[shortandcute]

I feel like hiding--especially from my son and daughter. It's not their fault but I just don't feel like being a mom anymore. I am so tired of always worrying about having food on the table and sometimes not having enough to buy my daughter clothes and stuff. My son is almost 25 and is going to move out soon, so that will help. And my daughter is almost 17, so I'll only be responsible for her onle more year--but I am so tired. There have been times when I have even thought about asking my sister if my daughter could just live with her until she's 18, but that would hurt my daughter terribly and only be adding a burden to my sister. I spend a lot of time on the computer and don't comb my hair or shower as often as I used to--just because I am so tired.

[allimsaying]

Short, I think you are really entering into a state that is demanding more of your attention. Raising two kids and money problems, not to mention stress from the family, going to meetings, wondering about your different conditions and it all sounds like it is adding up and overwhelming you, knocking down your energy levels to the point that things you used to enjoy, believe you should enjoy, are no longer feeding and re-energizing the inner you. Add all the guilt on top of it all and its no wonder you're tired, wiped out.

Im no doc but it sounds like a good rest is really needed, just to calm those out of sync emotions youre having.Once they're in check you can look at exercising more to help build up energy, but right now, its just my gut, I think you need a long reprieve.

Sorry if anything I said was out of line.

Hi shortandcute, i just wanted to send you some hugs and feel better wishes. Being responsible for two children and dealing with depression must be incredibly hard. I dont know if you have any support at the moment, but it sounds like you are on your own and having a very difficult time. To me it sounds like you are in desperate need of help. I would consider talking to your sister about her taking care of your daughter for a while, until you feel better. I think at the age of 17 she would probably be able to understand that you need to take care of yourself first, before you can take care of ayone else and that it doesnt mean you dont love her. Or alternatively she could go to your sisters' once or twice a week and thus give you some time for yourself. wishing you all the best

Please have some bloodwork done, Shortandcute, to determine if there are physical reasons for your fatigue. You could be low on some needed vitamins, minerals, etc., that could correct things for you very easily.

Hope you feel better soon with a doctor's advice.

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by genetic

Please have some bloodwork done, Shortandcute, to determine if there are physical reasons for your fatigue. You could be low on some needed vitamins, minerals, etc., that could correct things for you very easily.

Hope you feel better soon with a doctor's advice.

Actually, I just had some blood work done recently--just for that very reason. The doctor said that I wasn't low or lacking on anything, and he couldn't find any reason for me to be feeling this way (physically).

[Rachel.i]

Having to be responsible 24/7, to always be there emotionally and financially for our kids is very hard. Add depression to such stress and it sure can be exhausting. Mine have been out of the house for several years now, but I remember the times I just wanted to stay in bed and shut everything out. Or just feeling so tired, bleary-eyed, and cranky, but having to do what I had to do.

I would say to take some time out for yourself, do something you enjoy or go someplace, but I know in depression that advice often just doesn't work. But I do think the idea Chocmouse had of letting your daughter go to your sister's a couple times a week or so is a good one.

Hoping you feel better soon.

[justme01020]

I am feeling exactly the same way lately. It is just way too overwhelming for me to be dealing with a 15 year old with bipolar/adhd/severe anxiety and depression/ OCD and a 3 year old who is the picture of ADHD but cant be treated until she is 4. While i have my own issues that are slamming me right now. I dont even want to take care of myself never mind anyone else. But somehow someway i push thru my anger and depression and do the very bare minimum. But i am sending hugs to you as i know how you feel.