How would you describe your depression?

There are so many of us ! Day to day how do you cope? Me, I don't. I've stayed in bed all this year literally. Occasionlly, showering, (very occasionally, why bother ?) never dressing, doing ANYTHING literally. In bed. Unable to even ask for help. How do I change that? Find strength ? How do you cope ? Is there hope ?

A total void. No emotion even sadness. Apathy, disinterest, unmotivated, numbness,self loathing & helpless.

Oops didn't realise I'd already posted here. Oh well, both posts are relevant x

Lonely, Unbearable emotional and physical pain, Lump in throat, wanting to cry. Unable to have relationships. Just existing like a zombie. Like a blank peice of paper. Want to disappear or go to sleep and never wake up.

Overwhelmed to the point that I don't do anything, then I get disappointed in myself because I am such a loser that I can't do anything! I have been burned by so many people that I don't trust anyone, sleep is my only escape but only during the day when I shouldn't be sleeping, I don't want to continue to live this way either but it hurts to try anything else.... I feel like aim drowning in quicksand and I'm not sure if I want to grab for a limb to be saved.

It seems like quick sand slowly embracing me. I can' t get it away from me. No matter what distractions there are, it is still sucking me down.

walking in quick sand. Lost my job due to crippling depression. Couldn't focus. Grouchy. Despair and apathy. More self loathing. Now it looks like Ive found other work that in another time I would find exciting. Its not something I can power through and there are so few employers who understand mental illness. Got put on wellbutrin. Seems to have an effect but I believe I need to up size it some.

for me it feels like I'm trapped in a small space that is filled with water and depending on the volume of the water i'm more or less suffocating. the rest of the time I'm just floating around.

Constantly feeling like there is no hope for the future. Being trapped in the past mistakes. Having no moments of contentment. Anxiety.

A horrible feeling that makes you want to cry for no reason. A feeling that everyone has in their lifetime. A feeling not meant for this world.

I have a few types of depression. I had to sort them out because of my list of issues.
I have the PMS blues which are cured with whining and chocolate and some screaming into my pillow when no one is around.

I have the - worked too many hours to pay the man and not have enough to cover the bills and groceries until next pay day blues which I can usually fix with a plan b -- this one is a symptom of a bigger issue and I am just now seeing this for the fifth time around.

I have the I'm depressed but I can handle it phase. Which I can't.

Then there is the bottom. The deep dark in the pit of soul that eats and gnaws at my very being until I wish I didn't exist anymore. I get stuck in my head and I don't eat it. I just go through the motions.

And I feel so invisible.

I've already posted, but I just want to say I've been trying to keep up and have been reading all of your posts. I am sorry you guys. It won't help any but I'm sorry you have all had to experience this.

CastlesInTheAir yes you described what I've been feeling all along: dead. And Girlshawn I feel invisible too.

I feel like no one cares that I exist, and I have a small story. At work on Friday, I was trying to do my best even though I felt like I was being treated unfairly with the distribution of the work (it seems like they are always handing me all the crap because they know I will put up with it). And I was asking a co-worker to help me with a page and I was standing their beside her desk and noticed it was going to be awhile for her to come across the solution so I shy-ly said: "I'm just going to go back over to my desk now..." Then she looks at me and says, "Oh were you still standing there? (she's laughing)". It's like I might as well not even ****ing exist. Why do I bother? No one sees me, hears me, or cares. I hate everything and just want to truly not exist any more.

Exhausted. Empty, joyless life. No friends. Have to force myself to go to work. Sometimes I go for days without saying a word. Only my dog brings any comfort.

When I am feeling depressed I have these thoughts that completely take over my mind. Reason goes out the window. I am convinced that there is nothing about me that anyone could love. I feel like I am a drain/burden to everyone and that the people I love would be better off without me in their lives. I feel like there is a huge weight inside and the pain will not go away. I cry often and can think of little else than this overwhelming sense that I am unlovable and a dissapointment. When dear friends try to help me, I push them away and put up walls. I feel ashamed and scared.