Lost the ability to cry!?

Do you ever just feel like you're going crazy? and feel like you want to scream and cry and cry but you just can't cry?

I feel just so sad, and sick of everything, I feel like just smashing everything up and I just can't cry.

I honestly think if I could cry it would feel a bit better. I keep it bottled up inside and it just keeps building up but I just can't let it out.

I literally feel that extreme sadness that I can feel it inside my chest. I feel like you feel when you do that uncontrollable ugly loud sobbing, but it's just all stuck inside me. I try to scream and curl up in bed but I just can't get rid of it.

It's this kind of extreme sadness, but I don't feel slow and sleepy, I feel agitated and like screaming.

The only thing I can offer is I know how you feel. I struggle with wanting, but unable, to cry. I want to cry that sobbing cry, where my chest heaves to breathe.
I've never been a screamer so that doesn't even come up.

I've been there in the past. It's not where I am right now...right now I cry when anyone I know tries to look at me too closely. If I make eye contact with my husband, I end up in tears. I'm avoiding Skyping or talking on the phone with any of my other family/friends because of it. If I try not to cry, it gets all bottled up and makes my throat ache. I can't even try not to cry right now.

I hate it both ways. When I hurt so much, I can't cry at all and everything just feels utterly hopeless, it's every bit as awful. I think the release of crying would be beneficial, but then when I'm like I am now, it doesn't seem like it releases anything...the well is still every bit as full, and I just end up unable to breathe through my nose with raw eyes and nostrils from all the tissue and a headache.

My T suggested I try to go get some cheap plates at a thrift store today so I can do something physical with my emotions (throw/break them someplace safe) that lets off some of the steam in the pressure cooker...don't know if I will, but maybe it would help me to incorporate these emotions into a more all-over, physical response.

Do you do anything else that helps to get your emotions out? I do find that writing it out here is helpful to me. It's a safe environment where I can put out there anything that I'm thinking or feeling, and there are no repercussions (i.e., I'm not hurting/burdening my loved ones, or saying things that are depression-driven that I'll want to take back later).

I have a hard time crying, when I do its mostly anger and rage and fits. So I keep it to myself and then my chest starts hurting and I feel like I cant breathe. I try to cry and I cant and then I get more mad. Its a vicious cycle I tend to go through when im depressed.

I used to wish I can cry, I would try my best to get the tears out and I would just get mad that it's not forthcoming. I thought if I cry I'll finally feel some sort of release.

Slowly I started to just let it go. If I can cry great otherwise I'll try to read or take a walk or write to get myself out of that mode.

I have been there, where I feel like if I could just cry I could release some of the bottled up tension, but just couldn't seem to cry. What bothers me right now is I fall apart and cry in the most inappropriate places, such as at work. I just wish I could gain some control over my emotions. I like the above suggestions, journaling, writing here, going for walks, or other activities to release the awful tension. Best of wishes.

Thank you everyone. I was half an hour late to work this morning so I'm not getting off to a good start
One of the sales guys gave me a funny look and said "your very late today" and i just felt like getting in my car and leaving because I felt like I could break down. Normally when I feel like that I would have cried but it seems like I still can't. I suppose maybe it's a good thing, I hate it when I just cry at the tiniest of things. But this is worse because it just builds up inside me.
I am not coping, but the pay I get for being off sick is not enough to live off, so I can't even take some time off which I really need, and all my holiday days are planned out already. I have two weeks to go abroad in August, so I am just literally counting down until then!

I've not cried in around 7 years. The last time I did: I was at a girls house with a friend. It had been just over a year since I had broken up with my girlfriend. I remember that my ex came up in conversation somehow and it made me cry. Not the ugly, bawling type of crying - I just shed a few tears, held my head, told the people I was with that I missed her, then apologized because I was embarrassed.

The time before that was a year previously, when I broke up with said girl. That was ugly crying as I prayed over a letter I had written her.

Now I can't cry, I just fall into this black despair and slump into a corner.

Yep, I know what you mean..you're not alone

I am a guy so maybe not unusual but I have gone years without crying. When I am in a depression I for sure don't cry at all. What is weird is that in the last four months since I have been doing better on meds I cry quite easily. I have to choke back the tears sometimes and sometimes I let it go depending on if I am alone or not. Posts on this forum make me cry. It feels good to be in touch with that part of myself. It has been so long.