Too Stupid...?

<font color="blue"> Anyway I was looking up some Internet sites for self-confidence, and pretty much all of them containing of repeating phrases such as “I am a special and unique person” or similar. I tired whenever I go into the “I hate myself” thinking. All it did was cover up the hate myself thinking, which in itself is beneficial but in the long run I would actually want to have some fact base ideas to show I’m a err ‘Special and unique person’, or decently smart is good enough for me.

Since I said before I read a lot of books I wanted to see if I could find the grade level on one of the books I was reading. But then I couldn’t find it, and the Internet didn’t work, so I just got mad at myself for being too stupid to find the right website or to get the Internet to work.

Also if I do have brief moments of self-confidence, afterwards I feel bad for thinking good of myself, like I had a big ego, and thus makes me go back to the hate myself part. It’s like I feel I should deserve to feel bad about myself.

So in question, instead of temporary blocking out the I hate me’s what else can I do to actually have some fact about me being decently intelligence, because I already have the fact’s that I’m as dumb as a door. And also, how can I feel that self-confidence doesn’t equal big ego? Because it doesn’t seem I think that about anyone else, It’s like others are allowed to feel pride, but I’m just too stupid. Any advice please? Thank you.

P.S. Should I be putting my posts here or in the steps to self-confidence? Because I’m depressing at my lack of self-confidence.
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I think you definitely need a boost here, my friend...and I'll start..there's NOTHING wrong with feeling good about yourself. Everyone deserves that. It doesn't mean you're getting a big ego, you're boosting your self confidence with positive thinking, and that's not wrong. Personally, I get in moods where I think I'm crap, so what do I do? I go around and tell people that I'm a goddess, so get the flock out of my way..heh. It's okay to feel good, it's healthy, and it can be liberating as well.
When you start feeling bad, treat yourself to something...a walk in the park to enjoy nature, a good book, or a big pan of brownies..whatever makes you happy. You DO deserve it. ((((DumbDog))))

you dont sound stupid at all so I think you can pretty much delete that from your thoughts. Why do yo want to call yoursefl stupid? And even if were aren't the smartes on the block what does that really mean in the big scheme? You sound perfectly charming to me and you are sweetly worried about what others think about you which mean you must want to know others which is already a smart idea !!! I battle with the self-hate thing too and it comes from my not getting things done. If I get a lot of things done, I like myself and if I don't get a lot of things done, I dont like myself........ but really..... what differrance does that make? I would be much better off getting nothing done but liking myself.... and that makes much more sense...... but try to tell me that ......... I'll fight yah every step of the way. So, I've made a compromise. I do what I can and I'm glad for what I can do .......... You are not stupid and anyone who reads your post can see that . Now, you have to see it too..........

I agree with the advie and support these two have given you...
I hope you can learn to accept and even love yourself for who you are... sending you a hug and hope you feel better about yourself soon,
Patricia x