[jefftele]

hallo i'm reaching out to people who know depression i have a life long depression the docs call it double depression at tho mo i am sinking -again i get so tired of this illness when i feel sort of well i start to make plans about returning to some form of work trouble is this process starts to spiral me down into depression this has been a pattern for so long friends tell me to stop even thinking about working and accept i'm ill but i find it so hard to accept it leaves me often thinking why me but then equally why not me ,i have read so much about depression and had so many experiences from my own but it seem as though depression wants to destroy me i have lots of people who love me its seems i just can't love and value myself i seem to equate my value with my being able to work does anyone have a similar problem and have they managed to overcome it

[phillygirl]

((((((((Jefftele))))))))) I do know what you mean about not feeling worth anything when work was an issue. I've felt that all my life as well. It's starting to lift a little now. I'm starting to realize that I do have some worth on my own. It seems so simple but I've lived my whole life having no self esteem and hating myself even while I had people who loved me too. So anyway, I hope you find what works for you and get to feeling better soon.

[ouch]

I know what you mean. I am on disability because I was so depressed, I couldn't function at work. I am still not doing great, but I think just having work to do rather than sulk at home may help me. Could you get a part-time job just to get you out of the house? I am not sure if I can make it at work, but I feel the need to get out and be productive - I totally understand what you're saying about feeling unproductive. Depression sucks!!! I have to think it can be beat!

[dreamgirl30]

I can understand how you feel. I know Depression ruins people. it is the illness which people can not say just looking your face, but deep down, it is horrible. I am also going through this..... but sometimes it is easy to say to others but to feel is horrible. i also agree with ouch to get some sort of work which makes you busy. i go to school even though i feel so tired and my mind is all blank...... hope you will feel better soon.