[The Fox & the Hound]

I am always depressed. Sometimes it so severe, I don't know if I can make it through the day. I just want to kill myself.myself. Thats how bad it is. Sometimes are ok, but I am never happy. I never have fun, I can't even have fun. I don't have any joy. I just always have these suicidal thoughts, even when I am ok. It is so exhausting, somedays I don't want to get out of bed. I have NO motivation to do anything anymore, especially school.

This week has been horrible, I just have felt horrible, & really wanted to die. I actually need to talk to the suicide hotline, because I really did not know if I could of made it through the night.

[20broken17]

Can you talk to someone so you can maybe talk to a therapist or psychiatrist?

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[20broken17]

You aren't alone in this. Many people feel like this and it is horrible. Sometimes with some help it gets easier.

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[wildflower120]

I feel that way all the time. Today was bad for me. I woke up today and didn't want to bothered with anyone. I cancelled my morning appointment with my therapist, I just didn't feel like being bothered. Then I called my job and made up an excuse to come in late today. My job is a major source of my stress and anxiety.

Sometimes we spend so long in the darkness that we forget what the light even looks like. And our memories of happier times feel more like dreams than things we have experiences. And it's just so sad when you haven't been happy in what feels like forever. Although it' not very consoling, the best thing about mood is that it changes. What you feel this week won't always be what you feel. When I look back at my emotional logs I feel like an entire eternity has passed because just a week ago hopeful and now I'm hopeless and I know if I can hang on long enough, it will come back.

Stay as strong as you can! I'm glad you depended on the hotline when you needed it. It shows amazing strength on your part.

[The Fox & the Hound]

I was going to tell my therapist about my depression, but I got scared. My dad brought me today.I just really do not like him, & I didn't want to tell her cause my dad was there.

There are getting really bad, I almost ran into the bathroom crying. I just really wan to kill myself, I really can't tell with it, Today is so hard to get through with it.

[Altered Moment]

I think you really need to tell someone about this. We can't do this thing alone.

Can you ask him to leave the room? I wouldn't be comfortable sharing anything with a parent in the room perhaps you can send an email or call your therapist and let them know what's going on. You're feeling so much pain and it really helps to share.

[The Fox & the Hound]

Well he wasn't in the room when I was with my therapist.. She asked if everything was ok, & I really want to tell her I was depressed. But, when I found my dad was going with me, I knew I couldn't tell her.I was broke down crying. Everything I see can be used for suicide. I can not stop thinking about suicide, it is overwhelming.

[paynful]

Suicidal ideation is very scary. It's time to talk to some one who can actively help you. Call your T or a hotline. Talk to some one at school or mother if your more comfortable with her. Maybe for your next visit to your T, you could write it down in a letter so you don't have to say it... you just hand her the letter.

Don't let your silence keep you prisoner. It isn't easy or simple to be brave and speak out... but it is better than hurting yourself. Depression is very isolating. Please, seek help before it becomes too dangerous for you. Being this desperate is a horrible feeling, especially when it doesn't have to be this way. You aren't alone.

It's most definitely overwhelming Make sure to keep calling hotlines when you need it and I would really encourage you, if talking face to face is difficult, to try emailing, writing, or calling her to tell her. You've suffered enough alone. And as much as it's downright terrifying to let someone know, it's a very important step to jump start the healing process and slowly wade out of this sea we call depression. You must feel so heavy everyday. Let them help take some of the weight off your shoulders. We can help too but we aren't exactly trained in helping haha.

As always, stay as strong as you can and we are always here to listen.

[The Fox & the Hound]

Still feeling horrible. I don't have here number or email addresses, so I can't call her.

I am trying to stay strong but it so hard, feeling like this a lot of days just sucks especially when I feel like this for more then 5 days straight.

I see everything as an Item to kill myself. Its horrible

I think I do hotline chat, because that helped before