[nzgal]

I am at my wits end, well im not but I feel like it. I even stuck up for myself arguing with the telecom(phone) lady on the phone, usually Id just say ok and leave it but im SO angry with everything.

I live in a flat of 6 people right and we are all leaving this year and we arranged for our phone to be cut off on Nov 29th and the man said thats fone and the only bills we would get would be peoples toll calls, YET most of my flatmates have gone now and left their toll call money . . . and a $103 bill comes along and $68 of that being the line rental which wasnt meant to come. And they say oh we will credit you when your next bill comes . . . . . and im like umm no this account won't be used again so theyre like well we will send u a cheque after ur next bill. Don'y they get I cant pay that much.

Money has me stressed to the limit at the moment because uni has finished and my student allowance has finished yet my work gave me 11 hours last week and 19.5 next week YET they wont CUT my hours so I can get the student hardship benefit - do they want me to crash and burn?

SOOOO this week, I get $92 after tax from work, my rent is $73.50 and $30 goes into my savings and OH LOOK thats more than I get.
The next week i get $165 and thats still BARELY enough.

Money is the source of all evil, I am SO stressed out. I can't wait to live at my parents for a year next year, well in some ways, i can also see it driving me nuts.

Sorry for my little rant there, i think maybe I just needed to get it off my chest instead of crying about it.

Im also a bit munted up cause my ex who im not over blew me a kiss on the phone last night - it was him who rang me, I been trying to lessen contact with him, but then when he calls me my heart just bleeds for him

Imma go cause im all cryey and munted

Kim

You only have ONE chance to make a first impression, Kia Kaha

[PlanningtoLive]

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Check out this link, Nzgal..........maybe it will give you the peace you need.

[nzgal]

Thanx planning

I just can't do this anymore, its like people go out of their way to make things more difficult than they are. And as for my ex, its just not fair

I hate that his family love me so much but then it makes me feel loved which is a good thing too, but then it would be so much easier if I cut all contact ARGH i just dont know.

But then I think that in a year or so I will have forgotten how I feel now and it'll be ok again but I dunno if it will as long as his family don't leave me alone. Maybe I don't want them to leave me alone. See I just dont know, im so munted !

You only have ONE chance to make a first impression, Kia Kaha

[Rapunzel]

Kim,

Money is the pits, isn't it? I wish we didn't need it and people could just take care of each other and everyone pitch in. Wouldn't that be so much easier? I don't know if it would be as easy to say that if I were one who had money, but I hope so.

Anyway, go ahead and vent. I'm sure things will work out for you, even if it doesn't seem like it right now.

Wendy

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[Duchess]

NZGLA,
Don't cry over no man 1st of all !!!!
secondly Yes, money is the root too all evil. but take it from me three days ago I moved back into my mothers house where there is no room for me. but I'm greatful at the fact that I have a roof over my head and my mother is still around. Everybody has there days just remmber too keep your head up high!
sometimes falling to the bottom and losing everything is the greatest sacrifice u can make
I promise everything is gonna be fine .....
Happy Thanksgiving all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~DUCHESS~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

ABOUT THE NINTH HOUR JESUS CRIED OUT IN A LOAD VOICE, "ELOI,ELOI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?"~WHICH MEANS~"MY GOD, MYGOD,WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?"
~MATTHEW27:46.
MY GOD,MYGOD WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?WHY ARE YOU SO FAR FROM SAVING ME,SO FAR FROM THE WORDS OF MY GROANING?~ PSALM 22:1

[nzgal]

guess what . . . now my work has cut all the part timers hours to 3 hours a week

You only have ONE chance to make a first impression, Kia Kaha

[dexter]

Hi nzgal I just saw this thread and I also hate how money fouls everything up. Long ago I had money problems causing a lot of anxiety and luckily (well, luck plus hard work) I was able to straighten out my bad credit and live within my means and do well. It was always very comforting to not have to worry about money. I too always feel like people should help each other out so if i had money to spare i would donate to charities and loan it to friends who were in need without ever stresssing about getting it back (it wasn't worth it to me to destroy a friendship over money)

now in 4 months of being home because of my depression i'm quickly loosing it all. Tomorrow in fact the bank is scheduled to start foreclosure on my house. I am sure they will work something out with me but that will only postpone things unless I can get on my feet again. With all the money paid for taxes and disability now that i legitimately need a little help what i get is woeful and even with that my savings has been depleted so quickly.

i don't have family to move in with so i will be in trouble if the foreclosure goes through. the small amount of disablility i get ends soon too. i've worked very hard all my life and it crumbles so quickly.

i think my point it that as far as money goes it was not a source of stress for me before this depression began, and now it is one of my hugest issues so how am i supposed to conquer the depression when the stress factors keep growing and growing?

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