I'm not sure I've ever made a thread here since I joined. I just read a post where someone asked if anyone else was miserable and hard to be around. I didn't want to give an answer about me because the poster seemed down already and I suspect wasn't really looking for a personal answer. But I wanted to answer.
No, I'm not miserable... I just don't like life anymore. I'm sick and I'm tired.
No, I'm not hard to be around. People seem drawn to me and I've always found it effortless to make friends online and IRL. If I was wealthy I'd probably know exactly how Richard Cory felt.
I just ****ing don't like life. I'm not looking for any sympathy or support.
This is just a virtual equivilent to going outside and shouting out **** you to the world. If there is a god then I'm damned. I find it hard to get worked up about that. If there is a god he had a pisspoor plan and if burning in hell is my fate for having the intellect to recognize it then I prefer that to an eternity of singing praises to him. But then I don't believe. I've never seen a shred of evidence. And I can't buy into the whole faith thing. If the secret to eternal life is believing some collection of ancient poorly translated stories all I can do is laugh at the absurdity.
I'm tired of seeing small minded hateful people triumph. I'm tired of witnessing casual acts of cruelty. I'm tired of fools who wouldn't even recognize an accurate and objective written description of themselves.
I'm tired of hypocrisy.
I'm tired of life. I'm tired of me. I have a feeling my post is going to be deleted and I'm really tired of that. On the other hand if my post isn't deleted I'll probably regret opening up and giving a glimpse inside the walls.

[roads]

I hope it's not deleted, George. For one thing, it's simple and honest ... for another thing I'd guess it reflects the feelings of a great many members here.
The holidays bring out the worse in me. I'm tired of the same old hurts going around, of the same people doing nothing when a tiny kindness would cost them nothing.
I get tired of putting one foot in front of another day after day, when to be honest it doesn't get me anywhere.
Life is wearisome at best most days.
You write good posts & I know help some of the new folks feel welcomed.
I'm sorry you're feeling lousy. Every one of us certainly deserves better, but that's not what it's about.
Maybe get a good night's sleep, eat a good breakfast, & find someone worse off than us we can do something for ...
Maybe adopt a dog and go running with your new best friend.
Roadie

I don't mean to offend anyone and I'm not even sure this helps in any way. Its just my personal view. I find that in general those who have the necessary intellect to be aware of the global dynamics of our world have it much harder to feel like life is worth living. For people who have both, a brilliant mind and a big heart its excruciating to deal with everyday matters, like the ignorance and self-centeredness of certain people, injustices or watching high-level decisions being taken based on greed and power instead of the interest of the people. Adding to that the knowledge about matters related to our limited time here and our vulnerability, its nearly impossible not to get depressed. Sometimes i think i would be better off if i was indifferent of the feelings of others around me and only focussed on myself, instead of worrying for the fate of others. I might have an easier and less painful life then, but this is not who I am. For me what makes life worth living is for one thing continuing to learn. I am here now and until my mind stops working I want to take as much as possible out of this life. I want to understand how various things work and how they are interconnected. I want to keep improving and growing as a person and keep surprising myself of how much I am able to achieve. Maybe one day I can pass my knowledge on to other people and help them with that. Which brings me to another thing I find that makes life beautiful..helping one another. It feels so good to make someone's life a bit less painful by giving them support or just listening. One of the most magical moments for me are those where unexpected friendships or connections are established between two seemingly totally different persons. Those are the things that make me keep wanting to continue to try every day..

[ArthurDent]

Originally Posted by laura8

I don't mean to offend anyone and I'm not even sure this helps in any way. Its just my personal view. I find that in general those who have the necessary intellect to be aware of the global dynamics of our world have it much harder to feel like life is worth living. For people who have both, a brilliant mind and a big heart its excruciating to deal with everyday matters, like the ignorance and self-centeredness of certain people, injustices or watching high-level decisions being taken based on greed and power instead of the interest of the people. Adding to that the knowledge about matters related to our limited time here and our vulnerability, its nearly impossible not to get depressed. Sometimes i think i would be better off if i was indifferent of the feelings of others around me and only focussed on myself, instead of worrying for the fate of others. I might have an easier and less painful life then, but this is not who I am. For me what makes life worth living is for one thing continuing to learn. I am here now and until my mind stops working I want to take as much as possible out of this life. I want to understand how various things work and how they are interconnected. I want to keep improving and growing as a person and keep surprising myself of how much I am able to achieve. Maybe one day I can pass my knowledge on to other people and help them with that. Which brings me to another thing I find that makes life beautiful..helping one another. It feels so good to make someone's life a bit less painful by giving them support or just listening. One of the most magical moments for me are those where unexpected friendships or connections are established between two seemingly totally different persons. Those are the things that make me keep wanting to continue to try every day..

Perfect, Laura. I could not have said this better myself. Life is harder for those that truly think.

[ArthurDent]

George....you're not alone in your thoughts. Nor is Roadie. Welcome to my world. lol.

george- i've never believed in god (or in any religion)

if god really wanted me to live and be happy, then he wouldn't leave me suffering the way i do... with almost nothing to live for.

i feel your pain....

[lynn P.]

I give you credit for being honest and putting your feelings out there. I can relate to some parts of your post and sense you might be angry because I recognize these feelings myself. I envision myself going to a deserted area and just screaming all my frustrations out. Wonder myself why mean spirited people seem to get ahead and have grown to resent the materialistic life most people lead. Its seems society is getting more shallow.

Found out today of a family members death and it reminds me we should take a look at our lives. If any of us were to die, how do we want to be remembered? You don't have to answer these questions here but let me ask in reference to these quotes:

I just don't like life anymore. I'm sick and I'm tired.

Why don't you like life?
What makes you tired?

I just ****ing don't like life.

What the missing piece that's frustrating you? Do you feel stuck in a mundane life?

If there is a god he had a pisspoor plan

Do you have regrets and if so what could you do in the future to make yourself feel content?

One thing I've learned is, its not excess or things that makes us content. Its better to live a simple life with fair comfort, than striving to accumulate stuff. What would it take to make you feel its a worthwhile life? One thing that does help me is exercise and eating very healthy. In this tough time of my life, I've learned to be a fighter and defiant. Out of pure stubbornness, I refuse to let what made me sad win. I'm not there yet because I'm still stuck but not giving up. I know you're a straight forward person and wanted to give you an honest reply. Think about what changes could be made to stir up some genuine passion for life again.

[Anika.]

George,

There would be no reason to delete this. No, you never do make threads, except current events, quite different.

I don't believe in that kind of higher power either, when I do look to Buddhism or Hinduism, I only look to the Buddhas or Deities for wisdom, or guidance because I do believe there is good stuff to be learned there. For me it is more about the philosophy and what they symbolize, to me it is just symbolism. That's all I feel I can do for it to be right with me.

I hear you tho, on all said. I will respect your statement of not looking for support or sympathy, sometimes we just need to put stuff out. The above is just simply sharing. Nothing more to it..

I think sometimes some people "see" more with out it being revealed. The only thing I will say is try not to take on regret for speaking what you feel, or opening the door a little. It needs no judgement.

You are in my thoughts, my friend.

[lynn P.]

Since you said in the OP you were really looking for support or solutions......I'm wondering if I overstepped by trying to stir something with my post. That's why I said I'll ask but you don't have to respond. I tend to be a solution type person and when I see a person needs help or feel I can help in some way, I can't resist. Thats what I do in the Q&A section. Plus there are times when I feel the same frustration with life, but I'm determined to fight through it. Hope it gets better and hope something switches to give you energy for life.

[sabby]

George, I'm proud of you for "putting it out there"!

This is just a virtual equivilent to going outside and shouting out **** you to the world.

I can well imagine there are many people who feel this way at times, myself included at times in the past.

I am sorry that you are feeling as you are. I hope that you can find some ways to lift yourself up. Take care of YOU!

[LadyShadow]

Again, as I usually do, I don't know what to say to threads that scream such brutal honesty as yours. I may not be as supportive as I would like so all I can say is thanks. Thanks for putting it out there. Thanks for having the courage to be real. Thanks for your wonderful posts and comments on threads. But mostly thanks for being here on this site and providing your insight. I appreciate you and your thoughts and views

I'm your friend always George.

Never forget that