big mistake

Today I made the mistake of telling my mom that I had made a suicide plan a few months ago (and 2 years ago) when I was REALLY depressed. I even told her I had walked into a hospital and then walked out when the nurse at the desk asked if I had an emergency - I thought - "oh my God - what if they commit me!" so I walked out. I can't believe I told my mom - why did I? Now she'll obsess... BIG MISTAKE!!

Oh Ouch,

Your subconcious made you tell her. You really don't want to commit suicide. You want HELP. And, you are hoping and so am I, that now that your Mom knows your thoughts, she will get you that help.
Trust me, it wasn't a mistake that you told her. It's the best thing you could have done. I hope that she will get you someone to talk to about your problems.
Also, maybe now, she will try and talk to you more about what you are feeling and why.
I wish you all the best.
Take care,
Linda

"what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" is only sometimes true and only in an indirect way. What kills us ends our lives and that is always true. Please don't share tht platitude until you think about it. Idont think we shouldtalk about death with people who are suicidal unless we are sure of what we are saying.

Iwould say that sometimes we feel weak because we can't overcome, and we don't need to tell ourselves we should feel "stronger"

I recently said some thing I regretted. People thought it gave them an excuse to take away my power over myself. I took my power back.

Suicide is a bad way to take final, chilling control over a situation that you might have some control over if you tried other ways to work.

Parents worry about their kids, and now you've given a reason for worry. I like it that you claim that as your mistake andtheir worry as a natural reaction. Thatmeans you still controlled events, even though you made a mistake in tactics.

My son coached me on ways to behave that would convince people not to worry about me, and i love him for it.

I guess iwonder most what you want us to take away from what you arre telling us. After all, we can't control you at all, so it's safe to be open with us.

I guess I'm just mentioning it, because my mom will now worry over everything that I say. We live far apart (which I think is actually good for me to tell you the truth because she's very controlling). I just didn't know how to 'fix' it, how to make her stop worrying...

I just stayed on teh line with my daughter 3000 miles away to keep her company while she moved out from her boyfriend. It was a privilege to be with her. I'm not tryingto be better- I was surprised how the problem brought her together. Sometimes it works out.

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