[herethennow]

having really bad urges to si now. sigh

[NJBlues]

Part of me is feeling discouraged since I know it will take a while to recover, but part of me is so very grateful for my family & friends. I'm glad I joined Psych Central, too, it's a nice f group & we understand each other.

[Bark]

Long day, but it was nice spending it with that kid. I felt sad when she said it was one of the best days ever, or something along those lines, because... well, it seemed like an ordinary day to me.

Forgot to buy my medication... I should have written it down or something; we passed by tons of pharmacies, but I guess it didn't really register when I took my last pill last night. I guess I'll see what happens tomorrow... I've never skipped a dose for this med before.

I wish I had something to say to all you folks hurting, but I couldn't manage more than a hug. If I don't have the right words, I'd rather say nothing at all. But herethennow, try and stay strong. Listen to music, distract yourself. Tell yourself this feeling will pass, it always does. Comes and goes. But the scars stay. I'm not sure if mine will go away, and every time I look at them I remember. It's hard, but try your best.

[shortandcute]

feeling a little discouraged; tired of hiding my mental illness from my family but don't feel like I can tell them about it yet My disability hearing is in two months and I'm scared to death

[healingme4me]

Lack of sleep, is doing me in. I am up, I am down. Whether it be anxiety or depression, I am not sure, and don't really care one way of the other which one. Maybe both, as is to be expected.

I have so much on my mind right now. And am feeling a little sensitive.

I just want to know, that emotionally, I am going to come out the same. I am worried about surgery, in that regard. I need to be careful what sites I read on, about the surgery, I've worked so hard to maintain a healthy BMI, and don't know what side of the story to believe, with this looming surgery.

It's really troublesome, to wonder and wait, for the results to follow.

[gracez]

chest has been tight since waking and i've spent most of the day in bed crying. i don't want tomorrow.

[Grey Matter]

Down day. I had a horrid allergic reaction, the at home nurse has left so I'm a caregiver again. I'm tired. I'm lonely.

[lindammarie]

I was hoping this weekend would be better. So far it hasn't been. I've been in bed a lot. I broke my toes or something and I think the naproxen I've been taking is making my ankles swell until they hurt. I have not taken any today & my foot has not quit hurting. I'll see my doctor Monday. I wish I was likable enough for someone around here to want to be with me...

[Rachel.i]

Having surgery this week. I had a bad feeling about this surgery, that's why I canceled it before, but every time I think it's getting better it gets much worse. They say if this doesn't work, it's a university hospital. I wanted to try an MAO, because this depression is getting really serious, but MAO's and surgery are a big no-no. And I'm having more surgery soon, for something else, around August, September maybe. I have to stick around for my kids, husband, parents, siblings, friends. In the meantime my psychopathic sibling J is pouring it on which he does every time I'm vulnerable, as in ill or stressed.

That is all my life is...ups and downs.
Andy Andrews says that we are all either in a crisis, coming out of a crisis, or headed for one. On the surface that just sounds like life is misery.
I am doing my best to see these crises as opportunity for growth and learning, to become better and to be a ray of hope for someone else...to show them that one CAN overcome mental illness/challenges.
Lets just say I am sick of school

[herethennow]

thank you bark. thank you for always trying your hardest to cheer up someone else.

i think i'm fighting a losing battle with the urges... i even bought new tools... why did i do that... *sigh*

[herethennow]

also on another note, i'm at least trying to get up and going to watch despicable me later! i can't wait to see the minions...

[Bark]

Originally Posted by herethennow

also on another note, i'm at least trying to get up and going to watch despicable me later! i can't wait to see the minions...

Did you manage to get up? Think about it, at least an hour where you're almost guaranteed not to hurt yourself, and almost guaranteed to enjoy yourself to boot. How's the volunteering going, by the way? I was just thinking, if you volunteered in an animal shelter, maybe you could get your fix playing with the cats and dogs? They bite and scratch, but not usually hard enough to really hurt or do damage. It's fun, too. And they're probably aching for attention. And it's a distraction. And... well, you can probably tell from my name that I like animals. If you don't, I apologize, but maybe this suggestion will help someone else.

Took my medications today. Thankfully the one I missed didn't cause me much trouble; I can't tell if how I was feeling was all psychological or not. But no withdrawal effects like the other one; that one is brutal. No way I would have risked skipping it.

[herethennow]

Originally Posted by Bark

Did you manage to get up? Think about it, at least an hour where you're almost guaranteed not to hurt yourself, and almost guaranteed to enjoy yourself to boot. How's the volunteering going, by the way? I was just thinking, if you volunteered in an animal shelter, maybe you could get your fix playing with the cats and dogs? They bite and scratch, but not usually hard enough to really hurt or do damage. It's fun, too. And they're probably aching for attention. And it's a distraction. And... well, you can probably tell from my name that I like animals. If you don't, I apologize, but maybe this suggestion will help someone else.

Took my medications today. Thankfully the one I missed didn't cause me much trouble; I can't tell if how I was feeling was all psychological or not. But no withdrawal effects like the other one; that one is brutal. No way I would have risked skipping it.

I'm up! Movie starts in a few minutes so yup The volunteering is going great, albeit stressful since I'm at the backend of it i.e. managing things. I have a phobia of dogs would really love to play with cats but.. I don't know. Yup can tell that! Yay you remember to take your meds! hope all is going well with you, Bark.

I SI-ed at wee hours in the morning... I don't know what to feel about that. I'm trying to stay afloat and not breakdown. I want to enjoy this upcoming movie; it's something I was looking forward to especially when I first heard about it. I don't know whether I could. I just hope so. I really hope so. Anhedonia sucks. Max.

[SingItOutGemini]

Doing well today! My new career's future looks so bright and promising. Here's a hint

[Grey Matter]

Today was a bit of a mixed day. I was stuck in my home due to my skins reaction to the sun (hives, ugh). I read some, studied a bit for my nursing exam, and allowed myself to nap for an hour. Tonight I am not feeling as anxious as I have been.

[Hellion]

Not so great, not that anyone cares. I should really find a support group or something IRL...even then I still might not get input too often though.

[tigersassy]

Doing ok right now. Super anxious though. Worried bout work crap that I shouldn't be. I'm standing up for right and haven't done anything wrong.

[lindammarie]

My daughter just bragged on Facebook about the wonderful weekend she had. I am so jealous. My weekend was not wonderful and she had a wonderful weekend with someone else...

I don't understand why she won't come to visit me. She says she is too busy. But we all make time to do the things we want to do, don't we? I tried to tell her that it would mean a lot to me if she'd come visit me instead of making me go visit her. It's only a 2 hour drive, but I work full time & am involved at my church. She is a stay-at-home mom of a 6 year old and does not even attend church or volunteer for anything.

I guess people must be avoiding me because of my depression...

Why does life feel like nothing but loss? Why can't I focus on the good things in life?

A weird kind of day for me today. To start off with, last night I got an email from my friend and he was telling me that I was wrong for not wanting to answer the phone when my sister called while I was having dinner. He criticizes me for things that I do a lot and he does not understand my depression and anxiety. I wish I had another friend and then I wouldn't put up with him so much. He's much older than I am.

And then today was a weird day at work. I was told to set up a room with tables and chairs for a class and it was a "last minute" thing. And then a guy who fills in for me at work when I'm not there told me that he has to be out for four weeks because his wife is having a baby. I had a colonoscopy scheduled for the time he's going to be gone. So I'll have to move it up.

There was not heavy volume at work today, but a lot of stuff to do anyways. A lot of unexpected stuff.

[Grey Matter]

A down day, really. It started off productive. I woke up at 8am, read my study guide, worked out for an hour. Then a friend asked me to hang out and I had a complete panic attack about the thought of leaving home. I ended up collapsing on my bed and napping for several hours. I'll try harder tomorrow.

I can't believe the blessing I had this morning....thought for sure I was gonna have serious money issues but it all worked out.
Oh me of little faith.
Took my daughter to swim class and we played go fish before that...her new favorite card game.

[rise__above]

Bad day. I hate being at home

[herethennow]

Nothing ever goes right. Feeling down and super empty for no reason and just want to cry. I want to release these feelings but i dont know how to.. except the unhealthy way..

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[phaset]

I've been feeling bad the last few days. No motivation at work, don't want to do anything at home.

My doctor wants to talk about medication in a few weeks. He wanted me to be in thearpy for awhile first. I don't know if it's worth trying again, I was on several years ago that didn't have much affect on me. I know this isn't the right way to think about it, but I worry that I'm causing my own pain somehow and that is why the medication didn't work.