[Little Jay]

Feeling a bit flat, but coping.

[dandylin]

Crisis after crisis after crisis.

[regretful]

Settled into depression and although it is the most uncomfortable place to be, I don't know what to do to get out of it. Too many pressures, too many problems, no solutions...

[Bigmike727]

Well the day isn't done yet but I woke up this morning feeling terrible. The aura of depression is back again after a remission. I try to tell myself everything will work out in time, but I just can't help but feel it's all hopeless. Like everytime I try to go forward a step, I go two steps backwards.

[glok]

The day started not so well ... on the whole, not so bad a day.

[Nammu]

Late yesterday PHP called back and said I could start today and they would pick me up at 8:30am. It's been a looonnnggg day. But I'm glad to get some kind of structure in my life, at least I have a reason to get up.

Ups; everyone is very nice and it's a small group, just 4 of us, nice!

[SoupDragon]

Was so tired. Went to bed early and now after an hour and a half, I am awake. I want to cry but there are no tears, shout and swear, but there is no anger. I feel 1,000,000 miles from everyone.

[TheOriginalMe]

Tired after a busy day. Keep pushing on, show week only comes once a year and I want it to be good.

[tigersassy]

So today has been a trying day. Work, wife wanted to take a step back from our relationship. I lost it panic attack blood pressure through the roof had to leave work 1hour early. Got home talked to wife. She's overwhelmed by dealing with my "issues". Working on taking a step back. Been going away dealing with all of this for over a year. Am going to talk to therapist about taking a vacation to focus on my marriage and trying to make me feel better. My nurse thinks it's a good idea. Am trying to find my wife a therapist so she can have someone to talk to. We are better now that we've talked, but I'm not going to work tomorrow per nurse. Emotional upheavals make me so exhausted. Wife and I are going to do things that make us happy. I hate that everything is feeding my depression. Ready to sleep for several hours.

Being doing very well lately. Haven't had serious suicidal thoughts in about a month and feel motivated and content most days.

[Liquid02]

Trying to settle into my new job. Not listening to the thoughts of worry and panic. Very long and hot day so I am physically tired. Going to go with that and let sleep happen.

[Rose76]

Not so good today.

[regretful]

depressed ... terribly depressed

[birdpumpkin]

I feel I'm about to lose my mind with panic. Not in a good place - feel really scared. We're like 3 months late with our real estate taxes. Was going to get the other half of what we owe Friday when the husband got paid and pay them while he is at work - hard enough for me to wait til Friday. In bed the husband decides to inform me that he has a video conference with a lawyer Friday because the town he works (chief water/sewer operator) for is being sued for something. I don't know if he'll have a chance to get his check cashed during work now. I don't think my nerves can hold up til Monday. I've got to get this thing dealt with ASAP before it drives me crazy.

[glok]

For me, depression is on a continuum. My role is to move depression to better place on the continuum. Today is a rather nondescript day depression-wise.

[Little Jay]

rock bottom

[Belmore]

Like cr@p

[TheOriginalMe]

Another nice day. I am having a genuinely good time even though my depression is still lurking in the background. I have just enough energy to do the things I enjoy but it is a conscious effort. I don't know if I can keep this up once the show finishes and I'm over-compensating a bit and trying to force happiness by spending too much money.

a pretty down day overall. Stress on top of my severe depression. My husband was very upset with me this morning, telling me something has to change with my life, that I can't go on living like this. Then my friend (?) saw fit to question who knows how long my husband's rope is, and that marriages have ended over lesser things than one spouse's depression. Thanks a lot, friend!

[Avatar10]

Originally Posted by newgal2

a pretty down day overall. Stress on top of my severe depression. My husband was very upset with me this morning, telling me something has to change with my life, that I can't go on living like this. Then my friend (?) saw fit to question who knows how long my husband's rope is, and that marriages have ended over lesser things than one spouse's depression. Thanks a lot, friend!

I'm so sorry to hear that you have been criticized both by your husband and friend. I disagree with your friend. True love overcomes EVERYTHING in a marriage. And your husband needs to remember that when he married you it was for the good AND the bad times. Hang in there my friend, I totally understand how you feel and support you!

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[tigersassy]

Better today. Baby steps forward.

[glok]

My level of functioning is not where I want it to be.

[Pikku Myy]

I am ready to simply give up. Could not me more clear.

[Bigmike727]

Well today was ok so far until tonight. I don't know why I feel this way. Like sometimes I just feel fine and then I randomly hit bottom. Usually my anti-psychotics make me feel emotionless, but it's like I have sporadic bursts of either extreme happiness or extreme dread randomly. Can anyone relate to this?

[SadPam]

Stressful and frustrating new job but grateful for it, major anxiety with new puppy mill dog and her freaky behaviors, the world situation terrifies me, I've been crying for one reason or another since I got home from work today. Most nights I would not mind if I didn't see morning. So tired of the BS of this life.