It's been a while since I've been on here. Today was a boring kind of day and it seemed like a long one. Went to church in the morning and it was OK. Took a two hour bike ride after that. I could have gone on longer. I was going to meet with someone but it didn't happen.

[ScathachWarrior]

Haven't been here in ages. I've had a mostly uneventful but calm summer, mostly good days, few bad days.
I'm having a particularly bad night. Why are nights always the worst? I'm waiting to be calm enough that I can sleep. I want to talk to one of my friends, but he's having a difficult time as well and I've never been good with judging when is an okay time and when it isn't. I just want this night to be over with.

meh... it's depression what can I say?

UPS
Things are not looking as bad.....
DOWNS
....but just give it time

[phaset]

Ok, I can walk again. I went to work today. I'm am stiff and sore but atleast I am out of the house.

I found out friday that the assessment I was going to do will cost between $2000 and $3000. I totally can't afford that so I am going to explore other options. I am really frustrated by this.

UPS
Just got some much needed relief from financial pressures
DOWNS
Egg on face from previous post. Sometimes eggs are reeely tasty

[tokiwartooth]

Getting a 100 dollar gift card this week for renewing my lease. Now I can afford to get some gas :I

[Consumed84]

Doing HORRIBLY today. D: Wish the day would end and it is only almost 11 AM here...

[gracez]

had a good acupuncture treatment but now so sad, well i guess i always am but - the woman who treats me is moving after next week. seeing her is the one thing i look forward to or that relaxes me each week. she has "recovered" or gotten on track with bipolar, whatever you want to describe it, and really understands what i'm going thru and cares about me. it's also the closest thing i have to a friend in this town.

[tigersassy]

Ready to call it a day. I made an action plan which is a step up from where I've been all day. Take the positive as that a positive.

[tigerlily84]

Monday thoroughly kicked my butt. Tired!

[IndieVisible]

Not in to it today. Hopefully I will be in a better mood by the time I get to work.

[Bark]

Still in bed. Want to go back to sleep but I don't want to get stuck in my dreams again. Want to go out but can't be bothered. My sleep is all over the place, and I know that messes with my mood. Ugh. I'd better just force myself to get up and sleep early tonight and hope for the best. But I'm still tired... 12 hours of sleep is not enough....

[angryworld]

Can't make myself understood at work. Simple project, we've done the same thing day after day for years but today we can't get it together and out the door!

[dandylin]

Good day, making DisneyWorld plans and did my first assignment for college. I am not feeling so great, stomach troubles, I'm figuring it's nerves because of my first semester of college.

[No Fuse No Flame]

Tried to go outside and work on trailer replace roof, became physically/mentally ill. Had to cross yard and be reminded of my furry buddy. One of the last two things left alive I really cared for. Will try tomorrow. Have to cut grass in his/our yard. Trigger city.

[lindammarie]

I've done something stupid, I think. I told my friends from back in the 80s that I'd meet them for a long weekend. Problem is that I think I won't be able to keep up with them financially. I am nervous and don't want to look like I've become a failure. I want them to still like me so badly and I'm afraid I won't fit in. I don't know why I said I'd go... I hope the money-thing falls into place so I won't have to lie to them about why I can't go. Besides, they're doing this to see ME (they have all kept up with one another). I feel like I even manage to feel bad about things that should make me happy. <sigh>

[shortandcute]

I have my disability hearing the day after 2morrow, and I'm sweating bullets--I'm so nervous.

[themonster7]

Diagnosed with Postherpetic Neuralga today, meaning the pain in my ear from shingles had lasted over 3 months, and can last for the rest of my life. This virus has been the worst thing to ever happen to me, and it's ruining me. Can't taste out of half of my mouth, can't smell out of one side of my nose, hearing loss in one ear, and facial paralysis. Now I find out I could be experiencing this intense pain for the rest of my life. I'm ready to throw in the towel, incredibly down today. And to make it worse I start school tomorrow and can't even move half of my face.

UPS
New T appointment at 9am
DOWNS
Just got more bad news on the financial front. Ugh.

[Nammu]

Bla, bla, bla........

[herethennow]

Feeling like crap. Wanted to go to a corner to cry during teabreak at work today but someone went to that place.. Im still away from PC so pardon me because i really cant reply anyone...

Meds got changed though so im really hoping on this one. Though the side effects is affecting me bad.

Feeling super sui these days too. Every moment im planning it and its scaring me.. Realised lately my dream is about sui too. Idk whether i should tell this to my T. Sigh. We'll see.

[tigerlily84]

Yea htn I think you should tell you T in my opinion. If you are making plans then you need extra support.. or whatever it takes to keep you safe. lots of ((HUGS))

[tokiwartooth]

Getting a contract put through here at work is proving to be a HUGE pain! What should have taken a few days has now been over 2 months!

Yes...ups and downs.....hourly if not more often than that