A very busy day for me but not too exciting. I was very busy with my domestic stuff, but not much going on socially. I could have gotten together with a friend of mine but we somehow just miscommunicated. Nothing much from emails and phone calls from others.

I felt like I had too much time on my hands this afternoon. I might feel like having too much time on my hands around tonight since the clocks go back an hour.

[onionknight]

Tired, so tired. Other than that I'm alive.

[Seiya]

UP
I went to a group event that I had organized with girls I didn't know very well. It went well and afterwards they posted online that they were happy to have met me.

DOWN
I met an old friend this morning for coffee. He said something that left me with a weird feeling. Said something along the lines of "so that's all you do pretty much is work?" I don't know why he would think that or say that. I've been much busier this year than I normally am. I told him about a mini trip I went on, a trip I'm saving up for, a wedding I went to. I mentioned I've been getting out more by joining a bunch of groups. I'd even told him that I had to meet some girls that afternoon. So why would he try to make it sound like I don't do anything? Obviously I do.

[1948kate]

Good dat, just cold.

[Bitmap]

Pretty even keel today. I have gotten a lot of housework caught up this weekend but still had some "me" time to relax.

B

[bronzeowl]

Hoping my sister sticks to her word and we go somewhere tonight.

Doubting it.

Ups? Well, I'm out of bed and dressed.

Downs? Still having a case of the blahs. Not wanting to talk to anyone really. Just want to get out of the house and cure this cabin fever.

[VxVx]

Feeling horrible again, just want to fall asleep and dream and not wake up. Work tomorrow - what fun :/.

[tigersassy]

Frustrated. So freaking frustrated. Want to go back to the old way of coping but I can't let myself because that would be counterproductive. Before frustrations hit I felt I was doing fantastic but then reality hit me in the face really freaking hard.

[Clara22]

An alright day for me though I felt depressed. I felt depressed mostly because I had a talk with my sister last night and it didn't go very well.

After church I had lunch with my friend. It was a pretty good lunch but we didn't talk much. After eating, his wife came home, so I left. For some reason his wife is not very pleasant.

I went on a bike ride after lunch for a little more than two hours. It was a nice day for it and I felt better. My friend and I talked on the phone for a while after my bike ride. It was a very nice conversation. But I felt down and very lonely after that.

[angryworld]

Irritable, moody, so disappointed with myself. Tried to concentrate on now and the good things. Kept dragging up past mistakes.

[imnotokayipromise]

The day has only just begun, and it's already been wonderful. I think I have realized that there is good in life and that happiness is a tangible concept.

On another note, I'm also incredibly nervous at the moment. I'm going to see a psychologist this morning. I've only seen one therapist in the past, and she was generally unable to provide me with any assistance. I have hope that this time will be better, but my nerves are still getting to me.

[Bitmap]

I feel pretty good this morning but it is early and I haven't had to deal with (*&()&^ coworker with whom I don't really get along yet.....we will see. I am working hard to maintain a positive attitude and not let her issues get to me.

B

[Bark]

Stopped my meds just because. Wondering if I'm going to last the week without a visit to the ER. I'm doubtful. I've managed so far with the withdrawal.

My mood? I don't know. I feel like my friend who says the same. I'd say mixed, because I'm neither up nor down, but probably a horrible mix of both.

[Nammu]

I'm at the library where they have fantastic wireless service. I'm loving the weather here. Amazingly there hasn't been a hard frost yet, and seeing a true fall is wonderful. My sleep has been so-so and on bad days it translates into physical pain, but over all it is going well. My mother is going to pay for an extra month of car rental so I can take her back and forth to the Mayo for tests. She's 85 and has heart issues. My sister who usually goes with her took off with her hubby for a retirement camping vacation around the south. She's currently in Arizona. I do worry a bit about moms health but she is doing better than she was a few years ago. The hard part for her is that her two closes siblings died, her brother last year and sister 10yrs ago. My father died 20 years ago so she is feeling alone. My daughter said that after she goes she doesn't think there will be anyone to keep the family together and I think she might be right. My mother is the heart of our family. I get along fine with my oldest sister but we don't have much in common and my other sister has always hated me, just because--no real reason. Mom keeps trying to find a reason but there isn't any she was the baby for 11 years then I came along and she became a middle child. However she and my daughter get a long ok so that is good news. It will be nice to be here though thanksgiving.

I hope most of you are doing really well and for those not doing so well, ....hang in there. Most of our problems really are temporary. Doesn't make them any easier to bear but life is constant change.

[beth0226]

I'm feeling really bad today. I quit therapy because I can't afford it anymore, and also because I wanted to punish myself.

[1948kate]

Good day. Pdoc took me off Buspar and decreased my Viibryd to 30 mg. does that mean I'm getting better, I hope

UPS
Good day at work and another wonderful day getting to know the new romance in my life.
DOWNS
Dealt a stinging financial setback from my previous marriage...when will it end?!?

[IndieVisible]

My fantastic 6 days in a row elevated mood with no anxiety, depression, paranoia, has ended today. I feel mild depression, mild anxiety, and mild paranoia. It was nice while it lasted.

[Patagonia]

I'm too mentally tired to think about my mood. It just all seems the same as yesterday's & will be for all my tomorrow's.

Am a little nervous about my appointment with my new psychiatrist today. I hope he can come up with a concoction to help me get out of this funk. I know it takes some effort on my part too, but I truly believe there's a chemical problem here because I literally went from hypomania to bad depression in one day, with no trigger. WTH?

[Touch of gray]

just bad

[tokiwartooth]

I'm just getting ready to leave again to go to Mooresville. I can't say I'm really looking forward to this one because I'm taking a class that involves math.... but at least it'll help me when I have to take the licensing exam next year. Milwaukee was fun, I would like to move there someday. And he really ruined my good mood by telling us that he is only going to remain the pastor for another year. He said he would rather be a congregation member. I hope he at least stays in the area because if he doesn't, I will be totally devastated.

[1948kate]

Very difficult, but good session with my therapist

[Bark]

Day started off as low as the others, skipped class and medication withdrawal and self-destructiveness and all the rest. But a couple of hours ago, I questioned how I felt. 'Lo and behold, I'm actually in a good mood. Caught up on some of the dishes, actually ate a proper meal, cleaned up a bit.... If this hadn't happened countless times before I might say I was no longer depressed and 'cured'. Alas, my mood is a cyclical one, and though I can't fathom it right now, I'll be sinking back into the depths soon. Doesn't mean that I can't enjoy it while it lasts! Hopefully I'll have some non-interrupted sleep tonight, but feeling rested after what little I do get is such a blessing. Imagine being able to go 12 hours without skipping a beat on five or so hours of sleep when that was such a struggle with double as much sleep. I liked some of the effects of that medication, but constant fatigue was not one of them.