Falling down

roads · Dec 29, 2012, 05:36 AM

I'm so sorry your social worker reacted in such a punitive way. It seems I've managed only to add to your distress--the last thing you need. I am not going to suggest anything else ... as you say, you're hurting and confused, and I've done nothing but make things worse even if my intentions were otherwise.

I'm especially sorry that somehow you've gotten the idea that you've not been a good member of PsychCentral. You have not only sent me well-wishes ... You have never failed to be grateful to everyone who supports you. That's what peer support is, and you lack nothing in that area. You're one of the most grateful members we have.

Bless you, dear Jen. Life is so hard, I know, and I cry for all of us. I hope you will choose life, because we want you with us. I like knowing you are in my world.
* much love and gentle hugs, always for you *

Roadie

WrongTurn · Dec 29, 2012, 06:05 AM

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Originally Posted by jen29

I feel that am a burden to everyone, especially my family. I also feel like I am a burden to society cause I can't work and have been living on gov't help since was 19. I most of the time feel like I am the worst person in the world. I have done many bad things, like hurt my family and friends. I was a horrible kid and was mean to my mom a lot while growing up. I was mean to my siblings and now one of them is gone. I feel like that is so my fault...not for being mean but for still being alive.

You are not a burden! Its hard as hell to live this way but you have as much right to be here as anybody else, more probably.
We look back and regret a lot of things we have said and done, but we can learn from that and I suspect you have, you just have to let the past go now
Try at least

jen29 · Dec 29, 2012, 05:13 PM

Roadie,
Hon you haven't added to my distress, I can promise you that. I take everything you guys say to heart and really do appreciate how much support you all have given to me.
I have been calling in the 4x a day as need to. So far today is a better day. I just got up for the day cause I just couldn't be awake during the day cause I knew the thoughts would get to me and the anxiety would make things seem so much worse. I was able to finally vacume my apt. it hasn't been done in almost a month or so.

Thanks again for everyone who has responded and please know I care about you all.

Hugs,
Jen

roads · Dec 29, 2012, 05:34 PM

Wow, you vacuumed? I stand in awe.
Love you, Jen.

Roadie

RJ78 · Jan 01, 2013, 09:26 PM

Hi Jen,

Thanks for keeping us posted! I'm hoping 2013 brings me some relief from my symptoms, and I wish you the same

RJ

jen29 · Jan 17, 2013, 08:28 PM

Hi everyone,

For those of you who have been wondering about me well I'm Back! I went into the hospital on the 2nd and came home tuesday. I ended up having 5 ECT treatments and now am able to be home. I am feeling better, much less depressed and have more energy.

THanks for all the wonderful support and thought and kind words for me during my down time.

Hugs,
Jen