[PenultimatePeril]

Regretting eating so much, had a nice time with my godmum though.

[spondiferous]

Honestly...I feel like giving up right now. Except that I have too much RAGE to give up. I want to just freak out and go ape **** and hurt somebody. I am SO TIRED of feeling this way and having it be taken for granted by pretty much EVERYONE that I'll be okay.

Originally Posted by spondiferous

Honestly...I feel like giving up right now. Except that I have too much RAGE to give up. I want to just freak out and go ape **** and hurt somebody. I am SO TIRED

Me too...

[tigersassy]

Still going through. Therapist irritated me today, but I think it was over reaction. Now just wanna sleep. Cry and sleep.

[Lost in this world]

Feeling lost and tired from working all night but when i work night shifts it gives my mind time to think but, i dont like the thoughts.

[gracez]

i hate my life and myself this morning and every day. with no hope or joy ahead i find no reason to get out of bed.

[PenultimatePeril]

Struggling to get out of bed, feeling low and just want to hide away.

[Consumed84]

Had trouble waking up; still in bed (as always) and feeling depressed and like I want to just burst into tears.

[tigerlily84]

I went into work for a few hours this morning. I don't have any plans for today. I just feel anxious for no reason.

[tigersassy]

Feeling low today. Emotionally all over the place. So much to do.

[shortandcute]

fat today, and anxious

[monkeybruv]

I don't know how to distract myself. I can't bear music, I can't bear people. I can't bear facebook. I can't even bear fictional people. Or thinking about fictional people. Anything that reminds me of life feels really wrong. I don't want thoughts any more but I know I have to live.

I.

Am.

Tired.

Of.

This.

Life. Can I. Just. Disappear. Now.

Please.

please

[don964964]

sick of summer so tired of it being 110 to 116 outside and 105 to 110 inside ..
sick of being alone .. and having no purpose in life but just to exist and suffer .
she came in the night and said there is no light . I said there has to be light she said are you dead ? I just stared at her and said no ! she said there is no light .. she was very angry. maybe I should be on the sckizoid forum ... now that I said it all ni will see is those dark shadow figures ...... I hate what has become of me and whatever is left of my mind .........................I am so done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Lost in this world]

Today is a negative thinking day. I wrote a poem about depression and how i see it. eh hopefully tomorrow will be different maybe more positive.

[Grey Matter]

Too exhausted to feel much of anything but self hatred, and that is exhausting in it's self.

UPS
I have been getting temp assignments

DOWNS
I get really down looking at all the seemingly happy couples out there. It just seems like so many people have someone and I have no one. And people just think economics is unfair. HA!

[Bark]

I am not sure what my mood was today. Slept in, even after I kept getting stuck in my dreams (a really, really horrible feeling), didn't feel like reading or doing anything.... Felt down most of the day, maybe depressed; I don't know, I can't remember. And now I'm actually feeling okay, maybe even good. But confused. I feel quite awake all of a sudden, but the meds will make sure I sleep soon. But I'm just really confused about my mood. I get the feeling that when my vacation is over and I'm back in school, things will flare up again. I don't know. I feel strange. Maybe I'll read before bed.

I've noticed a lot of new names on this thread, and I feel guilty for not keeping track of everyone. I'll keep trying.

[PenultimatePeril]

Friend going to be late, shes annoyed with me, im annoyed with her, ugh, had a rough night last night, tired, exhausted, drained.

ups
Coffee

Downs
My life...its not really a life but merely an existance.

[tigersassy]

Only 11am and my focus is shot. Today is going to be fun. I just wanna be done.

[tigerlily84]

I am tired of being belittled, made fun of, and blamed for things that are not my fault. And it is my mother doing all of those things. I wish I had thought to record her during her rage today. If there is a next time, I'll be sure to do that. I was told to get the f*** out of her house. Why? Because I said that she should ask me before she uses my things. It's a boundary issue. I would never take something of hers without asking first, so why am I not afforded the same consideration? T is right; I am not an extension of her and she has no right to treat me that way. It is interesting to realize that my self-esteem issues stemmed from the emotional and sometimes physical abuse I suffered as a child. As an adult she sticks to the emotional abuse. I have to get out of this toxic environment.

[lindammarie]

Originally Posted by Lost in this world

Today is a negative thinking day. I wrote a poem about depression and how i see it. eh hopefully tomorrow will be different maybe more positive.

I would love to read your poem if you feel you can share it.

[lindammarie]

I am doing pretty good this weekend. I am trying to do merciful things for others and myself. It helps, I think.

[tigersassy]

Failing miserably at staying above the water in my sea of depression. I'm breaking. Don't know if I will be able to tread water much longer. I can't afford my treatments anymore. Feel like the whole world is crashing around me. Will it ever be manageable? The darkness inside has won another day.