[tigerlily84]

Feeling sick. I woke up feeling ok but started feeling worse as the morning goes on. I did remember to take my medicine today but it doesn't seem to be working. Not sure if I should ask to go home early.

Things just seem to get more challenging every few days. I am tired now. Finances are already overdrawn and my poor ex has some kind of freaky bug rash. She is going for a second opinion...but geeze..WE need a break from the freakiness of life please!!

[tigersassy]

Doing good today, but as soon as I say it I feel the slide. Crap....

[lindammarie]

Fell asleep on the sofa last night with the TV on... Didn't have a very good rest. "Woke up" around 4:30 and went to bed, where I could wear my CPAP for a couple of hours. I'm worn out but still have to go home & fix dinner, etc. Need to remember to pick up Rxs as well. I feel like crying.

[Nammu]

Finally got a good nights rest. Feeling physically great today! I seem to be in a cycle of feast or famine with my sleep, I go so long with so little sleep then I get one night where I sleep 10 or more hours. It is great when that happens but then the days of little sleep drag on and the pain gets worse as the body doesn't get its batteries recharged.

Mentally I'm in a flat gray period. If I had the energy I would get the paints out but I think gray would be all I'd use. Studies in Gray. Unlike the book there would be nothing erotic about it.

Ughs.
Sighs.
Blahs.

[Grey Matter]

ehh. After the anniversary of my brothers death, I've just been stuck in this kind of fog.

[tigerlily84]

So bad news... I did not get the job.
I am doing my best to focus on the fact that I do have a job right now; I just don't like it.

That being said, I'm still in the running to hopefully be selected for a promotion at work. But I'm still actively looking for something outside of my company. Here's hoping. All I know is that I am worth more than what I am being paid. I am worth it. I am. Maybe if I keep telling myself that it will come true, and things will start to turn around for me.

[bharani1008]

I'm out of the full blown paranoia and feeling of rejection that I felt yesterday but the ghost of the feeling is lurking.

[Bark]

I know that I should keep to my bedtime, take my medication earlier... instead I stay up, feel wide awake because the med hasn't kicked in yet, and I feel that I'm edging towards feeling depressed... not to mention it will affect my day tomorrow. My laziness and lack of motivation is really getting on my nerves. I am getting out and doing things, but I have to drag myself out of bed in the morning and can't be bothered to stick to a routine or work on plans for my vacation.... I'm just taking my meds, which keep me stable, but I'm wondering if they're messing with my motivation. Probably.

I think almost every recent post of mine mentions meds. Suffices to say that they're on my mind every day.

[tigersassy]

I'm here that's an up and down, but that is all.

[herethennow]

Feeling not too bad but not too good either. Met T and new pdoc (for the second time) the other day... Pdoc was hilarious.

I miss being normal

[jegsu01]

Feeling a little bit better. Had to lie to my mom last night about cuts she saw on my leg.

[tokiwartooth]

I just got back from Athens, GA and I feel horrible. I have some sort of GI virus and my intestines are hurting me really bad. It was so bad this morning before I left that I almost called an ambulance, but it started easing up. I feel like crap. I know part of it is because I'm exhausted, but I definitely have some sort of gastro illness. I'm going to the doctor this afternoon. I had to come from Athens straight back to work after driving for 3 hours.

Upity.....

[NWgirl2013]

Wishing so much I hadn't made this huge mistake

[Nammu]

I thought we were gonna get a break from the heat today, but the humidity is up making it over 100 degrees anyway. Ugh I do not want to go outside!

[Consumed84]

Reeaally down for the past few days... this time it might be weather-related because we've had a bout of storms this week. Before the rain started and things were dry and hot as usual here, I was actually driving out to see my horse and do ground work with him by myself (a huge accomplishment in my world) and I felt so much better in general. Not so today.

just barely getting by.
Made an appointment with a new T for next tuesday...gonna have to get a new Pdoc as well, the place I was going fell out of my insurance plan at work. I feel like I have to start all over again but that might not be a bad thing.
I did get to see my daughter for a spell...she is just so sweet and it was her first day of school and she loves her new teacher.

[tealBumblebee]

Sad. Hurting. Been crying a bit... pms I guess...or at least, that's what I'll say it it...

... Just feeling like i'm sinking...