it's not worth it

The last couple of days have been so good for me. But today has been horrible. It feels like the last couple of days have cought up with me and just attacked me. I think a couple of good days is not worth it. When I have to live a day like this.

My mom got totally wasted, which she hasnt done for 8 years. She came home and screamed her head off at me, for no reason. To make that situation better, my dad called her. He said that a kid from his neighborhood came to his house looking for me. I know who it was, and it was not good, him going to my dad's.

The rest of the day, I got screamed at by my boyfriends mom.( I guess I dont have any luck with mothers! ) And all she had to say was that I was a slut infested *****. And that I wasnt welcome around her son anymore. So her son( my boyfriend ) called me and said he heard some stuff from some people, and he doesnt want to date anymore! WTF!!! He is being the total opposite of himself.

My day only got worse. I was up on my roof crying for hours. My roof is the only place I can escape to. Some times I just hate my life.

-megan-

megan, i'm sorry. sounds as if your plate is too full right now. do you have anything IRL that you can talk to? xoxoxo pat

Hi Megan,

Yep, you sure did have a crappy day...sounds like everyone else was having a crappy day and they chose to take it all out on you all at once...

How you feel about you is what is important! Not what other people are saying because they've had a pissy day or life.

If you want someone to yap at, PM me, I'll be on for a bit yet.

:O) Bev

(((hugs)))) I'm glad you have a "safe" place (now don't roll off that roof!)

We all "hate it" when bad things happen.

What we need to remember is all the good days we have... and even when one or a few things that aren't so good happen in one day, it doesn't make the whole day black...really... gray? yes. perhaps... it isn't a black and white world... the world is really gray, and we just have to keep reminding ourselves of this.