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#77
Dec 03, 2013, 09:00 AM
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Another day (second in a row) where I'm not feeling so hopeless and have some motivation! I wonder if this depression could be lifting now? Going to go shopping for some new dress pants today. I bet if I got at least a part-time job I would be feeling MUCH better too.
I'm loving this renewed optimism! Bipolar disorder is such a funny creature. 
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#78
Dec 03, 2013, 09:01 AM
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Simmering anger.
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#79
Dec 03, 2013, 10:04 AM
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Back to work after being off since last Wednesday. Actually, I was sick the majority of the break with a sinus infection. What a great way to celebrate Thanksgiving. Oh well. Now I've decorated for Xmas and gotten most of my shopping done. Have to wait till next paycheck to finish.
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#82
Dec 03, 2013, 01:46 PM
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Cried most of the morning. Acted wonderful on the one (work) phone call I had to take. Have not accomplished anything else, finally showered and ate some eggs around 1:30 pm..put pajamas back on. Dogs look disappointed, I should try to use some of the groceries I bought so I don't feel so bad about myself when they have expired and I've spent $100 on take out...
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| Bark, herethennow, Martek
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#83
Dec 03, 2013, 03:30 PM
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Might have to go back on meds... not dealing particularly well. Not sure how I feel a lot of the time. Pretty sure I'm depressed now... not sleeping right didn't help. I don't know. I have two meds with me: one has horrible withdrawal and one makes me chronically tired. Needless to say I'm interested in neither. I don't want to mess with meds right now, though... maybe after exams. Not sure.
Paper oh paper...write yourself, will you? |
| herethennow, Martek, tigersassy
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#84
Dec 03, 2013, 03:54 PM
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My up, today, being called in to speak with nurse and principal. Appears, some emotional changes are occurring, since visitations restarted. Hmmm...
Shall a little steam rise from the simmered anger, to realize, this is hopeful, in my favor, as I'm still traversing the legal system? Plus a rash on son, brings me to pedi,, this son gained four pounds in a month, and I'm going to show pedi,, the restraining order, and hello family counseling...boo-ya Sent from my LG-MS910 using Tapatalk 2 |
| Bark, Martek
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#85
Dec 03, 2013, 05:45 PM
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No up's today. I am in a downward spiral here.
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| Anonymous37807, Bark, Martek, tigersassy
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#86
Dec 03, 2013, 08:54 PM
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I called my therapist today. Got an appt for thursday to see what she thinks is up with my moods our if I need to go see a psychiatrist. That got me stressed out. Hate drs appts. Doing ok other than that. Need to make myself sleep for a few hours. Erg....
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PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin  |
| Bark
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#87
Dec 04, 2013, 07:09 AM
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Tired. Not too good.
Am thinking sui lately. It's been getting progressively worse. I don't know whether I can take this anymore.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
| Anonymous37807, Bark, tigersassy
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#88
Dec 04, 2013, 08:54 AM
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Down: feeling really tired and it's only almost 8:00 a.m.!
Up: Have nothing I absolutely have to do today but can't stand being bored and feeling useless so I will force myself to get out |
| Bark
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#89
Dec 04, 2013, 04:10 PM
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I have had to work from home now for many years. I have lupus but I hide behind that diagnosis. My biggest problems are depression and ADHD. I always use the lupus as an excuse but it is less debilitating than my mental health issues. I am hoping to start a part time job soon but I get a lot of anxiety when I need to leave the house. I need to get out of here more though. I am nervous.
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#90
Dec 04, 2013, 04:18 PM
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Quote:
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#92
Dec 04, 2013, 05:01 PM
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Took a shower (finally). Did a little dishwashing. I've decided to drink tea and stay awake and hopefully get some work done. And maybe trigger a happier mood. I'm quite tired, but here's hoping the caffeine kicks in. Tea often makes me tired, oddly enough.
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#93
Dec 04, 2013, 05:31 PM
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Down, back against the wall.
Up, bringing my A game, post work, just to shake blahs. Sent from my LG-MS910 using Tapatalk 2 |
| Bark
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#94
Dec 04, 2013, 06:36 PM
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I am completely drained of energy.
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#95
Dec 04, 2013, 07:54 PM
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So think one of my toes is broken. Completely by accident and even through that my mood is overly up. Therapy appt tomorrow to get I don't remember the word but checked out to see if she thinks I need a pdoc. If she thinks my mood shift is major enough I'll start that journey. What fun. Took a half a tylenol pm to help with pain and sleep so tonight I might get 8 hours. Night all.
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PTSD possible bipolar Meds: propranalol 20mg 2x's(blood pressure), lamictal 300mg, seroquel 100mg, effexor 75mg, sprycel 100mg (CML, chronic myeloid leukemia), iron supplement, multivitamin |
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#96
Dec 04, 2013, 07:58 PM
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Quote:
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#97
Dec 05, 2013, 09:12 AM
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Back has been aching for the past 6 days and it has not been helping with my mood at all. Finally went to the doc's today to see whats wrong and he was suspecting kidney infection o_o. If it gets worse, he advised me to go to the emergency room. Which I really don't want to do at all...
Other than that, mood has not been fantastic. Sui is 3% lesser now, thank god. to everyone who is suffering.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
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#98
Dec 05, 2013, 10:12 AM
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I feel about the same today as I did yesterday. Maybe a little worse. Having money issues this month and it means no presents. I haven't told my daughter yet because I don't want to ruin her Christmas. I know I need to do it because the longer I wait the harder it will be.
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#99
Dec 05, 2013, 11:15 AM
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I feel so anxious and stressed out, mostly for no reason, but there are a few things that I'm waiting on here at work, not on my end but on the other end, and it's taking them forever. I've got that feeling again where I feel like I need to get out of here, go somewhere, do something, but I have no idea what, and I'm at work so I can't leave. And where would I go even if I could? Last night was pleasant enough, went to a local brewery with two friends and had some beer before the church supper, and ran into him there, which was a pleasant surprise. That was nice. Good beer too. But then after it was all over and I got home, it died off.
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#100
Dec 05, 2013, 11:35 AM
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I'm tired. And being tired never bodes well for fighting off the negative thoughts. I always compare to having a weak immune system: you're more prone to getting sick if your immune system can't fight off the smallest infection. Hope that made sense lol.
Wish I could just curl up in a ball and ignore the world, but it's just not an option right now. Sigh. |
| Anonymous37807, Bark, tigersassy
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