I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING!!!!!

Why is it that everyday feels worse than the last one??? Im sorry, i just need to vent....... I see NOTHING getting better, the future, HA! yeah OK, its gonne be just like it is now. I CAN"T take this anymore! I completely forgot what it is to be "normal" or "happy". Everything is dark to me and it always feels like everyone including my family, is against me. I am SOOOOOOO sick of trying to please EVERYONE, when I dont even know myself anymore because of Depression. Ah yes, that is me now. I feel I am a worthless, low life loser who dosent even deserve to be here.Evryone keeps saying to "keep pushing" and that "I'll get somewhere soon", Yeah right. Don't I have to want it??? I have been "pushing" for so long now and everything gets worse. I am to the point where I just want to run away, and keep running and NEVER stop. I wish I could run from myself, I hate me. Im not good for anyone. Honestly, im really hoping that something will happen to me soon, so I dont have to deal with this constant pain anymore.

i'm so sorry that you're in so much pain right now. i understand. we all go through times like you're going through.

please take good care of yourself. pat

Hello Mamazangel.
I am very sorry you are going through a hard time at this time. I hope things get better for you soon,. There is a chat here as well if you would like to talk to someone in person. Take care . Soidhonia

Im soo soo sorry that your dealing with this! It is very frustrating to know that everyone around you is against you and not cheering you on. But know that we at pc, are cheering you on. its extremely difficult to go on and live life when nothing gets better..only worse. but try to hang in there. i know it seems like an eternity and its hard to see the reason in living right now..believe me, your not alone, im in the same boat. so remember, try to keep your head up! ok? ((((((MamazAngel))))))