most of us stand under looks bigger from the bottom.while standing at the bottom i would like you to think of this, up is not were your looking ....but were you are going. and i hope tomarrow is a much better day for you

when my ship ran out of fuel i burned the things that made it pretty when i ran out of that i burned the things i loved when i ran out of that i burned willpower to keep me moving. its not a pretty ship but it still moves.

[mj14]

dreamer, I know it's hard to think of it this way, because one day to feel ok sure doesn't seem like enough. But you had a day...I bet you can remember a time when you didn't even have one day to feel decent.

It stinks when you are feeling ok and then slide back down. But try to keep an eye on that day, and realize that it is a step forward. And if you could have one good day, you can have more. Maybe only one day a week...but then two days a week. And then maybe you can string a few days together. That one day was a start, not an ending.

I remember when I only had one day of feeling ok...and I was lucky enough to have several people reminding me to look at that one day as a good thing, as a start toward having many good days. And it was a start...the good days started adding up until there were more good days than bad days. If that can happen to me, it can happen to you, too. So hold onto that good day...let it remind you that there are more good days out there for you, and let that thought help you through the bad ones.

It's not an easy road, but I know you have made a lot of progress already, and you have lots of people here to support you and help you get through those bad days until they are few and far between.

Take care.
*hugs*
mj

[krzyk101]

Dreamer,
Hi, I understand what you are going through, I have and still do on some days feel that way about myself. I was at family christmas today, and my sister told me that I looked nice, I became furious, accusing her of putting me down, I took it as that I wasnt dressed or looked well enough, when in fact after a realization that she was just trying to be nice and polite It was me who got upset. It was the depression and anxiety telling me that she was calling me fat or ugly, now I realize the copliment was taken wrong because of my depression, It does'nt seem in my mind to feel "nice" two days ago I had a really good day as well, it lasted for 1 half days. Now i'm not feeling well. So I'll hang in there if you will.

take care,Chris

KRZYKRIS

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[dreamer62604]

I am on medication, have been since I was 12. I know it helps, because I would be a lot worse if I didn't take any meds. Anyway, I am hanging in there. However, I think the depression may be taking over, considering I slept today from about 1-7, which is not good. And I'm tired again. Sleep is easy, simple, and it keeps me out of trouble. My mom got mad at me today, and I'm still hazy as to why. I said that I didn't want to drive our big conversion van, I don't like driving it, I'm not good at driving it. Anyway, so she took that as me not wanting to do anything, and said she'd never ask me to do anything again. That was bad. I barely handled it, of course she calmed down. WEll. I still feel bad, because no matter what you say, there is some truth behind it.

<font color=green>I smile because I have no idea what's going on.</font color=green>

[kvinneakt]

hang on, friend. sometimes it is pretty rocky. sometimes take it a day a t a time, sometimes minute by minute.

<font color=blue>[b] Wherever you go, there you are[b]<font color=blue>