[Rose76]

Rachel - I'm sorry about the accident and the loss of the car, but very glad that you and the other driver were not hurt.

down... way down... feeling strange mentally and weak physically

[Consumed84]

Very, very depressed today. Had a med dose change that makes me agitated and angry, and now I just want to lay here like a slug. Which I am.

[tigerlily84]

Went to court today regarding a traffic ticket and it was dismissed. I am relieved... it was my first time going to court lol. I actually overpaid so I will have money coming back to me. So that's good news. At work today my boss had me work on some extra projects for her. And my youngest brother applied for a job at my company (different dept). He's a full time student so I hope that the job won't distract him too much. Other than having a couple of bad moments in the morning, the day turned out pretty well.

[lindammarie]

Originally Posted by Rachel.i

Well, I think I did enough whining/venting here the last week or two.... saw my pdoc today, which helped a lot, and realized too that I'd been slowly sliding from actively trying to get rid of this depression. Mindfulness started falling by the way, ruminations increasing, worrying about what some people do, when there's not a thing I can do to change them or some situations, and that I just have to let it go (much easier said than done, of course).

Downside... coming home from pdoc in thick traffic this AM, got in a bad accident. My new car totalled, other driver's too. It looked very bad so onlookers called ambulances, police cars came. But other driver & I both walked away. Was very shaken up, but so very thankful no one was hurt in a 50-mph collision. Never been in such an accident. Neither of us were cited. Next comes the insurance wrangling... what a day.

Seems a lot of people are having a rough time lately... hoping that it gets better for all.

I am so glad you are OK. You have been so supportive of everyone on here, but to me especially! Take care of yourself, sweet girl!!!

[lindammarie]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I'm depressed and scared. I work full time but for a temp agency. The benefits suck so bad that it leaves me open to lose everything if I get sick an have to go to the hospital. I have quite a bit in saving that I was hoping to pass along to my daughter when i die but now I'm scared I want have anything. This fear has overtaken my life and keeps me anxious all the time. I just had a major blood clot in my leg that I'm still waiting to go away. I'm worried about complications. Let's just say my worry and anxiety or over the top. I'm 61 years old and can't seem to get an interview for a better job with better benefits. I'm thankful I at least have a job, but I've never felt so vulnerable. today the fear is particularly bad. Glad I have a place to put all this down.

I will be 61 next month and I can really relate to healtcare costs taking everything... I know there is a lot wrong with the Affordable Care Act, but I'm hoping it will help some of us who do not have the benefits we need so badly... I am sending prayers and positive thoughts your way!

[lindammarie]

The support I asked for was withheld. I shouldn't be surprised. How many times do I have to bang my head against the wall? I find support here. I find support other places. The people I am "chasing" can jump in the lake!!!

So there. I think that's a pretty "healthy" reaction, actually!!!

Up I guess

[Grey Matter]

Up day. I went out and socialized, and I am now sporting a new tattoo.

[tigerlily84]

Watching Shark Week shows on the discovery channel. I'm nerdy but I don't care I love it lol.

[angryworld]

I'm terrified and I have no one to talk to. The fear isn't real, nothing bad is happening and even money troubles are fairly low. The feeling of being trapped is overwhelming me. I need to sharpen up my work skills and move on. The fear of failure is freezing me, shutting me down. I can't afford to loose the tiny speck of a job I have even though it's killing me.

It was a pretty busy day at work, so that helped. Unfortunately in the afternoon I came down with a sore throat. I tend to get cold symptoms during the summer months. I don't know why. But I have not had a sore throat in a long long time.

Nothing much going on tonight. Went to the pool area and no one was there, so that was nice. I hope that I can sleep well tonight. I get to sleep pretty good, but then I wake up around 3 and can't get back to sleep.

Better. Ok

[Nammu]

I'm here and OK, just hard to put things into words right now. Wishing everyone the best.

[tigerlily84]

Like an idiot I forgot to set my alarm. I woke up so late that I had 15 minutes to get to work when it takes half an hour to get there. I felt so hopeless so i called out. I'm slightly ashamed of myself, especially because I need the money. Stupid.

[tealBumblebee]

Feeling great - on top of the world. Kind of hyper...maybe that Pdoc was right a long time ago when he mentioned manic depressive...*shrug* I dunno, we never followed up. Unfortunate thing is the excitement is usually followed by a large mood crash BUT until then, life is just cotton candy and butterflies!

[tokiwartooth]

I'm ok, looking forward to seeing him tonight

[Bark]

Originally Posted by tigerlily84

Like an idiot I forgot to set my alarm. I woke up so late that I had 15 minutes to get to work when it takes half an hour to get there. I felt so hopeless so i called out. I'm slightly ashamed of myself, especially because I need the money. Stupid.

Everyone makes mistakes, tigerlily. I've done that countless times with classes, and spoke to myself in the same way. You're not an idiot or stupid. Instead of spending the day ruminating about it, try and think of something productive to do to "make up" for missing work.

[Bark]

Originally Posted by tealBumblebee

Feeling great - on top of the world. Kind of hyper...maybe that Pdoc was right a long time ago when he mentioned manic depressive...*shrug* I dunno, we never followed up. Unfortunate thing is the excitement is usually followed by a large mood crash BUT until then, life is just cotton candy and butterflies!

I think that psychiatrist was on to something. Sounds like you could be hypomanic right now, which is fun until the inevitable crash. I suggest you check in with your current doctor. Until then, though, enjoy it, and don't make any rash decisions!

[lifelies]

I know this is for unipolar depression but anyway...
I'm feeling horrible, terrible, horrible, horrible. I feel tired. I feel useless. I feel sick, too.
I don't know why doesn't this go away. I want this to go away. I want to feel normal again. I feel like I want to puke. I stare at the others (alters) all day, looking how happy they are and how many things they do. But when I have to do something, I simply can't. I'm feeling horrible. I ate way too much.
I wonder why does this has to happen. This weekend we'll go to Tom's father house. He was our abuser and will always be. We told our mother, but a few days later Tom was afraid and told her that it was OK. And now I feel like I want to die once again. I don't want to go there. I want to be treaten like a person, not like an animal. Only because the body is underaged we don't have the right to be safe? We don't have rights? Why do they make us go to that horrible place? It's a torture and will never end.
I also loose time. Literally. Already August 7th. One month of vacations. It seems a lot, but it doesn't look like a month has already passed. It's horrible this feeling. I always had some kind of post-vacational vacation. But if during vacations I feel this way, I can't even imagine how will I feel after vacations.
Perhaps it will be better because we'll have more things to do. But although we don't have much work at school, it always looks like too much and we end up doing nothing.
I just want to hibernate or something... Until the depression passes.
Allie
Lifelies

[online user]

Originally Posted by will19

It was a pretty busy day at work, so that helped. Unfortunately in the afternoon I came down with a sore throat. I tend to get cold symptoms during the summer months. I don't know why. But I have not had a sore throat in a long long time.

Nothing much going on tonight. Went to the pool area and no one was there, so that was nice. I hope that I can sleep well tonight. I get to sleep pretty good, but then I wake up around 3 and can't get back to sleep.

Cold symptoms during summer is probably allergic rhinitis. Hope you got a good night's sleep.

Susan

[lindammarie]

I am breathing and clearing my thoughts. Just need to get through the night.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Rachel.i

No response necessary, been venting a lot here recently. Sorry.

No apology necessary

[Rose76]

I guess when I've been feeling bad enough for a long enough time, I start feeling better because there is no where to go but up.

That, along with my narcotic painkiller, has me improved today. It won't last, though. But it is good to not feel so awful, as I did.

[tigerlily84]

I am so tired. It's not like I went to work today. I feel anxious and depressed for no reason at all. It took me until 3pm to finally get up the energy to go take the typing test that I need to apply for a job that I really want. 3pm... not bad, considering that I was supposed to go this morning. I still have to write a cover letter, but luckily the application deadline is August 12th so I have a bit of time. I know that I should try to stop the negative thinking, but I just don't have the energy. At least I took care of taking the typing test. That took all of my energy.