I feel completely hopeless

Making friends, getting a job, feeling happy with myself, managing my wardrobe, I don't think it will ever happen. I'm 36 now, so there's almost not enough time to do a few of these things. Making friends at my age is hard and I couldn't do it when I was in high school, so what chance is there now? Getting a job likewise. I've been unemployed for four years so it's not getting any easier.

Feel completely hopeless.

Lots of suicidal thoughts, but I don't know if I can kill myself.

I'm in a difficult place too in my life.. I have had a lot of negative relationships with others, difficulty making and keeping good contact with people. I don't have friends currently nor a partner. I'm not working, have no career and don't feel in place to work still but want to have a good meaningful career.

This hopelessness thing really sucks ... it's fear of course; fear of repeated disappointments.

Hopelessness for me is the fear of failure and of time running out. I know for me I don't want to die, but I just want to be...nowhere I guess. To me nowhere is a place where I have no obligation or time limit. Maybe you want to just be nowhere too? It makes it harder that the things that I liked to do, I no longer feel like doing anymore...I remember they used to help though. Do you have things that you like to do?

It's hard for me to make friends because I am at the place where I don't trust most people except for the people here. I have a job that makes me miserable, but I don't quit because I need the money to pay the bills. I am almost crying at the thought of going to work now. I know life is just plain hard. Somewhere down the line it will get better for us, it must. Hang in there. Love and hugs to you.

Its trying to keep battling with illness and life issues thats hard.

Hope you hang in there. (((Hugs)))

I never thought of it that way or had hopelessness described for me. Fear of repeated disappointments is exactly what it is!! And boy am I struggling with that right now! I just lost my job for the first time ever (i'm 50ish) and I understand I can only get unemployment six months so that in itself is scary. I'm worried about finding a comparable good job on top of all the daily stuff that I can't seem to be able to handle. :-( Thanks for the definition.....I'm going to think on that one....

I'm 36 also and it's as if I could have written that post myself. You definitely aren't alone.