lonliness

I can't remember feeling so lonely, so alone. I am a listener, not a talker, so I don't reach out to others and open up. I have isolated myself from just about everyone I know, altho if I was living in my home town there are a couple of friends I would be in contact with. But there is no way I would ever move back there! Waaaaaaaaay too big, esp compared to where I live now- a city but a 'farming' city with so few ppl you easily run into someone you either know, or knows someone you know, or is related to someone you know. I am so tired and should be getting ready to head off to bed but can't face the mess I need to tidy up first. Procrastination is a great 'invention' but there are times when it really doesn't help matters... I also kinda don't want tomorrow to come. To much to deal with and face, and the same for Thursday but worse. Just dragging myself outa bed at the mo is such an effort, and if it wasn't for kids I'd probably be there 24/7. I'm going to have to face the hard truth sooner or later, outside of PC and into the 'real world' that things have slipped so far, but the negative possible outcomes outweigh the positive. In some ways I hope I don't have to really face that until Monday, but I'm pretty sure a lot of it will be faced on thursday, in a very negative setting to begin with. I keep looking for that silver lining, but there's none in sight yet. So, another night of lonliness, anxiety and worry (and sorting out and cleaning the house...kids!!!). Hope I haven't bored you too much. Just needed to clear my head a little...

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My thoughts are with you!!!

(((((((((((((((((((irishsj))))))))))))))))) Lonliness can be so difficult to deal with. I am so sorry you are feeling that way. I don't know what is going on in your life but i do wish that Tuesday and Thursday go better than you are anticipating them to. Good luck and if you want someone to talk to feel free to PM me. Take care

I know all about lonliness and isolation.... it is hard to break through... my thoughta are with you and I hope you start feeling better soon
Patricia xx

hello that may have been a start for you. I know I have started on here and have posted a few times already. seem to have some very nice people here. I am learning there are nice people just have to fined them from what I have seen here a lot of them are right here.

Irish,

I just want to say that PC is a real place, with real people in it. In this place you can start putting your life back together. When you go out there (3d) and hit a rough spot you can come back here and share it with us. Some people have said to me that this kind of support group isn't real, but they are wrong, this place is foundational in both our survival and our recovery.

Good to talk to you.

Cheers, M

(((((Irish)))))

I go through the same thing with all the loneliness. I live in a very small farming community and everyone is all happy go lucky and have no real problems and to relate to anyone here is practically impossible...hang in there.

The strange part about lonliness is that we don't have to be lonely. There are SO manypeople out therre looking for someone to talk too. I get caught up in staying in the house like a shut in and so I do't get out in the world as much as I htink i should and that seems to cause my lonliness. But whenever I do go out into the world it seems I always make a friend...... I wonder why I find it so hard to jsut get up and go anywhere....... It isn't like the experience is a bad one. Geeeezzzzz. Could I really just be LAZY as some have suggested. nawwwwwwww its the depression. its stops me from wanting to get up, get dressed and go out into the world in which I live...... It gets so hard to keep forcing myself to get out of the house and that is exactly what I have to do. There are so many things i actually WANT TO DO and I end up being too tired or too this or too that or it's too far to drive or I don't have anything to wear or something....... its always something............I wish I knew how to STOP it. Any suggestions???

Irish, I have read so many of your posts and felt so helpless. Part of me understands, and then a part of me cannot even imagine or hope to endure what you have gone through.

I guess I just want to say that I DO understand loneliness, and being alone, and being lonely.

My thoughts are with you. I really feel you are special, and strong ....

irishsj

I hope you do get the courage to go out - I know it is really really tough. I too have trouble. For now, you can talk to us and we'll keep you company. Good thoughts your way!

SongBird

You are not alone I am right there with you even though I am married.I am new to my area as well & my wife is more concerned with everything else under the sun than our relationship.I feel she no longer needs me anymore now that her 21 year old daughter & her boyfriend live with us.I don't not want her to have a relationship with her daughter,but within reason.I am practically ignored.It hurts sometimes & am lonely most of the time.Hell if I wanted to be alone almost all the time I never would have gotten married.Anyway hang in there & reach out like you have.If you reach out your'e chances of being less lonely steadily increase.