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#326
Dec 29, 2013, 04:48 PM
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not good. not good at all.
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 Anonymous37807, Bark, Rose76
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#327
Dec 29, 2013, 04:52 PM
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Yesterday I was glad to be alive and trusting in the Lord, today I am depressed, bored, lonely, and anxious.
The last two days the temperatures were mild and I was able to get in two-mile walks each day; now we're back to sub-zero temps with the wind chill and it's icy, so no walks and back to cabin fever. I'd slipped on the ice the other day and, while thankfully I didn't fall, I did pull a muscle in my back so I'm in pain and having mobility problems. Despite five doctor appointments and any number of prescriptions and nasal sprays, I am suffering again today from allergy-type symptoms and am miserable. My job situation is a mess, I'm on administrative leave but expect HR will be calling me this upcoming week to tell me I've been laid off...again...this time at age 58. One interview has already sent me the thanks-but-no-thanks email and I expect one from the second company I'd interviewed with as well. So losing hope and trying to deal with the immense feelings of injustice and hurt and anger I feel towards my employer, not to mention the "friends" at work who have abandoned me. I hate my life most days and can't wait for it to be over. Sincerely appreciate your reading this, tho, thanks. I'm grateful to the people on this board who understand and make me feel less alone in sharing their issues as well. 
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| Bark, Grey Matter, herethennow, Rose76
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#328
Dec 29, 2013, 08:38 PM
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Sick of thinking of my husband who i'm now seperated from and should divorce but he keeps me hanging on, being with another woman for the better part of this past year, lying about it, just so damn hurt by every man i gave myself to,, but 19 years of putting up with all the crap he handed out to me, just trying to love and be loved, intstead i get more hurt. I don't know yet how to forget how hurt I am. Distractions only work for a while, then what.....no decent sleep after years of meds that don't work anymore
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| Bark, herethennow, Rose76
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#329
Dec 30, 2013, 08:02 AM
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i guess i reached my breaking point today - no trigger whatsoever. i just feel.. down. i don't want to face this anymore. i just want all of this to end. 
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
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#330
Dec 30, 2013, 09:05 AM
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I spent a lot of time in bed yesterday. I felt like it was because I came down with a cold, but part of me wonders if I just wasn't using that as an excuse because I'm depressed and don't want to face the world. Despite still having a cold, I forced myself to get out of bed this morning. I will not allow myself to stay in bed just because I have a cold. It's too depressing.
Have a hair appointment today, and other than that doing laundry and will probably spend a lot of time on PC, passing the time away. Still hoping the job I want to land comes to fruition (hopefully within a couple of weeks). |
| Bark, herethennow, Rose76
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#331
Dec 30, 2013, 12:37 PM
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Terrible nightmares. I can't get rid of them. I'm afraid to fall asleep. Right before I woke up this morning, I dreamt I was standing in a corn field and there was a crop circle. I saw a little boy in the crop circle, and when he turned around, his eyes were pure black. It scared me so bad I woke up, and I've been creeped out ever since. I've been growing in my relationship to God, and my mom seems to think it could have been an attack by the devil. That freaks me out.
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| Bark, healingme4me, herethennow, Rose76
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#332
Dec 30, 2013, 12:41 PM
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Absolutely horrible in every sense of the word.
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It's not as if this barricade blocks the only road It's not as if you're all alone in wanting to explode Someone set a bad example, made surrender seem alright The act of a noble warrior, who lost the will too fight. |
| Anonymous37807, Bark, healingme4me, herethennow, nakitakunai, Rose76, tokiwartooth
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#334
Dec 30, 2013, 01:26 PM
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Normally I just check in the Bipolar forum but the depression part of the illness is taking over lately so I thought here would be a good place to check in too. I'm doing absolutely horrible, the past 8 weeks I've been so depressed. I feel like giving up. Having sui thoughts. 3 more days to make it through till my appointment with my T. Its so soon yet feels forever away.
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All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle. -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
| Bark, healingme4me, herethennow, Rose76
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#337
Dec 30, 2013, 04:09 PM
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not good today
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| Bark, healingme4me, herethennow, nakitakunai, Rose76
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#338
Dec 30, 2013, 08:58 PM
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Today as I was driving I noticed I was doing sobbing breathing. I have not done that in a while. For the second time in a few years I googled forums for depressed seniors. The results of the search is always interesting. One link led me to info on the great depression of 1929. Seems so odd that there are no forms for senior citizens who are depressed. God only knows there are enough depressed seniors. And many of us do use computers. I think someone should think about starting a forum for seniors who are struggling with depression,.
On mental health websites I have seen threads for older people. But younger people cant help themselves from posting on it. I don't know why they cant leave just one teeny area for us. But many just cannot do it. Anyway, I long for a forum area for seniors who are grappling with depression |
| Bark, Fuzzybear, healingme4me, nakitakunai, Rose76
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#339
Dec 30, 2013, 09:39 PM
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This month, is coming to an end. And I can sense, the melancholy a bit lifted. One more remembrance to go, however, it's not really a sad memory, because of the outcome. Tomorrow, is a reflection of growth. With the new year, comes cake preparation.
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| Bark, herethennow, Rose76
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#340
Dec 31, 2013, 06:05 AM
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A few more hours to 1st jan for me, so happy new year to all of you
 maybe one day i'll start a year without depression.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes herethennow: This ward is a prison! dx: recurrent MDD.
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is. |
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#341
Dec 31, 2013, 07:42 AM
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I found two existing social groups: http://forums.psychcentral.com/group...racefully.html (has a forum) http://forums.psychcentral.com/groups/over-55-only.html Not sure if they're what you're looking for. Last edited by Bark; Dec 31, 2013 at 08:01 AM. |
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#342
Dec 31, 2013, 08:26 AM
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I'm wishing we had today off as well as tomorrow. I really could have used the extra sleep. I'm so tired. Plus, my stomach is really upset. It tastes like I'm burping sulfur.
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| Bark, herethennow, Rose76, tigerlily84
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#343
Dec 31, 2013, 08:51 AM
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still have a cold today, but it's worse than yesterday because I have a bad headache now too. My husband strongly advised I just stay home and rest. With my depression, I'm always home and not doing much, and I hate it. More of the same today? I wanted to at least get out an go to an AA meeting and pick up my lunesta, but I guess it may be in my best interest (and others who would come in my path) for me to stay home . . . I must try to not think too many morose thoughts today though
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| Bark, Clara22, herethennow, Idealsummerluvv, Rose76, tigerlily84
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#344
Dec 31, 2013, 09:38 AM
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I feel so empty and sad. Yesterday I went to work and I felt this smile stretch across my face but I didn't feel anything. No one could tell that my smile was fake. That everything about me is fake. I don't feel anything at all. I can't even cry.
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| Anonymous37807, Bark, Clara22, herethennow, Idealsummerluvv, Rose76, sunsetsunrise
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#345
Dec 31, 2013, 02:03 PM
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I got up, ate and got dressed. Planning to go out to get milk. It's not a lot to brag about, but this is progress. I'm glad to be better than I was.
I am feeling somewhat hopeful about the new year. I hope all posters here can find some little ember of hope, however small. ((((HUGS)))) to all. 
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| Anonymous37807, Bark, Clara22, herethennow, Idealsummerluvv, sunsetsunrise
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| Bark, herethennow, sunsetsunrise
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#346
Dec 31, 2013, 05:03 PM
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Can't pull myself out of this depression. Really need the next 6 days to go by quick so it can be my pdoc appointment already. Hoping to get back on an antidepressant, they helped me before during an episode of severe depression.
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All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle. -St. Francis of Assisi Diagnosis: Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type PTSD Social Anxiety Disorder Anorexia Binge/Purge type |
| Bark, herethennow, Idealsummerluvv, sunsetsunrise, tigerlily84
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#347
Dec 31, 2013, 08:47 PM
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I wish for everyone here who is in pain to have a new year filled with the strength they need, for relief from suffering, and contentment and peace
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| sunsetsunrise
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| Bark, herethennow, sunsetsunrise, tigerlily84
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#348
Jan 01, 2014, 02:54 AM
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The last day of the worst year of my life is over and I survived it. Now if only I could find a solid footing to make this next year better...
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It's not as if this barricade blocks the only road It's not as if you're all alone in wanting to explode Someone set a bad example, made surrender seem alright The act of a noble warrior, who lost the will too fight. |
| Bark, herethennow, Idealsummerluvv, sunsetsunrise, tigerlily84
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#349
Jan 01, 2014, 03:51 AM
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depressing is when 5 hours ago you post in facebook a happy new years message wishing people a wonderful 2014. And not one of your 120 plus facebook friends even bothers to acknowledge you exist. But the other people's new years messages are acknowledged. Further proof that I do not matter at all. The foolish thing is that I continue to post things knowing full well that no one will bother to even acknowledge it. I never post negative thoughts. So it cannot be that. Its just that people do not care about me. I am irrelevent at best. THAT is depressing.
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| Bark, Fuzzybear, Idealsummerluvv
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#350
Jan 01, 2014, 03:54 AM
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This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
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My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
I've lost the weight I gained on meds, and the appetite and ability to eat much as well. Depression just makes it tougher. Have you tried eating a bunch of smaller meals?
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