[StarStrike]

I was incredibly drowsy this morning. Almost fell asleep at the library. A member of staff told me I needed to drink plenty of water to help brighten me up. The water did help and by the afternoon I started to feel like myself again. I got given praise by the manager of the library because a customer told him I was very helpful. On my way home I received a phone call from my MH team. At half past three tomorrow I have to go to my local GP to get an ECG and a blood test done. All of this just because they put me on medication. Is it really that strong? Because I don't feel any different than I did yesterday. Well... Aside from struggling to stay awake this morning. So that's pretty much my day.

Originally Posted by StarStrike

I was incredibly drowsy this morning. Almost fell asleep at the library. A member of staff told me I needed to drink plenty of water to help brighten me up. The water did help and by the afternoon I started to feel like myself again. I got given praise by the manager of the library because a customer told him I was very helpful. On my way home I received a phone call from my MH team. At half past three tomorrow I have to go to my local GP to get an ECG and a blood test done. All of this just because they put me on medication. Is it really that strong? Because I don't feel any different than I did yesterday. Well... Aside from struggling to stay awake this morning. So that's pretty much my day.

I had to have an ECG and blood test when I started on risperidone too, it's normal but I have no idea why lol. I'm pretty sure the drowsiness will be down to the new med, hopefully you'll get used to it soon enough

[dandylin]

Ok today, kind of wavering a bit on some things. My dog is in having surgery as I type this. He got hit by a car 6 years ago and the surgeon wired his leg. Just this week the wire worked it's way through his skin and he's having it removed.

[waterknob1234]

Originally Posted by dandylin

Ok today, kind of wavering a bit on some things. My dog is in having surgery as I type this. He got hit by a car 6 years ago and the surgeon wired his leg. Just this week the wire worked it's way through his skin and he's having it removed.

Hope things go okay for your dog. My dog is like my child. I get upset if he gets sick because I love him. Good luck.

[MotherMarcus]

Had an ok day to day. Good visit with my PDoc and went for a bike ride.

[TheOriginalMe]

Originally Posted by newgal2

Today I've bottomed out again. Not quite sure what happened. I don't think the fetizma has done anything, as it turns out.

Sorry, I think yesterday I may have been the curse of PC as someone else I'd posted to ended up having a bad day today too

[TheOriginalMe]

Bad head day, I was drowsy, headachy and muzzy this morning. My head cleared by later this afternoon but it has left my mood lower than it has been for the past week or so.
The bang on the head was partly responsible for my crash, compounded by hormones and finally a letter from work. The letter told me that I have reached another sickness trigger, oh the irony a letter about triggers triggering me.

[breakmystride]

I'm having some very negative thoughts today. I'm keeping busy on some housework and writing to try to distract myself, but it's not working very well and I'm feeling kind of panicky.

[PoorPrincess]

Decent basic day today.

Had a difficult session with my therapist today. I didn't trust or believe most of the things she said to me because she made it sound as if there's some easy solution to depression - "think positive thoughts" blahblahblah. But hours later after having some time to think about what she said and reflect, looking at it in a different way, I can see how some of the things she suggested could help (not cure it, but help). She recommended that I do more positive things as well. Such as blow bubbles. I used to do that as a kid, and honestly it sounds fun. Simple, child-like. I think self-help is going to help me more than therapy will, but it's still nice to have someone to dump all my feelings onto, at least.

Felt pretty hopeless all day and night, having a bit of a hopeful spell now at 1 am but I dunno if it'll last.

[PoorPrincess]

... And yet unable to get to sleep, nauseous, don't feel well. To be continued.

[Nammu]

I managed to call yesterday and arrange a ride into the psych intake place. I;m nervous and can't sleep either. I took the Ambian and laid down but no go. Ive to be up at 8. I'm telling myself not to get my hopes up, no matter what the mobile crisis teem says i dont think they will accept my weird insurance. I have a medicare advantage duel package. So Im trying not to get my hopes up that I can find a PHP program to go to.

[herethennow]

is doing fine hoping everyone is okay!

[ToeJam]

One of those strange empty days today. Neither good nor bad... just got to apply 'no thinking' and hopefully it'll remain like that.

My terribly down morning (conflict with my husband before he left for work) quickly turned to an up when I received a voicemail message from a staffing agency about a potential paralegal job. Maybe that would be my ticket out of depression (or well on my way). Half of my problem is I feel so lonely, bored and useless home by myself with very little to do. Again, this could be the clincher! I guess I shouldn't get my hopes up too much, but I just can't help it. It feels good to feel positive about something for once. Maybe this is what my higher power has intended for me all along . . .

[regretful]

So fatigued...so tired of being depressed and tired....so very bored by all of it, longing to have a chance to get a "do-over" on life, left wondering where everyone else I know went the right way and I did not...in other words, another day of depression, coupled with finding new methods of taking self-deprecation to depths not previously known...

[StarStrike]

Well, I nearly freaked out on the bus. But thankfully two people from my college were there to reassure me there wasn't anyone sitting on the bus seat behind me. It still gave me a scare though. At the library people were being really nice to me asking if I was okay and if I felt up to doing certain tasks. One member of staff even brought out some biscuits for me to snack on when she found out that I hadn't eaten any breakfast. I don't understand why they're being so nice. What if they're plotting to do something horrible on my last day of work experience tomorrow? Well, I do have the feeling that they are planning something. The whisper to each other all of the time. I know it happens. Anyway back on subject. I went to the doctors and got poked four times with a needle when they tried to get blood out of me. The nurse even had to get the doctor in to have a go at my arms! My tiny arms are a nurse's nightmare. She said I was very brave and that most people wouldn't be able to handle being poked that many times. The ECG was a much quicker process and it was over and done with in a flash.

[dandylin]

Originally Posted by newgal2

My terribly down morning (conflict with my husband before he left for work) quickly turned to an up when I received a voicemail message from a staffing agency about a potential paralegal job. Maybe that would be my ticket out of depression (or well on my way). Half of my problem is I feel so lonely, bored and useless home by myself with very little to do. Again, this could be the clincher! I guess I shouldn't get my hopes up too much, but I just can't help it. It feels good to feel positive about something for once. Maybe this is what my higher power has intended for me all along . . .

Good Luck with the temp job.

Originally Posted by dandylin

Good Luck with the temp job.

Thanks dandylin. I think it's temp with the possibility of permanent.

[Aiuto]

Trying to figured out if I can get out of the bed to do school work that I am very far behind even with ADA help. I feel like a failure and very lonely. I keep trying to work on loving myself so maybe I can find someone to love me and all my flaws or damages....

[RunningInTheRain]

Worst day in a long time. I feel like I'm suffocating. I just can't function, can't do anything...I haven't even been able to get a real breath all day. My mind is crushing me. I'm so tired of this.

[healingme4me]

I can focus, at work. Shift in personnel, is shifting productivity, for all. Making minor adjustments, as can see them, necessary. That, helps me, feel less stressed.

I could even pinpoint, how and why a 9 count discrepancy occurred, during 2 of 6. Simple. Involves embedded excel code, substitute secretary, and where regular secretary adds, into one teachers counts, instead of 1 add +2=3, it was '12'.

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[healingme4me]

Add..found my employees cash discrepancy, too.

Touch screen sensitivity. When manually entering K class...too easy, that if not quick on it, can enter student code(4 digit), into cash received screen..

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[TheOriginalMe]

OMG what have I done, can I cope with all this? The builders started on my new bathroom today. The mess is soul destroying, my house is 113 years old and the plaster is crumbling, so it has all been stripped back to the brickwork. Tomorrow is replastering, then the floor has to come up for new pipework. After that the new suite, lighting and radiator go in, followed by tiling, new floor and painting. Put like that it doesn't sound much but living with the dust, the noise and only having a bucket to pee in is bad enough but typically mother nature decided to play a joke on me and after 20 days of menstrual bleeding she decided to let rip with clots and heavy flooding. I want a bath or a shower and I am having to settle for a stand up wash at the kitchen sink Plus I really don't feel like having a houseload of unknown men when I'm in this state.

I feel horrible, I have to hold things together but when this is done I'm retreating under the duvet for at least a month.

[mulan]

I continue to feel the pain of being lonely. I know It's my fault.