How would you describe your depression?

I've tried a few times to put my depression into words, is there tension inside of me or pressure? Am I being torn apart of crushed? I guess somehow both things are going on.

Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed I can't go on... there's a world outside of my mind that I cannot connect with. I want to sleep all the time, I don't feel I can continue living this way.

That's a little bit of my own. Anyone want to share theirs?
How would you describe your depression?

Toxic discouragement. Doing something to fix problems doesn't even occur to me, I'll just whine about them. There's a total absence of hope, self-confidence and assertiveness. I worry constantly. The absolute worst is when this turns into apathetic numbness and self-directed frustration.

Imagine taking an ice bath, knives piercing your insides, rolled in hot ashes, and left to sit on an iceberg. That's how it felt when I was depressed.

I just feel empty inside. I worry constantly and I cry at the drop of a hat. I don't like to look in a mirror because I don't like what I see and being around people is such a constant worry over whether I'm good enough or doing enough or making mistakes that I really want to be all by myself to be comfortable after a fashion. There it is I think.

Like I want to crawl into a hole and never see another human being ever again. It hurts all over, my whole body hurts and I just want to be alone and cry

I feel very alone, even when I am with a group of people. It is also hating myself more than my worst enemy and everyone else in the world, and an emotional hurt so strong it can't be put into words.

Drowning in a deep dark pit, with the dogs from hell nipping at your a s s. Not being able to swim or save yourself and not being worth attention of the world

I'm basically numb. I don't feel any emotion to speak of. I would rather be alone most of the time. Often I feel if I'm good enough or can give enough to make people happy. Chronic pain keeps me from doing much which worries me that my family thinks that I'm just being lazy since they don't really understand chronic pain in the first place.

Falling into a deep dark abyss while being crushed with intense feelings of sadness, worthlessness, failure, 'it's pointless' ect.

Like walking thru knee deep thick mud while my head is in a vice

Comes in waves. Sometimes it's small and I can out swim it, other times it's like a tsunami crashing down on me, pulling me under, leaving me no hope for another breath of air.

Very consuming.. I believe that everyone I see has the same thoughts about me that I do. Unworthy, ugly, digusting, waste of space and oxygen. I can't stand myself. I will cry for no reason at all

Like a dark hole, pulling me deeper and deeper, can't see things clearly like I was used to, can't see the road ahead of me, can't see my future. Everything around me is negative, I'm worthless, and people would come out from the darkness and stab a knife behind my back while I can't see anything.

Flat line with hardly anything to say. Extreme lead fatigue. I cant hardly stand up to do a dish. Fear and guilty feelings.worry. Extreme body soreness. I feel like life is over. A train wreck.

Torture. Depression makes living feel like torture.

I like the sound of this thread. :3
Indeed, we all have our unique depression moments.

Just to share, mine is like I'm feeling lost or wonder why I'm doing things (like job, school) then start being irresponsible (like coming in late, procrastinating at deadlines) and sometimes neglect personal hygiene and eat a ton of food.

Yes, Yes, comfort me with food. :3

i think that's a very good description.

couldn't have said it better myself

Tired, not really sad, more apathetic, don't care about anything, nothing is funny, nothing is good, don't want to eat, don't want to talk to anyone, being around people is exhausting, want to be in bed all the time but can't sleep, stare off in the distance without knowing I'm doing it until someone points it out, lethargic, feelings of guilt and worthlessness, feeling like I am in a deep dark hole and I can't get out or even see the top. It sucks.

Depression for me is motivated disregard. Physically paralyzing mental force that removes my ability to function sucking all emotion down it's deep drain. Sleep is all that I want because being awake consumes too much energy.

My depression is all encompassing. it takes the meaning out of life and lets me know I am not of any value. It robs me of the chance to be social to hug and care for my kids. It is living in the dark alone and knowing no one really cares. It keeps me focused on all the negatives.

Presently, it feels as if a black cloudy mass is spreading throughout my body, like an infectious virus or disease like the measles. There is no internal light. This black mass eats all the energy and desire to do everything. Typing this feel like a tri-athelon (cannot spell it). Time to use what effort is left to travel to T.

Have you ever seen What Dreams May Come with Robin Williams? There's a part in there when the husband leaves Heaven to rescue his wife from hell. The first time I saw it, when they showed their version of hell, I thought to myself, "That's my hell" because it showed how I feel. I dont know how else to describe it.

Dead.

The other day someone asked me when I planned on joining the living again and that im like a ghost. Pretty much sums it up I think.

Sent from my DROID BIONIC using Tapatalk 2

little things that add up together to make a puzzle out of pieces of thoughts. like, not able to sleep for 3-4 nights unless have a sleep med at bedtime, lacking motivation to do anything, not caring about one's life, isolating self from other living people, and not able to concentrate as often during the day as before. I get negative thoughts that can swing into periods of "numbness" having no emotional pain. This is despite being on medication. It was worse before I had any antidepressant.

Utterly sh**!!!