[Sameer6]

I am not that much fluent in speaking English but there are many Indian guys here whose English is even worse than mine and yet they study / live in countries like US,UK,Australia..etc. Even i can't able to do that.Sure this is embarrassing.They have some degree.When i was a teenager,i got forced to study something which i never liked but i can't able to prevent it as i had severe anxiety those days and i discontinued that study.Now money problems, age is increasing and no hope to study anything.Nothing seems to be good ,only i have to work and you know what kind of works you will have to do when you don't have proper qualification but i am not doing any of them.

Since i was a small kid,i have seen my dad going to gulf countries.But he is not a good person.Anyway.Sure he is the one who forced me to study something that i never liked and that is why now he is having a rough time.When you give trouble to people,you will get punishment.That's right.Even though i overcame anxiety on my own but i don't have a proper qualification and also i am uncomfortable in traveling for a long distance on my own.Never did that.I don't afraid of many things but still there are few things that i can't able to do on my own.

I was upset/angry whenever i hear some guy from relative side goes to a foreign country, it was like that ever since i overcame anxiety.Before when i had severe anxiety and when i heard this same thing, i don't have any reaction at all. Anyway,so i don't use to think about this often or else i will get upset.There is one guy who is my relative lives in Australia.He is an extroverted person with more friends,studied at the right time and went abroad.Guys like him grew up in village,never had much talk with foreign people and having bad friends hanging out..etc etc.Now they are studying/living in countries like UK,US,Australia but i am still here only.I have better personality than some of those guys and i do know i have the capacity to go to countries where they went. The thing is,where ever those guys travel,they just manage which i can't do.It was always surprising for me to know that there are people whose English is very poor and yet they traveled to countries like US,Uk.

I am a loner.I never had any friend.I never was in a relationship.I didn't cared much if i don't have any friend or a relationship but this ---- "Can't able to go abroad" is the thing which bothered me more than anything..

[OldLife]

Most of the time peoples' plans don't go as expected. If you have planned something time ago and now you are not where you wanted to be, it's just a different direction, not a failure. You certainly have good points in your life and in yourself. Even though sometimes jealousy may overcome us when we think about others' "success stories", the reality is, that no one has an easy life. Some may have no problems having fun or having money, but they suffer from other problems you don't know about. Something you have, they may be jealous about, but you just don't appreciate what you have and that's the difference. Not that you have to, if you don't want to, but why not to accept what you are and what you have. Your life is yours, their life is theirs, just cross a line there in your head.

I suffer anxiety through jealousy and thinking I'm worthless compared to others, but the thing is, you always win if you can stop comparing.

[Sameer6]

Originally Posted by OldLife

Most of the time peoples' plans don't go as expected. If you have planned something time ago and now you are not where you wanted to be, it's just a different direction, not a failure. You certainly have good points in your life and in yourself. Even though sometimes jealousy may overcome us when we think about others' "success stories", the reality is, that no one has an easy life. Some may have no problems having fun or having money, but they suffer from other problems you don't know about. Something you have, they may be jealous about, but you just don't appreciate what you have and that's the difference. Not that you have to, if you don't want to, but why not to accept what you are and what you have. Your life is yours, their life is theirs, just cross a line there in your head.

I suffer anxiety through jealousy and thinking I'm worthless compared to others, but the thing is, you always win if you can stop comparing.

I was never jealous of anyone and i don't compare me with anyone.If i am jealous,then i won't like myself and i never thought i am worthless comparing them.Now i wanted to type more but seeing the way you have replied, i don't want to.I just mentioned the one thing which bothered me the most and as per the title,i wanted to see what is the one thing which bothered some other people here.

[themonster7]

The thing that depresses me the most? I'm 21 years old and came down with a rare form of shingles in my ear on May 17th. Yes I said IN my ear, not on my ear. I've only been back to work for 2 weeks at this point, and shingles attacks the central nervous system, so half of my face is now paralyzed. There's a 60% chance that I will regain some function of it within 18 months, but taping my eye shut to sleep at night is starting to wear on me. I've never been in a relationship and I had so many goals for this summer. It ended up consisting of me laying in my bed with vertigo too intense to stand or walk. Attracting someone with a half paralyzed face is difficult. Every time I smile I look like a pirate saying "Arrrr!!" and I already went 21 years before this with no luck. I guess you could say it seems like my life, instead of being a collection of good memories that I could look back on when I'm older, is a collection of depressing times and yearning. And my eye really hurts right now.

[jadedbutterfly]

Originally Posted by Sameer6

I was never jealous of anyone and i don't compare me with anyone.If i am jealous,then i won't like myself and i never thought i am worthless comparing them.Now i wanted to type more but seeing the way you have replied, i don't want to.I just mentioned the one thing which bothered me the most and as per the title,i wanted to see what is the one thing which bothered some other people here.

So you want to know about other people....
On top of all my psych issues I have battled since I was young, I got postpartum depression that was a hair away from postpartum psychosis after the birth of my second child. It got so bad that my husband refused to let me come home. The baby was still nursing. I had to live in a shelter till I got an apartment. After 15 years, I have been able to have a close relationship with my older child , but the younger one, not so much.
That was the one thing that depressed me the most.

[Sameer6]

Originally Posted by themonster7

The thing that depresses me the most? I'm 21 years old and came down with a rare form of shingles in my ear on May 17th. Yes I said IN my ear, not on my ear. I've only been back to work for 2 weeks at this point, and shingles attacks the central nervous system, so half of my face is now paralyzed. There's a 60% chance that I will regain some function of it within 18 months, but taping my eye shut to sleep at night is starting to wear on me. I've never been in a relationship and I had so many goals for this summer. It ended up consisting of me laying in my bed with vertigo too intense to stand or walk. Attracting someone with a half paralyzed face is difficult. Every time I smile I look like a pirate saying "Arrrr!!" and I already went 21 years before this with no luck. I guess you could say it seems like my life, instead of being a collection of good memories that I could look back on when I'm older, is a collection of depressing times and yearning. And my eye really hurts right now.

Oh my goodness.That is sad.I understand your feelings man.

[Clara22]

Hi
The thing that depresses me most is that I am now living with my mom who suddenly became disabled, she needs a lot of help and we do not know exactly what is going on with her yet. I am disabled myself, came back to my country to take care of my health and I cannot do it because of all the work here at home. We live with my brother who does not work and most of the time does not cooperate but creates additional problems. I feel trapped. I have found some temporary help and solutions and I am managing it, but it is not enough and I feel I will fall apart any moment.
About you and your apparent lack of ability to travel, sorry not to be prudent but I would like to tell you this: you can travel. I have traveled myself a lot, I am severely disabled. I have seen a lot of people during my trips and journeys overseas, all type of people, and, again, you can travel. My brother, who is less intelligent than you travelled and lived overseas, as well. he does not speak English, he has a lot of problems, he was fired many times, and even with all this, he survived. What would you like to do overseas?

[with or without you]

coming to the realization that I've been depressed, at some varying degree, for my entire life.

[Blegh.]

The thing that depresses me most:
After a kid in my high school killed himself my mom said "it's really sad, because nothing is ever that bad that they need to kill themselves. An adult should have told them there is always a way out". That was two years ago...
But I know that there really is no way out. I can do whatever I want during the summer, but when schools starts I'll go crazy. I either go to school like a normal kid, do online schooling two years ahead of me, or switch to a new school(that won't solve the problem). I can't solve the problem. I just need a teacher to take time to give me a bit harder work, an independent project, or at least a computer to type on. I can't wait to get out of highschool because by the time I'm old enough I've probably assaulted a teacher. Or I've killed myself. There is no way I can survive school without getting into trouble. Everyone is sick of me starving myself and crying about everything. I'm even sick of me.

[Sameer6]

Originally Posted by Blegh.

The thing that depresses me most:
After a kid in my high school killed himself my mom said "it's really sad, because nothing is ever that bad that they need to kill themselves. An adult should have told them there is always a way out". That was two years ago...
But I know that there really is no way out. I can do whatever I want during the summer, but when schools starts I'll go crazy. I either go to school like a normal kid, do online schooling two years ahead of me, or switch to a new school(that won't solve the problem). I can't solve the problem. I just need a teacher to take time to give me a bit harder work, an independent project, or at least a computer to type on. I can't wait to get out of highschool because by the time I'm old enough I've probably assaulted a teacher. Or I've killed myself. There is no way I can survive school without getting into trouble. Everyone is sick of me starving myself and crying about everything. I'm even sick of me.

I hope you overcome your problems somehow.