accept depression

I have suffered major depression for the last three years. Tried EVERYTHING. The only thing left is acceptance that as long as i live this IS the way i am going to feel. Prior deppressed periods i snaped out of it, used alternative thinking, drinked my troubles away, the coup de gra was when my "safe place" work became hell. the rest of life was meaningless,..but harmless. They put me in to the place i am today. i will never feel good for more than a fleeting moment. i will think of an end that will not come. i will never work. i will never breath. i will never be free of this crushing weight. SO I ACCEPT. That is what you all have to look forward to because sooner or later there will be that moment when you mind splits, shatters, and can never a assemble into anything ever again. SO I ACCEPT. I hope you all feel better but i WARN YOU these feeling will arise. over and over. SO I ACCEPT. Find solace in the small moments you feel better because it may be 5,10,15 years later it will come crashing down around you and your world will be CHANGED again. MISERY will be yours. SO I ACCEPT. I WILL NEVER BE AGAIN

I am really sorry that things are so hard for you right now.

It was after years and years of different meds and eventually ECT that I resorted to chucking it all in and accepting. It alarmed me that with some time ... despite myself .... I started to feel a bit better. And today, even though I slip up ... I am happy to be alive.

I can only hope the same for you.

Gentle thoughts

I understand how you feel. You shouldn't accept it thought because that is letting the depression take over. You might be tired of fighting it but keep fighting.

I think you're so tired of fighting against being sucked into the undertow that you figure you'll just surrender and throw yourself in.
fires1, you know how they build house on the beach fronts? And you know how these storms and hurricanes come along and obliviate those houses and then they just rebuild the houses again just so that they're taken out by another storm? It fills me with wonder when I see people rebuilding properties on these shore lines when the houses just keep getting wiped out.
And I've asked myself why? Why do they do that? Why do they keep rebuilding their homes on the shore front where they know there's a chance of it getting wiped out again?
And then I realized it's because in the peaceful and calm times, the view and beauty of the shore line is worth it to them.
Your post reminded me of this.
Please, keep rebuilding.
Hugs!!!

accepting that you have no place to go but down, guarantees that you will go down. i hope you will find a way to climb out of the hole that you're in and seek some help. p

When I spoke of accepting in my post, I think the word I should have used was "acknowledging". And by that, I mean that I acknowledged that I have an illness and chose to work with it rather than against it. Reading further posts, I can see how accepting it might seem like giving in to it.

((((((((((((fires1))))))))))) the gentlest of hugs to you. Please don't keep all this bottled up inside someone here will understand and listen... I have fought depression myself for over 30 years now so I know where you are coming from.....that shattered piece of mind is so hard to put back together again I know, but it can be done with friends who care and knowledge of yourself... Take care and if you would like to chat pm me anytime I am on... Linda

i'm so sorry that i misunderstood your post. i agree with the above post......we'vve all struggled with putting the pieces back together and together we can help you get through your rough time. i will keep you in my thoughts today. xoxoxo pat

accept...acknowledge... doesn't give the depression any extra power, imo. It is what it is. It just is. Sigh. True clinical depression is not something we can snap out of, nor something that goes away on it's own. Sigh. I can accept, and acknowledge this black swirl... but I still have to fight it

TC fires.

I accept that I have depression. But I also believe I have a choice in how I feel. My choice comes with what I do about having depression.

I can sit around feeling sorry for myself and in which case I am choosing not to do anything about it. just be miserable. In which case I am choosing not to to get better.

Or I can accept it and do something that will help me to have the type of life that I want to have - one that is free from the miserable effects of depression such as -

talk with my treatment team - my family physician and therapist and learn from them what depression is and how to take care of it.

I can also check around my community and locate depression management classes that will teach me ways recognize and take care of the depression symptoms BEFORE the symptoms reach a point that is debilitating.

I can also locate workbooks such as Mind Over Mood, and The Depression Workbook and any other self help work book that I can learn how to recognize the symptoms and take care of myself like the responsible adult that I am.

No depression isn't something that can be "snapped out of" but like millions of other mental and physical diseases in this world that have no cure a person can if they put in the effort to learn how to take care of their mental and physical illnesses and actively do so can live a fully funtional and full life that they want.

Who are people with depression - teachers, lawyers, doctors, house wives, husbands, children, social workers, musicians, actors and actresses you name it. depression hits all kinds of people and there are millions and millions of people out there in all kinds of professions living out the life and lifestyle that they want and dream of at the same time as learning about depression and how to take care of it and are actively doing so.

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I accept that I have depression. But I also believe I have a choice in how I feel. My choice comes with what I do about having depression.


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That describes what I was trying to say very well.