[Lovegood86]

Hi my name is Irene and I'm new here.

Lately I've been staying in bed even more than usual, around 18 to 21+ hours a day. I only leave my bed for showers, use the bathroom, and grab something to eat. About one a week I'll have a therapy appointment and sometimes I'll run errands or get fast food (I eat 2x a day).

The rest of the time I spend sleeping, daydreaming (65%), on twitter or tumblr, online or watching tv.

What's nagging at me is that I can't bring myself to get out of bed for any other reason like doing things on my to do list, go for a walk, see a movie, etc.

I set the alarm for 9 every morning and tell myself that all I have to do is wake up and just do it. But in the pit of my stomach I know that I'm just go l fooling myself. No matter how determined, I end up hitting the snooze button 5+ times until I call it a day and turn off the alarm.

I don't see myself changing. I'm addicted to comfort & safety of my bed and I have developed an EXTREMELY avoidant personality.

I can't & won't go on line this for too long.

I've been job searching and applied for 2, but I've heard nothing back. Everything else feels too intimidating.

Am I the only one like this? Has anyone overcome this and would like to share some advice?

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[glok]

Pleased to meet you, Irene. Does your therapist know about what you just told us. It would seem you need more help than you are getting.

I wish you well.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome to pc Irene

[Lovegood86]

Originally Posted by glok

Pleased to meet you, Irene. Does your therapist know about what you just told us. It would seem you need more help than you are getting.

I wish you well.

He knows. I guess there's not much he can do to help me. Other than hiring a 24 hr life coach to drag and keep me out of bed, I have to do it myself, which is understandable. I've tried recruiting my parents but they can't babysit me all day either.

My therapist uses the analogy of car motors to explain my situation: Some people have disciplined there brains where it's nothing for them to do things they don't feel like doing without a fuss, just insert the key into the ignition and go. I, on the other hand, have one of the motors that you have to get out of the car and hand crank to get it going. It's like pulling teeth with me when I don't feel like doing anything.

It's silly, but I'm still resentful of the fact that being an adult means doing things you don't feel like doing 90% of the time. I have no disciple. I don't know for I made it this far.

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[Lovegood86]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Welcome to pc Irene :

Thank you!

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[Nammu]

I wish I had some advise for you but I'm pretty close to the same conviction right now. I have interviewed for a PHP. They will be picking me up and it's everyday so I have no choice but to get up.

[regretful]

I'm presently looking for work; not getting any replies from the resumes that I have sent out is discouraging and disheartening. I know those feelings well; as I also know that desire to stay in bed all day. But I do what I can to will myself out of bed. I refuse to give up because I live for my wife and son. I had to find something to hitch my wagon to because just doing this for me alone wasn't working. So wrapped up in here is a suggestion - do what you can to take the focus off yourself, which I know is no small task when depression is rearing its ugly head. My best to you for healing..

[Lovegood86]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

I wish I had some advise for you but I'm pretty close to the same conviction right now. I have interviewed for a PHP. They will be picking me up and it's everyday so I have no choice but to get up.

That's great though. Sometimes we need that push. Good luck. So is the php like a life coach? How did you go about getting one?

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[Lovegood86]

Originally Posted by regretful

I'm presently looking for work; not getting any replies from the resumes that I have sent out is discouraging and disheartening. I know those feelings well; as I also know that desire to stay in bed all day. But I do what I can to will myself out of bed. I refuse to give up because I live for my wife and son. I had to find something to hitch my wagon to because just doing this for me alone wasn't working. So wrapped up in here is a suggestion - do what you can to take the focus off yourself, which I know is no small task when depression is rearing its ugly head. My best to you for healing..

Thank you for sharing your story. It's good that you have something outside of yourself to live for. I think that's my problem. Good luck with the job search!

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[Joey32225]

I understand the avoidant personality. It sucks I have nobody to talk to and really don't want to talk at the same time. I hope it gets better for you.

[TorturedSoul92]

I can relate to your experience. When in an episode, you don't feel that it will ever end & the comfort of being in bed seems the best option during this time. However, I remember in each episode of my own I ALWAYS felt unaccomplished & ashamed after sleeping 17+ hours each day. Depression can drain you & take away any ounce of energy you would need to complete any tasks. I understand how hard it gets but believe me, it gets better. I'd recommend talking to a therapist if possible & perhaps, a psychiatrist, to discuss the option of medication. This combination helped me tremendously. And once again it WILL get better

[Lovegood86]

Originally Posted by Acj5114

I can relate to your experience. When in an episode, you don't feel that it will ever end & the comfort of being in bed seems the best option during this time. However, I remember in each episode of my own I ALWAYS felt unaccomplished & ashamed after sleeping 17+ hours each day. Depression can drain you & take away any ounce of energy you would need to complete any tasks. I understand how hard it gets but believe me, it gets better. I'd recommend talking to a therapist if possible & perhaps, a psychiatrist, to discuss the option of medication. This combination helped me tremendously. And once again it WILL get better

I feel better knowing that my situation is not unique. Maybe there's help out there for this predicament.

Thing is, I am seeing a therapist and psychiatrist (10+) years. Maybe it's time for a new one?

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[Lovegood86]

Originally Posted by Joey32225

I understand the avoidant personality. It sucks I have nobody to talk to and really don't want to talk at the same time. I hope it gets better for you.

Don't you hate that! Being social is good for your mental health, but because of your mental health (or lack thereof) you don't want to be social!!!!

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[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Lovegood86

That's great though. Sometimes we need that push. Good luck. So is the php like a life coach? How did you go about getting one?

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Hi again. PHP is partial hospitalization program, here in USA. You go to the hospital Monday though Friday and participate in groups and come home at night. Here there are different PHPs some are long term and others are shorter and meant to replace being in a hospital but still get you though a serious episode in part by getting a routine established. I started today, so now I have to get up everyday and hopefully will start sleeping better since I must get up no matter how I feel.

[Lovegood86]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

Hi again. PHP is partial hospitalization program, here in USA. You go to the hospital Monday though Friday and participate in groups and come home at night. Here there are different PHPs some are long term and others are shorter and meant to replace being in a hospital but still get you though a serious episode in part by getting a routine established. I started today, so now I have to get up everyday and hopefully will start sleeping better since I must get up no matter how I feel.

Good luck. I was hospitalized in 2012 for maybe 5 days. I didn't know they had this partial hospitalizations. Its a really good idea! I'll look into it.

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