Easier...

Why is it easier to laugh than it is to cry?

I just want to stop feeling like I'm drowning. I want to be happy I want to be in control, I want to stop feeling like c*ap.

I want people to understand where I'm coming from, I want someone to say that they actually care.

I'm a failiure. Even if I'm not. I still am. I'm wrong, you're right.

Yeah right, depression is just something you can snap out. *end sarcasm*

I want to crawl into bed and just stay there. I want to quit, but if I do then a lot of people will wind up hurt, and nobody deserves pain except for me. I can handle it. Or not, obviously.

Stop rambling.

((((( canders7 )))))
im sure you'll get through this.
hang in there!
-megan-

(((((((((((canders))))))))) you are cared for!!! don't let that lonley ache deceive you. You have friends who care.. Reach out.. Feel free to pm me anytime

canders,we care for you..........talk to us.......xoxoxo pat

((((((((Christina)))))))))

You are not a failure. Not in the least. You're one of the saner voices around here sometimes, actually. And maybe sometimes people get used to leaning on you for support and forget that you are here for a reason just like the rest of us. I hope you feel better soon.

Rap

Thank you ((((everyone)))) for your nice notes. I can't seem to figure out what it is this time, what the trigger is.

My friend found out ... he's all but forcing me back into therapy. So I shall go. (I've been out since the end of May or was it June? when she went on vacation). Guess I'm finding myself someone else, I don't think I'm dealing very well by myself.

Thanks everyone for caring so much, I still don't know why you listen to me whine and gripe about my life. And I don't understand it when you say I'm a good person and all that. I just don't know...

Anyways, enough rambling. Thank you.