It has never been this bad.

I hate my life. This one thought has been going through my mind all day everyday for the past few weeks. I have never been this depressed in my life, I just cut even deeper a few days ago, I am still too scared to actually commit to seeking help. I have only seen the school psychologist once, I no longer feel comfortable confiding in trusted friends and I have an extremely low self esteem at this point. I cannot focus on schoolwork at all, I cannot sleep very well at all and I am not eating very well. I have lost a few pounds recently when I should be gaining instead. Like the name suggests, I am feeling stuck right now

Hey there. Sounds like you're going through a really rough time I feel like it might be best to at least try to seek help. I know I sat in my school's office 3 days in a row before I got the guts to actually walk in and talk to someone but let me tell you it really does help. It took a bit but counseling and medication are what I'm on and I've been feeling a lot better than I had before.
Do you have a family member or relative that you do feel comfortable sharing with? They can try and direct you to someone who isn't part of the school that can help.
I'm so sorry that you feel cornered right now but please know that you can talk to us too

You are doing right by reaching out for help from the school psychologist. He/she should be able to direct in the right direction for treatment. You do need help with this. Please seek outside help.

I agree to "keep rollin" Do whatever it takes to hold out

same with me...im feeling it right now. but is there any of your family you can share ?
maybe you can do something you like when you're feeling bad, to simply relieve

I would rather not speak to family members, and I have lost interest in many activities. I do self medicate, or try to at least. These past few sessions have been pure hell for me, but I don't want to quit for some reason. I'm talking about smoking weed by the way. I did make a nice breakfast this morning, maybe actually getting decent nutrition will help.

I have told my mother about these feelings I am experiencing but she has yet to make an appointment with my doctor.

I am a mom and a grandmom, so I can only offer you this idea - sometimes it is super hard for a mom to recognize what is right in front of her, mostly because she probably has no earthly idea what to do. That is a big case of denial going on, don't you think? My suggestion is to simply keep saying the same thing over and over and over again, something really simple like "mom, I'm really depressed and I want to see a doctor" or "mom, I'm really depressed and I don't know why and I want to see a psychologist" Because even though that is NOT the whole story, it may be enough information for her to start to handle this by getting you into a doctor and then you can have a private discussion with the doctor. What do you think? Or maybe another adult? an aunt or uncle? or do you have any older siblings? or a teacher? or someone at church?

I do talk to one of my teachers about it, my psychology teacher. She is actually the one who referred me to the school psychologist. My mom, she is not in denial, I talked to her this morning about it over the phone and she said she would make one either tomorrow or the next day. I guess I just interpreted it incorrectly the first time.

Well self medicating is not always the best answer but I'm really glad you're going to see someone soon! Please let us know how it goes!

I am new here and I'm not versed on the terms and acknowledgments of everything around here but I do wish you get well soon. I have most of those feelings on a daily basis but I never realized I really needed help.

I hope everything get well soon for you