[wanting]

i took abuot 15 5mg diazepm and 10 sleeping pills i thogh that would be enough followed by who bottle of spirits,my family put me tp bed and watched me but i still want to di it again,but there are no meds in the house anymore,i feel so ashamed of myself righ now even my ant-deresssantds are gone someone help me

I overdosed (& drank a bottle of wine on top of it) about 3 mos. ago & ended up in the ER. MY husband found me crying hysterically & could tell something was wrong with me. He asked what I had done & I told him. I just wanted the pain to stop. He called poison control & then said to take me to the ER. I blacked out while I was there.

The next day I felt so ashamed. I haven't done anything like that in a long time (have bipolar 1). It scared me pretty good, too, to act so rashly & irrational. Back to my doc & therapist. Increased one of my meds & added another to help me sleep.

I think you'd better go see your doc ASAP. Your family took a great risk in not taking you to the hospital. Please try to take control of your depression & reach out for help from your doc & a therapist. You need professional help. Your family is not equipped to help you at this point, IMO.--Suzy

[wanting]

I whent to see my doc this morning and he examined me to make sure i was ok he aske me if i still wanted to do it,i lied and said no.He thinks i have bipolar so has arranged for me to see a specialist and has given me 2 weeks off work,he wont give me anymore sleeping pills though because i took all the one he prescribed last time and all of my mothers diazepam,i still feel lost and want an escape.i want to go and buy another bottle of spirits and hide somewhere and drink it all away.

I think you need to call the doc back & tell him the TRUTH about how you feel. You're not going to be helped if he doesn't have the full picture of what is going on with you. There is hope for bipolar--for me it took medication & therapy & lifestyle changes. You can feel better. Hold on & make sure you are taking full benefit of the doctors you see. They want to help you, but can't unless you tell them all the feelings & thoughts you are having. Take care.--Suzy

[(JD)]

I'm sorry you felt you needed to lie to the doctor... but maybe it wasn't a lie..maybe you DID tell him the truth right then, while you were with the doctor you really didn't want to die right then? Please don't isolate yourself, you need to be with someone, imo.

Distract yourself..force yourself to watch tv, take a walk, do something with other ppl... that way you can begin to battle these horrible feelings and begin to feel better.

(((((gentle hugs)))) Many of us here at PC have been where you are. TC

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope things are going better for you at this time. I hope the Dr will give you something to help you feel better since you have been diagnosed with Bipolar. I hopethe best for you Take care Sincerely Soidhonia

[Boopers]

Please call your doc back and tell him how you are feeling. He can't help unless he knows how you are feeling right now. Or, at least, tell your parents.
I'm am so thankful that you are OK from that last episode. It could have turned out to be horrible.
Please take care of you and I hope and pray that you will be OK in the future.

Please keep us posted as to how you are doing.
Linda