so messed up!!

hi im new to this but i have no support.ive had depression since 12.its so bad now.my family disowned me.the only person in my life was my sis who died 4 years ago.i miss her so much.i have 2 sons who 1 totally disregards me.my other lives at home hes a real sweetheart.i feel so empty and alone i cant stand it.i cry dont sleep.have no energy.its getting real bad.i have no so called friends at all.whats worse is i have no idea why my family is like this to me.i ask for nothing,.help everyone.im so empty inside,,numb.i want to feel..my past is aweful but i figured its past but i guess not.i feel like a freak sometimes.i see people happy,laughing,carefree,i want that so bad.i would give up all the material i have to feel something.im at wits end.my anxiety is way up there.i try to stay busy but cant focus.im so glad thers something like this.any advice or just a hello would be great....thanks so much all for letting me vent here...

I feel your pain for I too have been where you are at now.... ((((((( HUGS )))))))


LoVe,
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welcome to PC.. this is a really great place for support and to make some good friends.. people are nice here in the forum.. i am really glad you are here.. and i understand this deep depression you sound you are in.. am there too.. its no fun.. please try to hang in there..

Kat

Are you seeing someone/professional to help you along, if family are not willing to help?

You should not carry the burden alone...

Welcome to PC! You have found a wonderful place you will find support, friendship, understanding and love.

I am sorry things are so rough for you. I do agree with Always that you should not be carrying this burden alone.

Please post more as you feel comfortable. There will always be someone here for you.

Take care!

thxs for the hugs!!its so nice to know i have people i can talk to now...

not seeing anyone at the moment..family lol umm no.they have all outcasted me..they dont understand my depression.they keep saying grow up get over it!!can you imagine that..they should walk a day in any of our shoes..thanks so much (((((hugs)))) to all

i want to thank all of you..i dont feel like im the only 1 anymore.you feel crazy feeling this way..hard to imagine when your like this that other people have it also.you feel your the only 1..i found a really good place here..

babyblue glad you found the site it has been good for me being here I do a lot of reading and seeing how many have the same type of problems and they all understand the alone feelings. Glad you are here

thank you so much!! its been a bad day today..im trying to cope.family still wont even listen to me.they wont take my calls.my mom lives in my guest house and shes also so against me.hard when shes right here.i built that house for her no one else thought of her needs.and what do i get? i so glad you all are here..