(May Trigger) Why Can't I Control My Ups & Downs

Hi everyone,

Depression, I hate having to live with this crap day in, day out....
I spend so much time & energy building myself up, trying to stay positive, only to wake up one morning & feel like I don't want get out of bed. Liek I could hide under the covers forever!!

There is no trigger, no reason for feeling so low, it just takes so much out of me, to have this good attitude, only to have it taken away for no reason at all!!!

Why can't I stay on top, what is it that drags me back down???

thats the thing with depression, it just drags us down unexpectedly without warning. sometimes there will be triggers, even if you dont pick up on them, and sometimes there isnt...its just your body and mind wanting a rest from all the hard work you are doing on yourself. allow yourself to be down on these days, fighting it will make things harder, so go with it, amybe call in work sick and just stay in bed. rest.

your good attitude will return, i know it will. tiredness is a bad trigger i find, if i am tired i begin feeling bad about myself, then i feel myself slipping down the slippery slope, so i sometimes just sleep it off, depending how tired i am. i know you have been tired alot recently so this could be a reason.

you cant stay on top forever, its impossible, sometimes you will take a step back on your journey, but you will soon take more steps forward.

another thing it could be, is that i know you opened up to me very recently, so it could be that, its left your wounds open and they just need time to heal themselves. its always hard to talk to others about personal things, but this will soon pass.

i hope this helps flinty.

hope your feeling better soon.

simon

Yes, there's a natural ebb and flow of feelings and being. When things are really bad I try to think of one of the end scenes in Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone when they were caught in the "Devil's Snare" plant and had to relax and fall through it rather than fight against it. Do something anyway, no matter how bad you feel, to pass the time and distract you until you can feel better. I always figure if things are so bad, might as well do things I hate to do (cleaning and other housework) since I feel so bad anyway. Usually though I don't feel that bad :-) so I manage to find something more interesting to do that I prefer. Even feeling bad you'll find there are things you prefer doing and "preference" is a positive thing.

I know how that feels. I use to do the same thing. One thing that my therapist had me do to help make the day easier that she had me read a couple self help books and put them into pracitce. One of the things that you can do when you wake up in the morning is to say to yourself an affirmation like, Today is a new day and I am going to be happy. Concentrate on that affirmation for ten to twenty minutes, just keep repeating it to yourself over and over again. You will find that you will become that statement. You can spend some time each day finding some positive quotes and writing them down in a journal. After a while you will get enough in your journal that when you start feeling low again all you will have to do is just reread what you wrote. Say your affirmation through out the day a few times. Just live your life normal and keep busy. I know it's hard to get use to at first but it really does work. You may feel worse after the first few times but just remember to take care of yourself and do what feels good to you. If you keep at it, it becomes easier with time. *hugs*

Perna made a good point with that harry potter analogy! I never thought of it that way... When it gets us down another day all I can do is wait... Are you on meds or seeing a T?

Thanks for your replies....

Tanya - I have been on meds, but not at the moment.
Have never been to therapy... I am considering hypnotherapy, but it's too expensive.

Flinty...I am one of those rare people on here who disdains therapy. I've been to many. In the end, what has helped me was medication. I take Paxil, and a high dosage. This seems to keep me balanced.
Are you on any type of meds?
Patty

Did you feel better whilst on your meds? Do you thin they can help?

I understand EVERYTHING you said flinty

it's the same for me almost exactly.

hugs

How are you doing, flinty?

Hey guys...

I'm feel better within myself, still majorly tierd though.
Been stressing about my best friend, it seems as though aftre 1 year her marriage may be over & I can see she is doing it really hard, so I'm really worried about her!!

Looking forward to my weekend!!

Sarah