There´s nothing good in life

I don´t know if this part of the forum is the right place to post this but anyway. I´m 30+ and I live a really bad life.

I´ve searched for T:s but in my country you have to pay to get the care. I don´t have anyone to talk to, I´m single and unemployed. I´ve done a lots of things to improve my situation, I´ve got two long educations at a university level but I didn´t get a job.

As I´m depressed I don´t have the ability any longer to do anything radical about my situation. To that, I´ve already lost many years to loneliness and unemployment. I´ve never had a relationship and I had no real friends when I was younger.

There´s nothing good in life and when you end up at the "wrong track" there´s no turning back. Everyone speaks about life getting better, I don´t believe it. I think you just wait and accept that you got a meaningless life that you can´t improve in any way.

I know, I lived like this for ten years.

Hello PaulaS: I'm sorry to read of your difficulties. I'm in my mid 60's now. And I also view my life as having been pretty-much meaningless. I guess the one good thing in my situation is, since I am older, I don't much care anymore. It is true, I think, that the longer one is alone & unemployed, the more difficult it becomes to get back into the mainstream. And, when one is saddled with depression, it makes the situation just that much more difficult.

Personally, I don't think there's anything wrong with accepting one has a meaningless life, if in fact one can truly accept it. It took me many years to accept that this was the way I was heading. Now that I'm there, there is a certain freedom that results from it. So I hope, if you really do view your life as meaningless & believe there is nothing you can do about it, that you can come to a place where you can feel okay about it.

Hi Paula,
Thanks a lot for sharing your experience. Perhaps, in addition to personal issues and features, there are social and economic causes configuring your depression. You could tell me "it does not matter, I suffer anyway", yet I think that looking at the factors underneath your depression from an ample point of view is relevant. One on hand, to avoid excessive self- punishment or fatalism ("I am worthless", "my fate is ill"). On the other hand, to identify possible steps towards improving your current status.
You are young and that can be an advantage. Of course, when we are at our lowest peak of depression, we feel we can do nothing to improve. But, I promise, that feeling is not eternal.
I found this place to be a good platform to learn from others, and to get support. Life is hard, living with depression is harder, but there is hope.
Sending you a hug

I feel sorry that you feel that way. I think that's part of life. Time will always come that everyone would be alright as long as we never give up trying. Never give up up, no matter what and do not lose hope at all. I have no idea on what you are going thru but man, there's always someone up there to talk to. It helps.