Stayed in bed all day!!!

Not again -- spiralling down... can't do this - going to work in a week. Therapist was asking me about suidal ideation again - talked of hospitalization - feel like it's all coming back... too familiar... nothing to prevent it... scared...

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I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now ... hang in there.

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I am so sorry you are feeling this way.
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{{{HUGS}}} I'm so sorry that you are having a bad time. One of the times that I was faced with going back to work, hospitalization was the best thing I did. They were able to find a med that worked great for me, Tegretol.

Have you been hospitalized before? What kind of work do you do?

((Ouch)) I'm sorry things are bad for you right now!
Take care

((())) Ouch. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Please hang in there, it will get better.

Hello Ouch.
I am sorry you are not feeling well at this time. I hope you feel better soon. Ouch if the hospital is what you need for a bit to get stable it may be for the best. Then you can feel better and get your medication adjusted so you can go back to work when you are able. Take care Ouch Soidhonia

I'm sorry it is so rough for you right now. I know that staying in bed all day has often been an essential coping mechanism for me.

Hang in there - I do hope you feel better before going back to work.

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I'm so sorry things are so rough for you..... sending many positive vibes

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Ouch
I avoided being hospitalised for a long time in which things just got worse. I was forced into a psychiatric institution last year after I had made an attempt on my life and was rescuscitated and ventilated for a few days. I was then sent to the facility and although I didn't want to do this, it was the best thing for me at the time....
Maybe going in for a while will prevent you from getting too suicidal so, it might be worth giving it a try.

I've been feeling that same spiral and pretty much didn't work this week. I've wondered what is best to do.

Waiting for spring break ...Just need a change of scenery

I've been hospitalized twice. It has helped significantly - in may be best. I'm debating whether or not a third time may be needed.

Someone asked have you been hospitalized? If not, you will find that it isn't all those scary things you think it is. It actually is helpful

Thanks everyone for your support - this website is great! it has really been helping...

No, I've never been hospitalized. Avoided it like the plague -lied to people to avoid it, and then when my G.P. wanted to hospitalize me ('form me' as she put it), I convinced her not to (told her a friend was coming to help - which she was). I know I should have been...

Then when my psychiatrist and psychologist wanted to do the same, I convinced them not to. Avoided certain statements so that I wouldn't be locked up.

what's it like to be in hospital? I have images from movies... Scares the hell out of me.

I have had 4 different occasions in hospital ranging from 1 week to 4 weeks. The last incorporating ECT - shock therapy.

I can only say that it was nothing like the images from the movies. Granted, I was in a private and sinfully expensive hospital but it was good for me. I will never regret having been in a psych hospital.

If your instinct is carrying you here (to a hospital, I mean), despite your fears - perhaps you should follow it.

Your life is so important. You are important.

I hope you find peace with what you need to do.

My two biggest fears was a padded cell and loosing my job. Neither would be reality.

If you go - go on a Monday or Tuesday. The regular staff and activities are not around on the weekends.

I've been in two different hosiptals. One was like a hotel room - two twin beds, a bathroom w/shower, and desk and chair. The other one didn't have a private shower.

Typically my p-doc came in once a day, met with a nurse twice per day, attended a group session, activities. Most the people I met from doctors, nurses, other patients were all very nice. In a lot of ways they treated me better than what is now my ex-wife. Everyone was there for similiar but different reasons. I saw a lot of compasssion.

Meals were actually pretty good. I guess I'm just rambling. Do you have any specific questions?

I don't know... ECT would definately scare me. I also fear losing my job - already had to take a sick leave for 2 months because of depression - another one would be a disaster. I don't know what scares me about psych hospitals, I guess the stigma attached... Padded cells do sound scary too!! I'm in Canada so there aren't private hospitals... So staff aren't condescending? I guess even other psych patients scare me... I don't know... I guess one always fears the unknown. My family's reaction would also scare me - although by now they realize how far I have sunk...

Hi Ouch,
My hospital stay wasn't so bad. The other patients weren't scarey and I had my own room. The shower/bath was a group shower/bath that I always got to take in private. I think I've said this before on this site but my stay at the hospital was kind of like the hospital stay that Sandra Bullock had in the movie 28 Days-only there weren't any corny song singing, no wearing signs and it wasn't a drug rehab. We had a ping pong table, a piano, tv, a pool table and the people working there were very nice to me. Too bad I was sooooo involved and interested in a male patient there that I didn't get as much out of the stay there as I could have if I had stayed focused on why I was there. Not a good idea to try to date or hook up with another patient there.
But no padded cells, no scarey nurses, nobody forced me to take medications, no other patients being spazzed out or violent.
I hope if you ever do go to a hospital then you're admitted to a hospital like the one I had.
(((((((((((Ouch))))))))))))))) I hope that you're okay. We're here with lots of hugs and understanding.

OUCH.....i've been hospitalized 5-6 different times in two different hospitals. Each time was a blessing. I got to meet people who felt just like I did. We attended group meetings to help us cope with whatever we needed at the time. We could talk if we wanted to or just listen. I did alot of journaling. There were activities like Jax mentioned. And the food was wonderful!!!! I thought I was going to lose my job too, but I didn't. I had disability insurance through my job and qualified for that. It was the best thing I ever did. It was because of the hospitalization that I was properly diagnosed and got my medicine right!! I believe it would be worth it for you to try it!!! {{{{HUGS}}}}}

I really hope i don't need it - but good to know it's not as scary as i imagine it... Are Canada hospitals the same?

I feel like I'm on a bit of a rollercoaster - some days it's soooo hard to get out of bed and then I just stay there all day and feel miserable. Other times, I'm somewhat ok. Wish I could maintain an 'ok' baseline - have 1 more week before I go back to work from sick leave - HAVE to figure it out.... Really don't want to be asked by therapists about hospitalization - don't want to portray the 'are you suicidal?' vibe anymore - but how?