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Jul 17, 2006, 09:15 PM
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I had an awesome weekend with my son. We made last minute plans to go to a water park and then visit my mom and stepdad. My mom even abducted my car this morning when I was still asleep and had two new front tires put on it, got an oil change, filled the gas tank, and washed it for me. On the way home, we stopped and raced on the go-kart Indy track..
I hate my depression. I can go from being and feeling more than normal, and then a few hours later, when the excitement has worn off and it's back to the daily grind, I start slipping into sadness. I can't even fully enjoy a new friendship because I don't want to get my hopes up and then have it end. If I think that it might become more than friends, then I'll just be crushed more when he decides he doesn't want that after all. 
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Jul 17, 2006, 09:29 PM
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((((((((( wi_fighter )))))))))
im glad you had so much fun sorry that your depression is getting to you. and i hope that your friendship is enjoyable, and doesnt go away. we are here for you! -megan-
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Jul 17, 2006, 09:46 PM
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Thanks DD.
I'm afraid I'm heading towards catastrophic thinking. I can already tell I'm going to start pushing him away before he has a chance to hurt me. It just came out of nowhere. I have no reason to believe that THIS guy is going to do it, but I've enough people give me the "I like you, but" brush off that I don't know if I can handle another one, or if I can handle getting my hopes up and he turns out not to be how he represented him self. I didn't even start thinking like this until we got home and my daughter started talking my ear off because she didn't come with us this weekend. I felt instantly overwhelmed and almost regretted having fun because it meant I'd crash once the daily grind started back up. I'm sick of being pessimistic and feeling hopeless.
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Jul 17, 2006, 10:09 PM
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im so sorry your feeling this way.
I wish I could do more. I dont know if this helps but, hurt only makes us stronger. I have found that out through my recoveries of many different problems. I hope you get what you need in the end. hugs, -megan-
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Jul 17, 2006, 10:22 PM
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Actually hurt only makes me weaker. I'm tired of being hurt.
But I'm catastrophizing over something that hasn't happened, might not happen, and doesn't appear that it's going to happen.
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Jul 17, 2006, 10:25 PM
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Maybe you should go with your gut. Do what you think feels right at the moment. I hope im not making matters worse, if I am I'm sorry.
hugs, -megan-
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Jul 19, 2006, 02:20 AM
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in my humble opinion, you're projecting onto this guy......from your past. try to look forward and just enjoy the moment. tomorrow isn't here, yesterday is gone and right now is all we've got...........
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Jul 19, 2006, 02:29 AM
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You would be 100% correct Pat. I've kept it all to myself and the fear is dissipating. I'm doing my damndest to keep it that way.
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Jul 19, 2006, 02:35 AM
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been there, done that. i know how ------- scary it is to put oneself out there for a possible hurt. believe me, i know. i was treated as you were. an object. a nothing. and i still get scared that Bill will hurt me, leave me, forget me........i have to really work on that..........look how long it took for me to really open up to his caring for me.
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Jul 21, 2006, 06:58 PM
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Hi WI_Fighter,
I get that way too. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. I can't give any advice on it because I'm just as bad. I just wanted to say I hope he sees past your fear and doesn't let you get away with trying to push him away to keep from being hurt. ((((Wi_Fighter))))) |
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