I am tired of explaining my feelings and symptoms but this site has always offered great help and it has been advice worth acting on.

Thoughts - are racing, negative and mentally blocking my enjoyment of theraputic activities. I have made an effort to cycle, swim and generally be outdoors, and nothing is improving because my thoughts are the same, and my mood, regardless of what I do.

Usually these thoughts will consist of flashes of bad experiences/people I consider negative and bad to be around. Also situations I have been hurt in, and regret, are lowering my self esteem whilst i'm out actively trying to improve it.

I can't win and have to wait another 4 weeks for therapy again, on med zoloft and they are doing absoloutley nothing - is there anything I can ask my doctor about which could numb my thoughts for the time being.

The thoughts are stopping me from enjoying the theraputic activities, sleeping and eating the right amount of food I should be eating.

I also feel pressure to pull myself out of this all time low more than ever, because I want to get on with my job searching and 'appear' normal and interested.

any advice or support would be greatly appreciated, have you any coping skills to share or anything else about this issue? Has anyone been experiencing this too? Thanks.

[waggiedog]

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Hello dear Fembot067. Thanks for coming here and sharing your problems with us. You seem to be having a bad time of it all don't you? I take it you don't live in the UK, as we here get booked in for therapy either once every week or every other week for as long as considered it's needed. I certainly DO UNDERSTAND how you are feeling about the fact that as soon as you do well on one thing, another crops up fast, and down you go again!! Could you see your Psych Dr for referral for more therapy etc. You also need to address your Dr' about the medication that appears not to be helping you. Most Psych meds take a long time before they kick in, but we also need to find the med which suites YOU hunny. Don't get dispondant because I know you can be helped. As you rightly said, the way forward is to treat the ''whole'' of you, physical and mental, then you will get to feeling much better. Take care now, HUGS. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

[waterknob1234]

Hi Fembot, I understand how you feel. You can be trying to do something to help yourself and then thoughts of people who hurt you and sad thoughts pop in. I also often feel like people are out to get me, especially at work. It does sound like a change in medication or therapy might be helpful. You are in a good spot in that at least you are fighting the depression demon. Best of wishes to you.

[waggiedog]

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Hello dear Fembot067. Thanks for coming here and sharing your problems with us. You seem to be having a bad time of it all don't you? I take it you don't live in the UK, as we here get booked in for therapy either once every week or every other week for as long as considered it's needed. I certainly DO UNDERSTAND how you are feeling about the fact that as soon as you do well on one thing, another crops up fast, and down you go again!! Could you see your Psych Dr for referral for more therapy etc. You also need to address your Dr' about the medication that appears not to be helping you. Most Psych meds take a long time before they kick in, but we also need to find the med which suites YOU hunny. Don't get dispondant because I know you can be helped. As you rightly said, the way forward is to treat the ''whole'' of you, physical and mental, then you will get to feeling much better. Take care now, HUGS. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Hi Waggiedog -

thank you for your support, I live in the UK to and have been put on a massive waiting list after a referral from lift psychology, now referred to somewhere else.

I have changed my med I was on citalopram now zoloft - had a bad experienced on the second day of zoloft, it was a bad reaction and I got sick.
Now it is fine, just hyper tension - sweating and anxiety. But a buzz feeling in the morning, then it stops working.

I am keeping fit, getting fresh air but it means nothing because I am not happy, I was wondering if a private T would make any difference?

Thanks again your message was very supportive xxx

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

Hi Fembot, I understand how you feel. You can be trying to do something to help yourself and then thoughts of people who hurt you and sad thoughts pop in. I also often feel like people are out to get me, especially at work. It does sound like a change in medication or therapy might be helpful. You are in a good spot in that at least you are fighting the depression demon. Best of wishes to you.

Thank you for the support Waterknob - i feel like i'm helpless but at least being outdoors is pleasant at the moment because it's summer here.
Yeah I don't know what this social paranoia is, i'm sorry to hear you're going through this too, and at work of all places, i'm afraid it will never go, it is even with people I don't even know in the street, and swimming is not so bad because I can swim away!
Waiting for therapy makes the issue worse, and I don't feel like SSRI'S are working for me. They just don't take anything away.

Good luck with your issues too, are you seeing a good T? How can I find one who actually cares?