Anger at Depression

Is anybody else really angry that they're depressed? I find myself really angry today that I have to be afflicted with this disease, which has been merciless with me lately. So much pain, confusion, hurt, loneliness, self doubt. What did I do to deserve this?

I feel like I've done my time, and it's time for this depressive phase to end! Nine months feeling like this is long enough. I've worked hard all my life and am a good person. Why does this have to continue? Why do I have to feel so powerless about it - - why AM I so powerless over it. Please help!

Yes. This. Thank you for saying it.

I certainly have felt this, and continue to feel anger...a great definition of depression that I heard a long time ago, which I am sure applies to me, is anger turned towards the self. When I'm not angry at the "dis-ease", I'm into full-blown apathy about every aspect of my life. My thinking is that if I just "give-up" then I'm receptive to some changes. Sadly, those changes have not emerged, so I vacillate between apathy and anger...and neither is a good place to be...

I'm not quite sure why I don't find myself being apathetic. I really do care what goes on in my life and am scared that I won't return to my fully functioning self. Maybe I'm not fully understanding how the apathy applies in your situation. Do you mean apathetic about whether your life ever changes (e.g., job) so that you are happier?

I just find myself angry at myself especially, and angry at other people too. I seem to find more fault with my husband lately because I find so much "fault" in myself with this depression lately. I just hate myself and my life, what I've become with this depression. So far from where I've been in the past and where I want to be in the future - - and soon!

Hey guys, are you talking about that lack of feeling you get, when you just don't care that you're depressed? Man, I can relate to that for sure. I'm still at that stage where I really don't care what happens in my life into the future, I just want out.

Thanks for asking for clarification...the apathy is really just a place where I end up when I'm tired of being angry at this depression. It is just that being angry at anything for so long is exhausting, so I find myself at this place of just saying "what's the point of all of it"...apathy about things I used to enjoy, apathy about sporting events, exercise, family, friends, the state of the world...

I, too, am light years from where I was and where I want to be. Apathy comes into play when I just feel like it takes to much energy to even care. By the way, the apathy seems to help, to a very small degree, because at least when I don't care then I'm not blaming myself and/or hating what I've become...

OK, I think I understand a little better. I, too, am very apathetic about things I used to enjoy, e.g., gardening. It just doesn't seem worth the effort because I don't believe it will help my depression. But I'm also very angry that the depression has rendered me apathetic. For me, it doesn't seem to be either/or. I'm apathetic AND angry.

Sadly, that's me at this point in my life. It wasn't always this way, and hopefully it won't always be...

Yes. This. For me angrily sadly true. Thanks, y'all.

Just sharing.

For me, it's the opposite.... as far as anger goes.

It's very hard for me to get angry, but when I do, it's motivating: "Gosh darn it! I will NOT let this beat me, I will fight!"

And then, for a little while, I do. But fighting (at minimum) gives me some self respect and pride.

I'm not really angry at my depression. I see my depression as a symptom of other underlying problems that I cannot resolve. Those are what I'm angry at along with the circumstances of my life that led me to this place. Unfortunately there's nothing I can do, or at least that I'm willing to do, about it. It's just the way it is...

(((((((( newgal ))))))
I hear you

I'm very angry about my depression, but I don't take it out on other people.
I try not to project a negative attitude, because it drives people away. This just leads to isolation and more depression. But some people, just don't get it!

Sadly, it is, in my opinion, only those that are depressed that "get it"...like us on these boards...I wish you, and all of us in this fight against this dark hand of doom on the shoulder, well...